Author's Note:This takes place at the end of the Yatsuba ark, when Light is about to recover his memories. The difference is… He doesn't want them back. This is my take on how things would have ended up should Light decide that he was wrong to play god when he himself was so human. Also, the conversation where Rem tells Misa about the Note and stuff never happens, or at least Misa never says anything. This is going to be a work in progress, I intend to continue the story, so comment the story and help me if I need it. THANKS!

I do not own the series, but I'd like too.

Light took the Death Note from L, and all of his memories came flooding back to him, Ryuk, Misa, Naomi and Raye. He remembered every murder, every scheme, he remembered why L suspected him; because he was right.

Yes! My plan succeeded! Now all I have to do is kill that oaf and reclaim ownership of the Note, then my memories are back for good.

Light Yagami opened the secret compartment in his watch containing the scrap of Death Note he had hid there so long ago and he began to write the name that would allow him to continue purifying the world from evil, then he stopped.

What…what is wrong with me? Why can't I write his name down? Common Light one more word, just one.

Light's hand was shaking, thankfully L was to preoccupied with the arrest taking place to notice. He sat there in shock, trying to figure out what had him frozen like this. Why couldn't he kill him? He had killed so many before, even innocent people without flinching; now he couldn't even write the name of someone who deserved to die.

But is that really my choice to make? Who am I to decide who lives and who dies? I AM GOD! That is who I am, I am Kira, and I will rid the world of evil to create a bright and ideal world!

The thoughts of Kira and Light raged within him as has he trembled. He looked back at what had happened to him since he found the Death Note, so many wonderful things had happened to him, and so many catastrophes as well. It's because of the Note that he got to work with his father, it's why he met Misa, and L, it's why people adored and worshipped him, it's the reason he met Ryuk and learned of the shinigami realm, it's why he was a murderer.

No, I don't want to be god! I just want to be normal! I want to have a good job with the police, solving crimes, I want to date, I want be human! I have to get rid of this Note, but I can't destroy it without incriminating myself. Damn me for making Ryuk add those fake rules! What can I do? I know, I'll let Ryuzaki have it, and when Misa and I don't die in 13 days, he'll realize that those rules are fake and burn the Note! And I won't have to worry about the one I buried because I won't remember where it's at! It's perfect! Maybe I can even continue to work with Ryuzaki, he said I'm his first friend, he'd love to have me working with him! Yes, I will rid the world of evil, but I will have Ryuzaki helping me, and I won't be a murderer ever again!

"Ryuzaki, here's the Note, I don't want to touch it anymore, it freaks me out, like there's some weird aura around it."

L looked at Light. He could see the look in Light's eyes that he had when L had suspected him of being Kira, but as he took the Note, Light's eyes returned to the innocent expression he had had since his confinement. L now knew it. Light Yagami was Kira when and only when he was in possession of the Note, and if he was giving it back to him, then he either had something planned, or wished to give up his power. Of the two options, the latter seems the most improbable L decided, so something will have to be done to make sure Light never touches it again.

"Thank you Light-kun. Yes, this book definitely feels evil, and I am going to burn it as soon as possible, but don't worry about Amane-san and yourself, as I am 97 sure the last two rules are fake."

"That's very good to hear Ryuzaki, I don't want to die. But just so you know, if I had to, I would die to stop that book from ever being used. My dad was right, the power to kill is evil of itself."

After everything was straightened out, Ryuzaki called all of the Kira Investigation Team together in their headquarters. He went through his entire thoughts about the case, and since he had not yet burned the Note, a bored Ryuk confirmed Ryuzaki's theories…to an extent. Now the team was waiting for Watari to come back from informing the UN about the situation's resolution. As far as anyone was concerned, Kira had been caught and the various differences in killing were blamed on psychosis of the killer. Since Ryuzaki was convinced Light and Misa were no longer Kira, he decided their part in the story should be unmentioned. They watched the emergency news report of Kira's arrest and immediate execution, and then Ryuzaki approached Light.

"Light-kun, may I have a moment with you in private please?"

"Sure Ryuzaki."

Ryuzaki led them down the hall and up the stairs; they went to the roof of the building. Light was wondering what L had in mind to need so much privacy. Ryuzaki stood near the edge staring into the city below for a long time before he finally turned to Light and spoke, his dark soul-less eyes staring deep into Light's.

"Light-kun, I am going to admit to you that I fully expected you to kill me earlier, to retrieve the Death Note from me."

"What-"

"Please let me finish. However, when you had the Note and gave it back, I noticed a change in your eyes. You see, when you held the Note, your eyes were dark and malevolent, and it was obvious that you were Kira, but then you just gave the Note back, and your eyes returned to the innocent look they have now. So now I have come to my last two decisions about the end of this case. My first is that even when you were Kira, something made it so you didn't want to be, and that is why you returned the Note and let me burn it. You see, if you were planning on remaining Kira, you would have found some way for ownership to pass to you before you returned the Note, thus keeping your memories and then be able to retrieve the second Note, which is currently unaccounted for. Now for my second decision…"

Light stared intently into Ryuzaki's eyes. He didn't believe Light was Kira anymore, he was truly free, and he didn't have to worry about his father any longer. What is this second decision?

"Well Ryuzaki, what is your second decision?"

"…The second Note is still out there, waiting until a human finds it. I wish to be able to find it so that It may never be used, and I'd like for you to help me."