Never Ending Pain
Chapter 1
I was running in the middle of a forest but everything was off. First of all I don't run and I certainly didn't run on all fours. Plus who would run when it was night and snowing anyways? In a distance I heard a howl and I howled back. I howled back. Why in the world would I howl? The next thing I know there was a beautiful black wolf in front of me. I want to touch it so I raised my hand to pet it but when I looked down I say a whitish silver paw in front of me. I had a paw? Why the hell do I have a paw? Nothing made since at all I was lost in confusion. "Rachel?" I looked up at the wolf hearing my name being called in my head. "Rachel?" And again, I didn't hear it with my ears I heard it in my head.
"Rachel I'm serious you need to get up and get ready for school or you're going to be late for your first day of senior year." My mother called from my door frame. Thank god that was just a dream. I should really stop reading up on wolves before I go to bed. This was like my tenth time having this dream in a row. Even if they are my favorite animals that doesn't mean I should dream about them too. I got up and got ready for the day still fascinated on the dream. Why would I have a dream like that? Why would I be a wolf and why did I hear my name in my head and not throw my ears if it had been my mother saying it? But it didn't sound like my mother it didn't even sound close to my mother's voice it was for sure a guy's voice. I couldn't put a face with the voice but it did sound familiar. I knew I was going to spend the whole day trying to figure it all out.
Well that's what I thought until I got to school and ran into Dallas, the most popular guy in Sky View High. I was still analyzing the dream, analyzing it so much that I didn't pay attention to where I was walking seeing as how I already knew when my locker was (I've had it for the past three years). I looked up expecting for him to yell at me to get out of his way but when I looked up he was smiling a little bit. "You should watch where you going more often and pull yourself out of your thoughts once in a while." I was too stunned by his smile to say anything recognizable back to him even though I tried to apologize for bumping in to him. He shook his head and laughed. "I'll be seeing you soon Rachel." He walked away. I was shocked at the fact that he knew my name. I was a no body at Sky View. I hung out with my three friends and my boyfriend, Tristan, but other than that no one really knew my name. When I walked into my first class it had hit me. The voice in my dream was Dallas'. The other wolf's voice? But it couldn't be before the dreams and this morning I've never heard his voice, not up close. He doesn't talk in class and I've never personally talked to him. The only time I've heard him talk was a crossed the cafeteria, just slightly over everyone else chattering. So why was it so clear in the dream? I glanced another look over to Dallas and he was looking at me smiling. I'm glad I'm sitting down because my knees buckled, as if he could tell that I was feeling dizzy from his smile he chuckled and sent me another smile.
The rest of the day went by in a blur. I kind of felt bad for Tristan because I blew off the date we had planned for the afternoon. He was going to take me out for my birthday even though it was still a week or so away; he wanted to celebrate it early. When I got home my mom asked why I was at home and I told her I wasn't up for dinner and a movie tonight and that I rescheduled, even though I actually didn't. She got a huge smile on her face and looked as if she was going to jump up and down with joy. "Good that means that we can start thinking about your party. I know you birthday is on Sunday but I want to have the party Friday because you'll be busy Sunday and I don't want you to have a hangover or anything."
"Mom I have nothing planned for my actual birthday and I won't have a hangover seeing as I don't drink. Plus what is there to plan I have four people coming over and we will probably be watching movies so what's the point?" I went to the kitchen to get a coke and when I came back she looked like she was getting ready to leave. "Where are you going?"
"Sweetie we are going shopping. I don't care what you say, your father have been waiting for your 18th birthday since before you were even born. We are going to have a party and it will be more than just your friends. I've been talking to Mrs. Sanchez, you know Dallas' mother, and he is going to come and bring a few of his friends." My mom said as she was pushing me out the door and to the car.
"You cannot be serious!" I buckled in and waited for a response. It didn't look like she was going to say anything so I went on. "I'm turning eighteen not five. You cannot I repeat cannot set up a play date for me. I don't even really know Dallas mom! Plus I'm pretty sure his so called friendshate me!" I know that I was being a little mean but something inside me was growling. I was never mean to my mom and I never yelled at her, now I was screaming at her. The worst part of it all was that she was smiling. It wasn't even a forced smile, like the kind she gets when Tristan is around, but a real actual smile.
"I know you don't know Dallas that is why we decided that he should come. Trust me it will help you out a lot with him being there."
"What do you mean that it will help? Help with what exactly?"
"No time for that now, now we shop." That was all she said before she got out and entered one of the malls we had in Sunterra, Arizona. I followed but didn't say anything because if I did it would come out as a yell and I already feel bad for doing it the first time. She was talking about this and that and I nodded a couple of times not really paying attention to her. I was going throw the dresses that hot topic had when I spotted a black and silver dress that I would kill to wear to my party but it wasn't a dress I would normally wear (even though I didn't wear them often) and I didn't think my mom would allow it. It was staples the silver ran across the top and another strip of silver ran diagonal from the hip down to the end of the dress which would end mid-thigh.
"That dress would be perfect for the party don't you think?"
I looked at her as if she grew another head. Something is very off. "Yeah I think it would but it's not a little to, um, I don't know a little showy for you?"
"Hun if you want to wear that to your party you most certainly can." She grabbed it from me and went to pay for it and some other stuff she had in her hands. We went to a couple of more stores but I didn't care about what she picked up I was happy about the dress and I couldn't care about anything else after that. Even though Dallas was going because my mom invited him I didn't care anymore all I cared about was how Dallas was going to react to seeing me in that dress.
"So I heard that you're having a party Friday?" I heard and I turned around to find that Dallas was standing there. He smiled and I had to just nod again because I knew my voice would be shaking. "My mom told me that my friends and I are invited. I can't wait to be there and my friends are excited to." He was still smiling so I had to look away so I could speak.
"Yeah my mom invited you guys saying that I need to get to know you better. If you guys don't really want to come you don't have to I know that I don't really fit in with your crowd." That made him laugh I wasn't sure why. He lifted up my chin with one of his fingers so I was looking into his deep blue eyes and with his free had he moved my blond hair out of my face.
"We would love to come and you fit in with us more then you know. Trust me on that one. So your favorite animal is a wolf right?" He let his hand drop. There was an electric shock when his hand was there but now it just disappeared and it felt as if there was a shocking breeze that made me shiver.
"I really doubt that but okay. And yeah a wolf is my favorite animal, how did you know?"
"I just figured it would be have you had any dreams about them?"
That question kind of shocked me. Would he know that I had a dream about me and him as wolves? No how would he, there was no way he could. "Um not really anything important just you know wolves running in a field." Technically I wasn't lying to him I was just wasn't telling the full truth. He smiled again and I felt a buzz in my pocket. I pulled out my phone and my mom said that she was at the car and waiting. "Well I guess my mom got what she wanted and is waiting on me so I should go."
"Alright well hey can I get your number so I can get a hold of you." I gave him the number and he texted me so I would have his number also. I walked to the car and my mom raced home in silence. She had a smile on her face but I could tell she was nerves about something.
When we got home my father was home. She pulled in next to my SUV in the drive way. I helped her carry the bags inside. She started opening bags and when she found my dress she sent me up to my room to try it on to make sure I liked it. I went up to my room and looked in to my full sized mirror behind the door. I can't believe that I turn eighteen in six days; I've been looking forward to since I was seven years old. I put on the dress and I went speechless. With the dress on I wasn't the same Rachel that woke up this morning. I was a totally different person. I know that it sounds strange but that was how it felt. I went down the stairs to show my parents. I was about to open the kitchen door but it sounded like they were arguing.
"She can't handle it yet Jack. She's just not ready!" My mother stated.
"But she needs to know, she needs to before Sunday and before this party. Claire we knew this day was going to come. We should have done it sooner but its only six days away and it just can't wait. We do this tonight, get it done and over with already, no matter what." That seemed to end the conversation because my mom didn't reply. I swung the door open and spun in a circle to show them the whole dress. I tried to act like I didn't hear them talking but the look in their eyes made it hard. They were nerves.
"It's beautiful baby girl." My dad said. It would have made me happy if there was emotion behind it but something was seriously wrong.
"Ok spill what is going down on my birthday? Why are you guys so nerves? What do you need to tell me? Just tell me."
My father looked over at my mother then back to me. "Sweetie you might want to sit down for this one." I sat down and looked around as if I did something wrong and was waiting for my punishment.
"Earlier I said that you would be busy on Sunday and I meant it," my mother was talking now, "so far you don't believe me because you have no idea what you will be doing."
"Look this is going to be difficult for you to understand but you have to keep an open mind." Now my dad, "there is a gift that has been passed down through both of your mother's and my families and as soon as you turn eighteen you will get it to. I want to show you this gift but you have to promise you won't freak out." I nodded. Right in front of my eyes my dad turned in to a light brown wolf. I couldn't believe my eyes. I suppose most people would freak out and run to the nearest phone and call the cops but all I wanted to do was pet him. I put my hand in front of my dad's (?) nose then I petted him, I could feel a huge smile spread a crossed my face. I knew that I was freaking out a little bit inside but how cool was it to have a wolf in the kitchen. He backed away and looked like his normal self again. "On your eighteenth birthday you will be able to do that."
"No that's impossible." I said it in a shacking voice but I meant it. There was no way I could do that. Werewolves were a myth. Yeah I just saw it happen in front of my eyes but there was no way it was real.
"Sweetie it is possible and it's the truth," my mom said as my dad left the room, "I'm the same way so it runs in your blood. I'm sure you been having the dreams of wolves and I'm sure you have been feeling different. It all goes along with the transformation. I mean why else would you have growled at me this afternoon? Who actually growls that is human? I know it's hard to understand but you have to trust me and your father on this one."
"If I'm supposed to transform on Sunday then why are we even throwing the party on Friday shouldn't I be getting around for this transformation thingy?"
"We cannot help you with the transformation sweetie your mate helps you with that. That is why-"
"Mate? You mean Tristan?"
"Tristan isn't your mate, I know how you feel about him but he is human. Your mate is a werewolf just like you and me and your father. "
"Then you already have my mate picked out?"
"We didn't pick him out the elders did. That is why we are having the party your mate is Dallas and we are having it so you can get to know him and your new pack."
"Dallas is my mate? And my new pack what do you mean by that?"
"Yes he is and Dallas' friends are the pack they are just like us. Dallas is the alpha and seeing as you are his mate you are also the alpha."
"Wait I can't be the alpha or even pack mate with those people they hate me!"
"They don't hate you they are just waiting until you know plus the girls in the pack are probably a little jealous because you are younger and are the alpha. They will come around trust me."
I couldn't take any more so I ran up to my room and slammed my door. I changed than I flopped on my bed and grabbed my phone I had three missed calls from Tristan. I didn't feel like talking to him but I need to talk to someone so I went through my contact list and called the first person I could think of.
"Dallas how can I help you?" I heard on the other end.
"I really need to talk to someone and I know I usually don't come to you but I think you're the only one I can talk to so I come over and are you by yourself?"
"Yeah come on over I'm alone." I hung up and ran down the stairs out the door and down the street to Dallas Sanchez's house. I was going to the most popular guy in school and my mate's house to talk about this messed up situation to get some answers.