The ground is right underneath you
Let yourself
Fall into all that completes you
And I will keep my arms like so
Forever, if ever you let go
If ever you let go.
* forever * if * ever *
Title: Forever, If Ever
Characters/Pairings: Teddy/Lily Luna
Summary: A set of twelve songfics, in sequential order, based off Jon McLaughlin's album Forever If Ever.
* forever * if * ever *
Chapter One: Without You Now
these days I leave the lights on
and the front door open when I sleep
I wake up with the night before
lingering between my teeth
I answer to no one
you're gone and I am free
and I know I can't live without you now
I'm just looking for what we already found
so maybe I'll say I'm sorry
save me from the heartache
I know I can't live without you now
I buy the kinds of clothes now
that you always said you did not like
and I've been hanging with this other girl
let's just say she's not your type
but it's a lie that I'm living out
and the truth's just sinking in
think it over...we could be lovers...again
Teddy Lupin wakes up alone, for the sixteenth night in a row. He walks down the stairs – he doesn't need to turn the light on because it already was. He sleeps with it on, like he's a little child. Once he's downstairs, he closes his front door.
People say he's gone crazy in the past two weeks. Crazy because he sleeps alone with the front door open and all of the lights on. Crazy because he threw out all the flowers in his house, crazy because he tossed everything red in his house out the door and onto the curb the minute she left.
But every morning he wakes up and remembers what the night before looked like – or rather, felt like. Feeling so empty, without her there. Feeling so empty, and having to have the light on, so that the place wasn't dark. He was alone, but at least he wouldn't have to be alone in the dark.
Maybe it was a good thing. Maybe it was a great thing. Because, after all, they fought like crazy every day. They would fight like there was no tomorrow. They fought with words and fists and hearts and minds, and they'd wake up bruised and broken and completely in love.
She was gone, and he was free…
He turns on a radio and an old Janis Joplin song came out.
"Freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose…"
He turns the radio off right after that.
He isn't about to just sit there and listen to something that will just make him think of her.
Maybe he should call Victoire up.
He knows it's useless. He can't be himself without Lily. He can't be who he's supposed to be. What he's doing with Victoire…it's just looking for something he already had. Something he already had with Lily.
Maybe he should call Lily up. Maybe he should just apologize for the things he said that one night – even though it was her fault. It might be easy – he might be able to just say sorry, and it would all go back to normal. And he would have what he had back.
It would save him from piles of heartache in the end – to find Lily again. Because he knows he can't live without her now.
He wears clothes that he knows she wouldn't like now. He wears what Victoire likes – preppy, smart, that kind of thing. Lily always liked the causal rocker look. He doesn't know whether he does it to spite Lily, or to make Victoire happy.
Victoire…he's been hanging around with her a lot lately. Despite the fact that she's Lily's cousin, he knows that Victoire is not the kind of girl Lily would approve of. Maybe it's because she's different that Teddy can tolerate her. Anyone who is like Lily would be way too much to handle. Anyone like Lily would be enough to make him fall to pieces all over again.
It's just a lie though.
Without Lily, everything is a lie.
Maybe…
Maybe…
They could be lovers…
Again.
* forever * if * ever *
Welcome to my new story! It's gonna be a twelve chapter story based off of Jon McLaughlin's album, Forever If Ever. He's my favorite artist ever and I highly recommend his music. It's all incredible. If you listen to his music, I'll give you a cookie and a special mention in the next chapter! That was a shameless plug for something that wasn't mine. Wow. O.o Ok, anyways, the next chapter is "A Little Too Hard (And A Little Too Fast)".
Love always,
Lily