-1It
was never meant to be a catch phrase. I'm not really sure what it was
meant to be, honestly. It was just something I made a habit of
saying. There wasn't any thought pattern involved.
If I were
still human, Saix would say it was insecurity, a way of making sure I
wasn't forgotten. After all, doesn't the saying go 'You're never gone
until your forgotten'?
But I'm not human. Hell, I don't feel
insecurity, fear, anything. As a nobody, I am just that. Nobody.
Nothingness. A waste of space and the air I breathe.
Even Roxas,
who was one of the special ones, only felt emotions when Diz gave
them to him. When he programmed them, as well as a new personality
and memories in Roxas' mind. When he made him forget . . .
I will
never forgive him for that.
That Boy's still here. I told Him to
leave, to find the girl that was His friend. I told Him to find her,
yet He stands above me while I fade away. I wonder, if I had
feelings, would I be angry He was still here, or sad this was
happening? If I were human, would I have ended up killing our dear
music playing comrade before He could have? If I were human . . .
Would I have loved You?
You know I never expected it to end
this way. For me to go out after saving a human pawn from the very
things I had become. Hell, for me to go out saving someone never even
crossed my mind. Let alone Him.
Ya' know, he makes me think of
you. You seem so similar, yet at the same time you're so different.
You're two different people, yet at the same time, I know you're
there, inside of Him. I know, you are Him.
Maybe that's why I
seem drawn toward Him, even as the nobody, the nothing, that I am.
Hey, don't forget me again. Remember, I'm the one who used to be number eight, and you're the one who was thirteen. I'm the red haired demon that played with fire, and you were the demonic angel in an environment you didn't belong in.
I was the fool, and you were the fool's best friend.
Got it memorized?