Love Lift Me Chapter 1: Why Don't You Love Me?, a tales of symphonia fanfic

Miss: Alrighty. A new story! W00T!

Raine: What am I doing here?

Miss: I brought you here!

Raine: Oh! Am I in the story?

Miss: Of course you are.

Raine: Yay!

Disclaimer: I do not own ToS or any of the characters, or anything else. I don't own the song Why Don't You Love Me? by Amanda Marshall.

I just want to say that some characters might get OoC. I hate flames about that, so I'm telling you know that it's not for certain that they will stay IC. And depending on how you look at it there may even be some spoilers! -gasp- And now that I'm done my not funny, rather boring intro…

Love Lift Me

Chapter 1

The sun was shinning brightly, shimmers of light dancing across the calm waters. A gentle breeze blew, rustling the vivid green leaves dangling on the trees. Songbirds could be heard, singing from there perches among the branches. The first spring flowers rising from the lush ground in bright pinks, purples and blues. And among all the calm was a group of friends, laughing, talking and enjoying themselves in the beauty of the rejoined worlds.

The younger heroes were all enjoying the warm water of Lake Umacy. Diving, splashing, swimming and laughing. Even the ex-chosen of Tethe'Alla and the chief of Mizuho joined them. Regal, being the president of the new world's most famous company could not find time to join his companions in this day of relaxation.

And of course, sitting on a fallen log, was the professor. She still did not enjoy the water, but that wasn't why she wasn't with the others. No… She was thinking, allowing the sun's warm rays to soak into her pale skin. Beside the silver haired maiden was an angel.

To most of the group's surprise, Kratos has left behind his Cruxis outfits, and was wearing more normal clothing. He wore a white t-shirt and a pair of blue swimming shorts. And even more amazingly, he seemed as if he were more comfortable in these clothes then anything else.

Why am I lonely
You're sitting right here
Why am I talking
It's like I'm talking to the air
What am I looking for
That just isn't there
Why am I angry
How'd it get so bad
And why am I missing
What we never really had

Raine sighed; her thoughts were not those she wanted. Her mind was lost and confused in a tangle of emotion, love. Or was it really love? She shook her head, Whether it's love or not… It shouldn't be there.

"Raine? Is something bothering you?" Her head turned quickly to the side, her eyes meeting dark chocolate ones for a moment. His voice was strong, but still as unemotional as ever.

"No, I was just thinking." She answered, allowing her eyes to fall and rest on the green grass beneath them.

"Perhaps you wish to speak your thoughts?" He suggested, shrugging. I wish I could… but I'd only make a fool of myself, she thought, frowning for only a second. She smile and looked back up at the seraphim.

"No, it's alright. It's not that important." She offered a smile to show she was fine.

Why don't you love me
The way I love you
Why don't you feel things
As deep as I do
We've got a fundamental difference
In matters of emotion
But I need to feel you need me
Like a river needs an ocean
Baby why don't you love me

On the journey of regeneration the pair would stay up at night, talking while on watch duty for monsters. Back then all those night time conversation seemed so real and genuine. But now when she would speak with the seraphim, after realizing his past, it seemed so empty and fake as if it weren't real. Even as she looked back at some of their forgotten talks, they too felt different.

Exhaling, she rolled her shoulders, stretching her back slightly. Hoping for a conversation to pass the time she turned back towards the seraphim. She nearly jerked seeing the look in his eyes.

"Are you alright Kratos?" She asked kindly, seeing a look she had never seen in his eyes before… Was it sorrow?

"Yes, I am. I was just thinking, much like you were." He sighed, shaking his head and turning his gaze from Raine and to the blue sky above them. The half elf gazed at him, waiting for him to continue… even though she knew she did not want to hear what was coming next…

"I was thinking about Anna." He began quietly, wondering how much of his thoughts he would reveal to this woman beside him. "And how everything could have ended differently, how… if only she hadn't met me… if I hadn't fallen in love…" He sighed once again, and turned his eyes back to Raine. "But what is done, is done. I cannot return to the past, no matter how much I try and wish."

Raine smiled softly to the angel, even though her heart ached from hearing how he loved Anna so… "Everything happens for a reason Kratos, and I'm sure falling in love with Anna was no exception." She was there to keep you from me… because we shouldn't be together… She thought for a moment before continuing.

Who am I kidding
It wasn't meant to be
But you wanted a believer
And I needed to believe
For every wall you built around you
I learned a brand new way to climb
And if I could've been your angel
I would've found a way to fly

"If you hadn't been in love, then there would be no Lloyd," she motioned towards the water where the angel's son was splashing around with his friends. "And-"

"Without Lloyd I would not have met many of you and have gotten to know all of you as well as I do." Raine nodded, although she did not like to be interrupted she knew that he was realizing the reasoning behind his love for Anna.

"Precisely. And more so, if not for Lloyd's determination to save Colette, the worlds would still be split, slowly killing each other until in the end they both died." She added. She kept her usual composure as she spoke to Kratos, hiding her own feelings the same way that he did.

With a nod, Kratos stood. He turned to the maiden, and held out his hand to help her up. "Thank you, Raine." She took his hand, blushing slightly as his strong hand gripped her own smaller one and pulled her to her feet.

Reluctantly, she let go of his hand and brushed her black wrap skirt off. "You're very welcome Kratos." It's just no meant to be… Her smiling outer appearance was cracking, and she wanted so much to tell him how she felt, but her heart feared rejection. It was tearing her apart; she didn't know what to do anymore.

Seeing a sliver of a smile on his lips she decided. She wouldn't tell him, never. She'd hide her emotions, only to keep what she did have of him.

I don't understand you
What's it take to make you cry
And if leaving you don't break you
Then baby what's it matter why

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Miss: It's done….

Raine: Why do you always make me so… love sick after that guy?

--Kratos comes into the room—

Kratos: Hmph.

Raine: That's why… -hearts in eyes-

Miss: Yup… that's why… : D

Kratos: -smiles- Mwhahahaha!

Miss: Uh… anyways…

Raine: -clinging onto Kratos-

Kratos: -BIG smile- Hahahahaha!

Miss: This is getting me nowhere. Review! And chapter 2 is coming! Yay!

--cricket chirps—

Miss: Where'd they go? O.o