"Fear", I mumble under my breath. It's all I have. No more hope. Just fear. It takes over my life. Every waking second of it. Not that I ever had a life. But I did have people I cared about. Actually there as only one. One person I ever cared about. Katniss. How I failed to protect her in the arena. I don't even know if she's still alive. The last time I saw her was in the arena. When she and Johanna took Beetee's coil down to the beach. That's when everything went wrong.

The flashbacks inside my head. Not just in the arena. But also in the past four weeks.

I lay my head trying to get some rest but it's no use. I can't. I can hear Johanna in the cell next to me screaming her head off. I wonder what they're doing to her now. Probably chopping off one of her hands and then punching her with it. It doesn't matter though. We'd all rather be dead anyway.

I clench my fists as I try to imagine Snow standing right in front of me. How I want to smash his face in. If I had a gun in my hands right now, and Snow was standing in front of me, I'd kill him in two seconds without hesitation.

Now I'm smashing my head against the wall hoping to kill myself or at least break through the wall. But I don't. Instead I get a bad concussion and fall unconscious.

I just got dragged out of the arena. I'm in one of the Capitols hovercrafts. I'm being handled by peacekeepers trying to break free. I see Enobaria on my left trying to escape a few peacekeepers of her own. But she doesn't look worried. In fact she looks better than ever.

The hovercraft is travelling at over five-hundred miles an hour. It's heading towards the Capitol. After ten minutes of constant struggles trying to escape the peacekeepers, we land.

We are being taken to a strange building where we are being pulled downstairs. It looks like a prison. I can see Annie Cresta being dragged by peacekeepers. She looks unconscious. I am being taken to a cell right at the back of the room. I just broke free and I'm trying to pass through the doorway behind the peacekeepers. They saw it coming. Now I am being punched so hard, bloods pouring out of my mouth. Finally one whacks me across the forehead and I lose consciousness.

I wake up finding I fell asleep and I have probably just relived the worst moment of my life. No. The worst moment of my life was when I watched Katniss leave me at midnight during the second games.

It looks around two in the morning. I must have been out for twelve hours. I can't sleep. I'm starving but I'm not eating any of the food the Capitol is feeding us. I don't trust the Capitol anymore. Not that I ever did.

Morning finally comes and I'm still sitting on my bed hugging my knees. I can hear Annie crying in pain, calling out to Finnick hoping he'll show up and save her. But he never does. I've never actually met her but I know she's insane. I remember seeing her games. She looked like she didn't even know what she was doing. But I still feel bad for her.

I can hear someone coming. They're heading towards my cell. What are they going to do to me? Are they going to kill me? I wish. They're probably just going to torture me some more.

Two peacekeepers walk in and start beating me with nightsticks. I'm on the floor, arms around the back of my head trying to protect myself. I'm trying to fight back with my legs but it's no use. I'm no match for them. For starters they have weapons and I don't. I only now realise I'm screaming in pain when I hear Johanna screaming out to them. I can't hear what she's saying over the blood pounding in my ears. But it's enough to make the peacekeepers leave my cell and stomp into hers.

I hope they don't kill her. She did that to protect me. I heard about the rebels plan for the other tributes to protect Katniss and me, and to keep us safe. But why is she still protecting me?

Now I am on my feet trying to break through the door. I know it's impossible because it's titanium but I'm still doing it. My back is killing me and I'm having trouble walking. I collapse to the ground screaming the same words over and over. "Don't kill her." I can't hear her screaming. I'm so worried. If she dies it will be all my fault. But why would they kill her? Don't they need her for answers?

I'm so weak. I've been lying on the ground for three hours. I can finally hear screaming. So that must mean Johanna's still alive. I wonder why I haven't heard Enobaria scream yet. Maybe because she's a career they aren't torturing her or even locking her up. Suddenly I can hear buzzing followed by Johanna's screams. They definitely aren't beating her with nightsticks. It sounds like they're electrocuting her. How are they electrocuting her? Maybe they're using Beetee's coil? I don't know but now there's silence.

I'm really hungry but I have to resist the temptation to eat the Capitols food. After an hour or two I give up and eat it anyway. It tastes like the food Katniss and I ate on the train only less satisfying. The train. So much fear. Going to the games. But I didn't mind. Because I was with Katniss. I miss her so much. But I swear, the second I break out of here. I will get her back. Where ever she is. Because I don't care about the torture. As long as Katniss is safe.