"Dear diary,
I met him today, AT MY APARTMENT…I know! Right!
So He was wearing something different from his usual color palette, the usual Black leather, and heavy riders boots, to a casual white top tank and some light gray jeans , even some beat up Vans with the deepest red which appeared to be Steve's?.
His hair done in a cute man bun, but nothing can be said about his rebellious long bangs that pretty much where screaming their love for his face. Did I mention the fucking beard?...well. Kill me please!
He was Waiting for Steve to come home while cleaning his aviator's patiently on my couch like he owned the fucking block, and His metal prosthetic was glimmering with every movement of his arms.
I was dying to see him again, and then, He is here! ... Steve did not come home early today, which was not unusual really, he runs for hours .I've known Steve for like four years now, every day is a blessing with that boy, until That day , Steve's graduation party last September when a guy came to the party dressed like a fucking Rock star, Rocking in leather and long hair, playing with the chains of his dog tags ...I didn't know that it was him at that time, But everything was screaming 'Danger'.And that was It. That's when I felt alive for the first time..."
I paused for a bit, tapping the pen on the paper absent-mindedly thinking about that night .And what a night it was!
I was with the group from my college days ,having a very good time. when I saw Steve's eyes widen like I've only seen him do when the pizza guy knocked on the door after a long run at the library. Being that much unusual, I couldn't figure out why? I mean, the pizza guy was here like an hour ago!
Curious, I turned my head in the direction where Steve was looking and let's just say that Days were much simpler before that moment.
A God! A fucking Dark God just came into a mortals place...was he lost or something?... I completely forgot about what I was doing in that place... If it wasn't for the loud music which was pretty much a white noise in the background of my head at the moment, replaced by the drumes of my own heartbeat. And then That Creature did the second most beautiful thing That I've seen that week...He Just...Smiled!... A wild, most sincere, most breathtaking gleam of pure Joy.
And, Steve ran, he ran to the guy, who was beaming at him with open arms. when the final contact happened, and the arms were locked on each other in a crushing hug, I could swear to this day that I felt the amplitude of what was between those two.
The guy's left "metallic?" hand gripped the back of Steve's neck while the right one locked on his back. I Could see his face being buried in Steve's shoulders while my friend kept "cradling"him!?.OK! so it must be someone close, like Really close. But Steve never had a family after his Ma died. Apart from...Wait! No! Really? Him? Is that Bucky? Like for real? Steve told me about his childhood best friend, the only One who was with him from the Kindergarten through high school.T he only person that could put the sparkles in his eyes when he was talking about the him, the guy never shut up about him, Bucky was like a ghost always roaming around for the past years I've known Stevie, it was nice to finally see him in person.
I got on my feet, passing a hand through my clothes, arranging my favorite "Scorpions" T-shirt that I threw out with some skinny dark Blue jeans and The FIRST most beautiful thing that I saw that week... A black leather stiletto that matches my own leather jacket. then I noticed that Steve's is coming back WITH that god on his hands.
"Guys! Guys.. Look who's here!" Steve shouted excitedly while grabbing the other man's boob?ok
"Hey! Buck! holy shit man, that's a fucking surprise..." said Clint after Throwing Himself on the poor guy. Bucky greeted everyone with a nod and smiled to Nat.
" How did you know where we were?" asked Steve after a moment, trying to be seated properly with the new arrival added to that small, very unsuited-for-having-so-many people-on couch!
Steve was still smiling to his back teeth showing, which was really good to watch, as I seated myself on the armchair next to Natasha on Steve's left crossing my legs.
"It's Nat, she texted me A while ago"I finally had the first taste of his voice... that, I wished I never did!
Steve looked at Nat with the sweetest face ever.
I know that Natasha knew the duo in high I guessed that they stayed in touch.
"congratulations Stevie..." Bucky added turning his gaze to Steve and smiling like a big brother that he actually was.
Steve was floating right now with happiness which was drawn on his smile, it was clear which one of us had the best gift for our dear boy.
Thanks, Nat!you sneaky little...I thought while grabbing my drink and smiling fondly. people gifts objects, things, not a person!
And it was then when Bucky decided to keep talking
"Can anyone of you do the introductions?" he looked at me with a sneaky smile which at that point just added gasoline to the whole war that was raging in me
I looked right into those light blue, No gray...! Fucking Grey eyes! WTF dude! come on ...not fair!
"Right," cut Steve, "this is Moon, she was my college roommate, still is actually. roommate, that is !... Well, I told you about her Buck, This is she." said Steve still smiling like a kid " This is Buck. Moon, the one and only."
"Hey doll!" said Bucky piercing me with his Fucking eyes
I was RED...Nat looked at me fighting her sneaky smile.
"Hi!" that was the only thing that I could manage at the moment. which was, let's be honest HUGeeee!
I closed my fingers around my empty glass, as they kept talking….What the hell is wrong with me?
This is typically ME, every time, every fucking time, I find someone attractive, I become this…Stupid little girl blushing at everything. like a freaking teenager all over again. But Ifhe was attractive AND I don't see him as a potential Boyfriend, nothing changes. Am Me, with every sarcastic, unladylike side of me, I show everything and don't give monkey's ass about his reaction… But this is James fucking Barnes… !
Why can't I be cute, and talkative? Show off all my good and feminine sides. I know I can be quite boyish, well all my friends find that sweet and charming in its way. But why do I lose all my potentials as soon as am interested in someone?!
Bucky, was still looking at me now and throughout the evening, which made me SOo Alert to his presence at the party, well How could he Not be Noticeable! like, come on! That dude was like a freaking eye magnet, and I thanked God for that at some point, because it gave me reassurance that I was not the only one doing so..so yeah kept looking.
I was in the kitchen at after a while, helping Nat and Wanda clearing out some mess at the twin's apartment, they were nice enough to let the party happen there, so let's be civil about it. when Bucky made his way to sit on the kitchen counter across from me, trying to keep myself busy to avoid making a fool of myself, deciding to clear out the small table next to the couch which was covered with plastic cups and empty pizza boxes. Walking to it, I could feel those sinful eyes on me, when I got back, he brought his glass to his lips and purred.
"nice shoes!" with a side smile.
Ok! so he noticed that gorgeous little piece of happiness I was wearing...OK! thanks, anybody shoots me now...cause it is going to hurt if this continues!
"hum...Thanks!" I replied blushing. "you like them?" I tried to be casual while sustaining his gaze
"How could I not?! I mean look at them…" he said widening his eyes " But it's not the shoes that drew my attention first though!" he took a sip
"ho! what then?"Surprised really like what is there to like apart from the shoes!
He moved forward and took the tip of my shirt between his Index and thumb
I could cook a fucking omelet on My cheek right now.
"I like the shirt!...didn't think that anyone could pull off a rock band shirt with High heeled stilettos," He said while FUCKING licking his lips which were red after so many rounds between his teeth.
"Scorpions heuh!" he added with a smirk" would have taken you for a 1D girl"
"Really!"I stopped mid-work stunned and looked at him; Wtf dude 1D? really do I look like am twelve?
He didn't reply, just kept side smiling, and turned to Steve, the fucker he was sooo playing with me now!
the night got to an end, and I and Buck didn't get to talk after the 1D thing, but it was Ok, some side glances now and then were enough.
Cause in a million years I wasn't prepared for what was coming.