Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight, Stephenie Meyer does.

A/N: This story contains mature themes and language. If you think that the material is offensive then feel free to leave. This is a product of my wild imagination and I am in no way familiar with infidelity. That being said, I will not accept offensive reviews towards me or my story. Consider yourselves warned.

Much love to my beta Feralness Is Me. My twi-sister Helen, Sophia and Anthi for pre-reading! Love you lots!

Living In Sin ~ Prologue

~O~

You grace me with your cold shoulder
Whenever you look at me I wish I was her
You shower me with words made of knives
Whenever you look at me I wish I was her

These days when I see you
You make it look like I'm see-through
Do tell me why you waste our time
When your heart ain't admitting you're not satisfied
You know I know just how you feel
I'm starting to find myself feeling that way too

Cold Shoulder ~ Adele

~O~

I would never, in my wildest dreams, think I would ever be in this situation. I was an honorable woman, and now, I couldn't find it in me to care. My actions were wrong and I hoped my suspicions were just as wrong, but something told me they were not.

What do you do when you believe your husband is cheating on you?

I never thought mine would. I loved him and I thought I was loved in return.

Wrong.

Stalking was never my thing but desperate times call for desperate measures.

That's what brought me here.

Desperation.

I was determined; I had a plan. I would finally put an end to it. I would see for myself if my suspicions were true. I would see if she was the one or not.

I stood outside the door trying to gather my strength and knock. I knew what was behind it and the thought alone made my knees buckle beneath me. I took a deep breath and raised my hand.

Knock knock.

I hurried down the hallway and hid around the corner where I knew she wouldn't see me.

Please don't let it be true!

The door opened and she stood there wearing his blue dress shirt. Her hair was all around her; she had swollen lips; and eyeliner smirched around her eyes. Her neck was covered in love bites and hickeys. Her attire screamed of sex from miles away, and my heart clenched a little.

"Hello?" She looked around, trying to find the person that had knocked on her door.

I froze.

It was true. It was true, and I couldn't believe it. My husband was cheating on me and now I knew with whom.

It didn't matter though. She was nothing, she would be out of his life soon, and then we would be happy again. We would be a family again.

How can you say that? She will always be the only one in his heart. She always has been and you know it.

It was true. She was his first love, and apparently that love never died. They shared the real thing, and I stood powerless, watching that woman take my husband away from me.

I would fight; I would fight for him and our Marriage. I would do anything in my power to keep them apart and get him back. Because he chose me; he proposed to me, and that is something she will never change.

He chose me.

I'll be around Bella, you keep that in mind. In the end he will always come back to me. Just like he always has. Sooner or later.

At least I hoped he would; until now he did anyway.

The door closed, and I left with my head held high. My husband would come back to me at the end of the day, and soon she would be gone; we would be happy again. I would finally find peace of mind. I had to find myself again, because every time he looked at me like I was a stranger, I had wished I was her.

I'm Tanya Denali-Cullen and I'm desperate. This is my story.

~O~

I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall

And I've been laying here praying, praying she won't call

It's just another call from home

And you'll get it and be gone

And I'll be crying

It's too much pain to have to bear

To love a man you have to share

Why don't you stay

I'm down on my knees

When she calls you to go

There is one thing you should know

We don't have to live this way

Baby, why don't you stay

Stay ~ Sugarland

~O~

There are some things you have no control over; your actions and their consequences; the final outcome; the collateral damage; the heart ache; the loss; and despair. There are also things you do in order to achieve your goal. The one thing you want the most. The one thing that can change your entire world.

Some say love is good.

Some say love is bad.

Love can kill.

Love can heal.

Love can make people do things they may or may not regret later.

The question is… Is it worth it?

Is love worth all of the above?

The good and the bad in order to get the one thing you need the most?

I say it is.

Love made me do things unimaginable; things I never thought I would. I'd hurt people I never thought I could. I said things I didn't mean. I did things I never thought I could. I became another person; a person determined to get what was, to me, the one thing I couldn't live without.

Him.

The person that had turned my world upside down.

Our story goes way back.

Since we were teenagers—awkward, nerdy, and clumsy teenagers—without knowing anything, we knew one thing. Nothing mattered, as long as we were together; that was the only thing that mattered.

Untill reality came crushing down on us, and our worlds were separated.

It was just a silly act of impulse that tore us apart.

But when life has a plan, nothing can stop it from becoming reality.

I lost him once, and I was determined to do anything to get him back. Because losing him wasn't an option. Our love wasn't something we could change. We were meant to be and that was it. No matter what.

Was it easy?

Most definitely not.

Was it worth it?

Totally.

Because when you cheat, when you lie; when you know you deserve to be judged and pointed at, you know there's no turning back.

If I was given the chance I would do it all over again.

I would do it to be with him, because we just were meant.

Putting a brave face on and a kind smile, while lying to the world and the people we loved; together we managed to conceal the truth.

We lied.

We cheated.

We hurt.

We deceived.

But in the end… we managed to stay together.

I'm a cheater.

I'm a liar.

I'm Bella Swan and I'm the other woman. This is my story.

~O~

And I'd give up forever to touch you

Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

Cause sooner or later it's over

I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me

Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

Iris ~ Goo Goo Dolls

~O~

I'm a greedy bastard.

When most men have a wife, a home—maybe kids—a job, a lovely life. Ordinary. I chose to have more.

I chose to have a wife, a home—not kids yet but someday sure—a job, a lovely life. And then some.

Ordinary wouldn't be the perfect word to describe it.

When I was in high school, I met this girl and I knew. She was the one. She would be on my side for ever.

Was she the one that I shared my life with? My bed? My name? My heart?

Yes.

And no.

I shared my heart with her; as a matter of fact, I gave it to her a long time ago and I simply never took it back; there was no point.

I shared my bed with her, and her couch; and her bathroom; and her bedroom floor, basically every flat surface we could find and then some.

I shared my life with her—half of it anyway. As much as I could but not as much as I would want to.

My name?

Nope, definitely not.

That was after all the main problem.

Then, there was another woman.

I shared everything with her; almost.

My bed, my name; my life.

My heart?

No, you can't share something you don't have.

I gave my heart away and I would do it again.

I'm a man that made a mistake that I couldn't fix in time.

I'm a cheater.

I'm a liar.

I'm in love with Isabella Swan.

She's my everything.

I'm married to Tanya Denali-Cullen.

She's my wife.

I'm an ass in a complicated life, but I wouldn't change it for the world. All because she's in it.

I'm Edward Cullen and I'm a greedy bastard. This is my story.

~O~

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