Title: Thinking of You
Author: Lamb
Notes: AU from New Moon; Proceed with caution.
It was selfish.
It... no, I was utterly selfish for the way I had become. Clutching his heart like it was mine for the taking and he would never say otherwise. He wanted this, I kept saying. He wanted this more than anything he had ever wanted. So still, I proceeded. I took every last piece of him and made it mine. His heart, his soul, everything… it was mine now, and yet, I didn't even want it. So I watched him, tentatively, too afraid to move under his form. This was his moment, his time, and I wasn t going to take this from him. I'd let him have this.
Is it wrong, to see your face when I'm looking at him? I'm trying so hard to absorb his every line, but it blurs and all I can see is the face that left me behind. I don't see his face, the one I've grown so accustomed to these last few months, and it pains me. How could I not see his face at this moment? It would kill him; kill him to know what I was thinking. When he spoke, I heard your voice; When he moaned my name, it was your voice.
I was selfish.