A/N: My first RK fic!!!! Be forewarned: I have NOT watched the entire
series so I apologize if anything is incorrect.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~ "Learning to Walk" ~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Left foot.
Now the right.
Good, start again now.
I had to remind myself how to walk, for it seemed I had forgotten. It seemed like days, no years, since I had moved last, instead of just hours. The hours themselves seemed to be days now, because the one I most cared about was gone.
Kenshin.
He had left. No note, no goodbyes, nothing. Not a thing to comfort me or tell me why. I had gone to awaken him only to find he and his belongings missing, his room cleaned and empty, and fresh footprints in the crisply fallen snow out side the dojo. And I had collapsed with the pain of realizing I would no longer see his face when I came to breakfast in the morning. I would no longer hear him laugh at some joke or antic of Sano's. No longer see the glint in his eye as he fought Yahiko or the smile on his face as he carried around Ayame and Suzume.
No longer would he comfort me.
The realization had hit me like a tidal wave and I fell into blissful unconsciousness, only to be awoken by Megumi a few hours later. She already knew. The world already knew it seemed and it muttered its plaintive "I'm sorry." on the wings of the southern wind.
She had told me to go and take a bath, or cook, or clean, anything at all to get my mind off him. But when I stood, I noticed I could not move.
I did not know how to move.
I had depended so much on the red-haired rurouni that I was helpless with out him. I had once constructed walls to keep all who dared to know me out and he had shattered those walls, my only defense, with a charming smile and a thrust of his reverse-blade sword. I needed him to come back.to come.home. I needed him to live.
Sano entered my room where I stood, frozen, not quite knowing what to do next, and he spoke. "I know it hurts. You loved him, and it will hurt for some time I bet. But don't let him rule your life. He wouldn't want that. Before he left.last night.I came in, drunk, just as he was leaving."
"What did he say?" I hissed. I knew why Sano had not stopped him. No one can stop Kenshin when he is determined enough.
"He said for me to tell you he loved you and that he will return. 'Soon,' he said. 'Soon as the cherry trees blossom. Please, Miss Kaoru, wait for me.'"
I closed my eyes and the sun filtered through the window, bringing a glimmer of hope back to my freshly broken heart. Opening them, I murmured, "I have no choice. I will wait for him, Sano, but I will not wait forever."
He grinned, nodded, and left the room. I took a deep breath and..
Left foot.
Now the right.
Left.
Right.
Today, I am learning to walk again. This time, on my own.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~ "Learning to Walk" ~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Left foot.
Now the right.
Good, start again now.
I had to remind myself how to walk, for it seemed I had forgotten. It seemed like days, no years, since I had moved last, instead of just hours. The hours themselves seemed to be days now, because the one I most cared about was gone.
Kenshin.
He had left. No note, no goodbyes, nothing. Not a thing to comfort me or tell me why. I had gone to awaken him only to find he and his belongings missing, his room cleaned and empty, and fresh footprints in the crisply fallen snow out side the dojo. And I had collapsed with the pain of realizing I would no longer see his face when I came to breakfast in the morning. I would no longer hear him laugh at some joke or antic of Sano's. No longer see the glint in his eye as he fought Yahiko or the smile on his face as he carried around Ayame and Suzume.
No longer would he comfort me.
The realization had hit me like a tidal wave and I fell into blissful unconsciousness, only to be awoken by Megumi a few hours later. She already knew. The world already knew it seemed and it muttered its plaintive "I'm sorry." on the wings of the southern wind.
She had told me to go and take a bath, or cook, or clean, anything at all to get my mind off him. But when I stood, I noticed I could not move.
I did not know how to move.
I had depended so much on the red-haired rurouni that I was helpless with out him. I had once constructed walls to keep all who dared to know me out and he had shattered those walls, my only defense, with a charming smile and a thrust of his reverse-blade sword. I needed him to come back.to come.home. I needed him to live.
Sano entered my room where I stood, frozen, not quite knowing what to do next, and he spoke. "I know it hurts. You loved him, and it will hurt for some time I bet. But don't let him rule your life. He wouldn't want that. Before he left.last night.I came in, drunk, just as he was leaving."
"What did he say?" I hissed. I knew why Sano had not stopped him. No one can stop Kenshin when he is determined enough.
"He said for me to tell you he loved you and that he will return. 'Soon,' he said. 'Soon as the cherry trees blossom. Please, Miss Kaoru, wait for me.'"
I closed my eyes and the sun filtered through the window, bringing a glimmer of hope back to my freshly broken heart. Opening them, I murmured, "I have no choice. I will wait for him, Sano, but I will not wait forever."
He grinned, nodded, and left the room. I took a deep breath and..
Left foot.
Now the right.
Left.
Right.
Today, I am learning to walk again. This time, on my own.