Right
By Jade Shadow
A/N: Here's my first fluff. Give me a break, I don't even
have a boyfriend! Please R/R and tell me what I've totally messed up and what
I've done right and PLEASE don't flame me.
Disclaimer: Greg Keyes, being the genius that he is, came up
with several things that are referred to in this fic. George Lucas came up with
the whole idea of Star Wars to begin with. As much as I'd LOVE to own all these
characters, sadly, I do not. And I am not getting any money from this.
Anakin paused
outside the door to Tahiri's room and sighed, trying to calm his nerves. This
is Tahiri, he reminded himself. A somewhat more mature, darker,
prettier- Anakin cut off the train of thought and raised a hand to the
door, but dropped it. You are not going to ask her out on a date, it's just
to talk, as friend to friend.
"Anakin?"
Corran Horn materialized next to him, making Anakin jump. "How's Tahiri?"
"I-uh-I'm
going to ask her, right now," Anakin stammered, mentally cursing Corran and
himself.
Corran smiled
knowingly. "Of course. Good luck, then." He tossed Anakin a wink and departed.
Anakin paused again, wondering if he should just give up and leave. There was
always tomorrow, after all. He could survive without seeing the girl for five
hours…but something inside him wanted to see her, and refused to be
silent. The thought scared him, that he would actually want to see and talk to
a person that much….
Just as he
sighed resignedly and raised his hand again, the door slid open and Tahiri
stood in front of him, wearing her normal jumpsuit. Her blonde hair was
tousled, as though she had been sleeping, but her green eyes were wide and
active. "Oh, hi Anakin," she said, automatically reaching a hand up to fix her
hair.
Anakin's
carefully prepared speech slipped away as soon as he saw her bright green eyes
again. "Uh…hi," he managed. "Um, I was, uh, wondering if you would, uh, come
down to the tapcafe with me, maybe. Just so we could, um, talk."
He was
blushing furiously, and Tahiri's wide grin did not help. "Sure," she said.
"Just give me a second to get ready." The door slid shut before Anakin had the
chance to open his mouth. Get ready? She's never done that before…
"Hey Anakin!"
said a new voice, causing Anakin to jump again.
"Yeah, Anakin,
what's up?"
Anakin turned
to see his older brother and sister. "Jaina, Jacen," he said. "What are you
doing?"
"Just checking
on you," said Jacen. "It's been a while since you've talked to us, you know."
"Well," Anakin
started, but the door slid open and Tahiri appeared before him, wearing what
seemed to be a fresh tunic. Anakin, however, leaned back and studied her,
tilting his head from side to side.
"Oh, hey Tahiri,"
said Jaina. "I love the new look. Who taught you how to do your hair like
that?"
"Mara," said
Tahiri, reaching up and patting her hair. "Do you think it looks good?"
"Yeah," said
Jacen, looking mischievous.
"Don't say
it," Jaina warned.
"Say what?"
Anakin demanded.
"Don't-" Jaina
started, but Jacen had already started to speak. She sighed and muttered,
"Fine, humiliate yourself…"
Ignoring his
sister's grumbling, Jacen said, "Well, it does look nice Tahiri."
"So?" Anakin
demanded, feeling nervous.
"Oh…sometimes
I just wish I was…" Jacen was eyeing his brother while saying this, "as lucky
as some guys are…getting to, ahem, 'get to know' a chick like that…"
Tahiri
blushed, but Anakin wanted to sock his brother. "And what does that mean?"
"Well-" said
Jacen.
"Don't!" Jaina
quickly said. "Corran would kill you-"
"What about
Corran?" Anakin's stomach was sinking.
Jaina glared
at Jacen. "Solo, you are going to pay for this," she hissed.
"Watch the
name, Jaina Solo," he shot back.
"What about
Corran?" Tahiri said.
Jaina looked
slightly miserable. "Uh, he, uh, told us that, uh…" She stopped, seeing the
look on Anakin's face. "We're the only two he told! I swear!"
"She made him
promise," said Jacen, rolling his eyes. "Made me promise, too, otherwise this
would be the talk of the Venture right now."
Anakin felt
his cheeks flame. "Jacen, when you-no, if you-get a girlfriend, I'm
going to tell her about the time you ran through the Great Temple with nothing
but Uncle Luke's lightsaber on."
"I was five!"
Jacen insisted.
"Anyway," said
Jaina loudly, "before you two decide you need to have a battle of masculine
wit, which I really don't want to sit through, I think Anakin and Tahiri
should go wherever they're going."
"Hey!" the
brothers said.
Jaina rolled
her eyes and grabbed Jacen's arm. "Bye, you two," she called, racing down the
hallway before Jacen could protest.
"Bye," said
Tahiri. "So? Where are we going, Anakin?"
Anakin
started. "I was thinking of the jungle room. You remember sneaking out of the
Great Temple at night…"
Tahiri
grinned. "Okay." She walked next to him and looked straight ahead, glancing at
him occasionally as they walked down the gray-white halls of the Star
Destroyer. Anakin was studying her face and hair, pushing away her brilliant
green eyes and trying to figure out what made her look so different, aside from
her hair…
"Ah!" he said
suddenly. Tahiri jumped and stared at him, even as they kept walking.
"You-you're-"
"What?" she
asked.
"You're
wearing make-up," said Anakin, feeling a little silly about his outburst.
"Sorry for yelling. You just…never do that. It's just so…well…" he paused,
searching for a word.
"Feminine?"
she suggested.
"No, I was
thinking more…well, girly."
Tahiri rolled
her eyes. "Same thing." She kept walking but was now looking at him
expectantly, as though she was waiting for something. Anakin tried to figure
out what she was looking for, but her bright eyes, and her playful feeling in
the Force, distracted him. Her hair? No, Jaina said something about that.
Have I said something offensive? What'd I do?
Something
tickled at the back of his mind, a memory that involved Tahiri. What was it?
Oh, yes. "Well, I'll take that as a compliment, as you never give me any
obvious ones." Then it clicked. As he paused outside of the door to the
turbolift, waiting for one to be available, he said awkwardly, "Um…it looks
nice. The make-up. On you, I mean, err, you look good in the make-up?" He
stopped, cursing himself.
Tahiri smiled
sweetly. "Thanks!" Before he could stop her, she reached over and squeezed his
hand. When she didn't let go, Anakin, feeling adventurous, squeezed back and
pulled her a little closer. She pretended not to notice.
As the door to the turbolift slid
open, Mirax Terrik Horn walked off. "Oh, hello, Anakin, Tahiri," she said.
"Have you seen Valin?"
"Nope," said
Tahiri cheerfully, not noticing Anakin's flaming cheeks. "He's probably with
Kam Solusar or someone."
Mirax nodded
and they got onto the turbolift. The door slid shut and they stood inside a
rather, well, small cylinder. Anakin felt a little uncomfortable. The locker on
Yag D'hul had been smaller, but he hadn't been this close to Tahiri in five
days. He had barely seen her, between visiting Uncle Luke, Aunt Mara, and Ben
(who was a little cuter now, Anakin had to admit) and spending time with his
parents and siblings. She hadn't bugged him, but he had felt her through the
Force, a little lonely, a little isolated. Most of the other trainees, besides
Valin and Sannah, were slightly afraid of her. Tahiri didn't like spending time
with the little kids who were afraid of her, anyway, because most of them were
under ten. But she had been patient with him and let him spend time with his
family. However, Anakin suddenly realized, Tahiri was like his family. She
loved him (at least, he thought-hoped?-so) and he liked being with her, even
though life was becoming a little confusing. He still didn't regret kissing
her-rather, he was glad to be given the chance to do it, even just once; but
still, he didn't know where he was going, This was new territory, and besides,
they were both still a little young.
"Penny for
your thoughts?" Tahiri asked as the turbolift came to a stop. Anakin smiled a
little and made his way to the jungle room. Once inside, strolling through the
green trees with Tahiri still holding his hand, he replied, "What?"
"What are you
thinking?" she amended.
"Oh," said
Anakin, blushing a little. "Nothing, really. Just about, you know, everything."
"Everything?"
Tahiri asked slyly.
"Well, about
what's been going on," said Anakin. "What about you?"
She sighed,
slightly dreamy. "Just how nice it was for you to come and see me and take me
here. I wanted to come, but I haven't been able to find it."
"Oh," said
Anakin, not quite believing her. When he stretched out in the Force, however,
he felt her pain. "What's wrong?"
"I wonder if,
maybe…" Tahiri hesitated. "Well, if I should just go away."
"Why?" Anakin
demanded, stopping underneath a large tree. It was night on the Errant
Venture, and the artificial "sun" had been turned off. Still, Anakin could
see the faint outline of her face, the way her curly hair had been twisted up
and fastened behind her head, the way she looked so melancholy.
She smiled, a
little sad. "You know why, if you cared to find out."
"I care," said
Anakin defensively, "I just don't want to-to-to invade your privacy."
"You never
minded before."
"Yeah, well…"
Anakin cast around for a reply. "That was then, this is now. I just…don't
really…I don't know."
"Oh."
"Oh?"
She laughed
slightly as she replied, "That was a surprise."
Anakin blushed
a little bit. "Um, why do you want to go away?" he asked, changing the subject.
"I'm afraid…"
she paused, biting her lip. Suddenly Anakin saw tears in her eyes, and that her
lip was quivering. He took her other hand and pulled her closer, but not too
close. Tahiri didn't object.
"What's
wrong?"
She took a
deep, shuddering breath. "I had a dream, last night. I was me, in my dream,
and…" she paused. "Well, anyway, I remember hacking away with my lightsaber
until I found what I was looking for. Then I took my lightsaber and mutilated
what I had been looking for. And-and-and-" she started shaking, and tears
spilled out of her eyes. "And I felt the Dark Side and it was flowing through
me and I was using it to inflict pain upon the-the-thing that was now in front
of me, and I was happy, and I yelled in Yuuzhan Vong, and I screamed with
delight when I was done…and then I woke up."
"Oh." Anakin
was at a loss, then it hit him. "Was it me?"
Tahiri nodded
miserably, sobbing. "I don't want to hurt you in reality and-and-and-" She
stopped, crying to hard.
"Whoa, whoa,
Tahiri! Calm down!" said Anakin, instinctively pulling her into a hug. She
sobbed into his chest, praying she wouldn't hurt him and telling him how much
better off he'd be if he'd just let her leave. After a while her sobs quieted,
and she pulled her head up from his tearstained shirt and looked into his eyes.
"Anakin?" she
whispered.
"Hey, hey,
it's going to be okay, you know."
She nodded,
tears still coursing down her cheeks. "Sometimes I wonder why you put up with
me," she managed.
"Because I
love you," he whispered, pulling her close and kissing her, feeling the wetness
of her cheeks and the warmness of her sweet lips. She buried her face into his
chest and he rested his head atop hers, feeling at peace with the galaxy, for
once. Finally, he whispered into her hair, "Was that a surprise?"
He felt her
giggle. "Well, not exactly…I love you, too."
"That's the
only way I'd have it," Anakin replied softly, stroking her hair and leaning
against the tree. After a few minutes he realized that she was asleep. Smiling,
he slowly sat down with her on his lap. While nodding off to sleep, Anakin
suddenly felt a familiar, happy presence he couldn't name, but he suddenly knew
that what he was doing was completely, utterly, and perfectly right.
A/N: I'm not too good with endings, but here it is!!!!
Please please R/R.