Title: Underneath the smile

Author: Honey Malaga

Genre: Romance, drama

Rating: 15+ M

Disclaimer: Do not own anything 'cept the plot

The wind blows beneath me, I look around and beauty is everywhere. But one thing I know that most people don't… That beauty is just a thin piece of cover, hidden underneath it is the black hole of hell we each make for ourselves and one day will be engulfed inside. People go on with their ordinary lives; not knowing that wherever they stand a strand of magic rests in peaceful slumber.

"Hey! Ginny, wait up!"

I turn around; behind me my brother and his best friend and my former lover, the famous Harry Potter, hurry to catch up with me. I stay still on the green pasture I stand on, my spell of thoughts broken. I force a smile.

"Hey guys, anything wrong."

They shake their heads in response, "Nah, we just thought we'd walk with you seeing as your alone and all," Ron explained.

"Ahh, so you think I'm a loner or something, I HAVE friends you know," I said, a sarcastic tune playing into my words.

Harry smiled. I felt my insides burn red with embarrassment.

"We didn't mean it like that Ginny, it's been a long time since we just walked together, I thought, maybe, we could just, well, walk," Harry explained, a shy smile dancing across his face.

It must have been contagious, that smile, for suddenly it too took control of my lips.

Ron rolled his eyes, "Oh please, get a room will you?"

Ron suddenly seemed to hear the idiotic ness of his words and mumbled an apology.

You see, Harry and me had broken up not more than two weeks ago. We were standing at The Burrow's newly mowed backyard. My elder brother's wedding, Bill Weasley, was to hold his wedding ceremony, to Fluer Delacour, two nights later in this very backyard. As soon as Ron had blurted out his sentence, Harry and me turned away from each other.

"Umm, I, I have to go, so many things to do," I said, awkwardly.

Harry glared at Ron and tried to change my mind but I was already heading for the kitchen, a source of hard work would surely keep Harry out of my thoughts and maybe then, the sorrow will go away.

As I approached the kitchen I heard angry voices, though my ears were keen, I had to come closer to understand the meaning of what they were discussing about.

"… Found it in same room," a familiar voice whispered angrily, I recognized it as my father's voice, Molly Weasley.

"You must be mistaken!" My mother whispered back.

"It's true Molly, we've never had a prob…"

Before I could eavesdrop more on my parents' conversation, someone tapped me on the shoulder,

"Hey little missy, what are you doing here?"

I looked up, Fred and George starred down at me with a questioning look on their face.

"Nothing," I said almost to quickly, starring innocently back at them I utter an excuse and quickly slipped away before they could ask any questions.

When I was a good distance from everybody, my heart began to throb, a painful thought clutched at my mind. Was it possible? Did they discover my secret? I forced myself to calm down. I grabbed a bottle from the inside of my bra; I starred at it, should I give in to temptation? Will it be obvious? After a moment's silence I decided to ignore the consequences and did what I knew was wrong, I drained the bottle of its small portion of contents.

I began to feel dizzy, I felt like I was swaying from side to side entwined with the Earth's soft breeze. A calm feeling settled inside of me, everything felt right, like I could do anything I wanted.

What did I want?

I knew what I wanted and I was going to get it no matter what…

I looked out, towards where Harry was sitting. He was what i wanted. That was it. For years I have dreamed of what it would be like to have a relationship with him, to kiss him, to be with him. And when my dreams comes true,it stopped with an abrupt end, why? Because of lord Voldemort. I walked uptowards Harry.

As i came closer to Harry,I felt him inside of me, my breaths became short, my mind numb,he was everything, everything. Time had no right to steal what we had.Harry lookedmy way, a surprised expression caught his features only to be replaced by a smile and a wave. Before i could think of what i was doing,I jumped into his arms and locked my lips unto his. His eyes widened with surprise,nevertheless he did not do anything to stop me,just the opposite. Hewrapped his nimble arms around me and held me closer, passion flowing from my lips to his.A sudden wave of nausea exploded into my body, my mind could no longer take the effects,I dropped down onto the ground,and Iheard Harry screaming my name and footsteps running. The bottle dropped out of my hand,I heard a gasp and darkness won its hold over me.