Disclaimer: I guess this is fan fiction norm. I do not own the Twilight Series characters. Stephanie Meyer does. I do claim the therapist in the story, though... :)

Chapter 1

I was just standing there, looking at myself in the mirror. Shock, disbelief, confusion…. All of these feelings coursing through me like an avalanche coming down on me. I'm just standing there in my wedding dress. A vision of beauty my dad Charlie said. A princess as my dear friend Alice told me earlier today. I should be happy, right? It's my wedding day and I should be ecstatic in wanting to marry the man of my dreams but instead, I am in utter disbelief and confusion. Am I making the right choice? This is the day that most women dream of and I just don't want it. Could it be that I don't want to marry Edward Cullen? He's the love of my existence, right?

I turned away from the mirror and sat down in front of my dresser. I see my phone vibrating with a text. I check my phone and the text was from Jacob. All the text said was "Are you sure about this??" and then a second text from him "Do you really want to marry him?" Just as I am about to respond, I hear a knock on my bedroom door. "Come in", I said. The door opens and I watch my best friend walk into my bedroom. Jacob looked stunning in his suit. The Chanel suit does wonders on any man but on Jacob, he looked like he stepped out of pages of GQ magazine. A picture of beauty in my eyes. Jacob was not one for designer clothes but chose to be dressed up for the occasion. My wedding to Edward. His eyes expressed sadness even though I asked him to be a part of my wedding; I knew this was difficult for him. Jacob respected my choice to be with Edward and the life I chose to live or not live if being a vampire meant to technically stop breathing. Nonetheless, Jacob was supportive and he loved me more than I could ever deserve to be loved.

"Are you sure you want to do this, Bella?" Jacob asked.

"I don't know." I admitted.

Jacob walked over to where I was sitting at my dresser and knelt down to me. "Then come away with me." "I'll let Charlie know and he can let the guests know the wedding is postponed."

"I just can't do that, Jacob!" I whaled. "There are over a hundred guests waiting for me to walk down the aisle and marry Edward Cullen!" "Plus, Edward will be devastated!" "I got myself into this and must take responsibility for my actions."

"NO!! You don't have to do this Bella!" Jacob exclaimed. "You have a choice. You always had a choice." "Come away with me for a few days. Once you made a decision, what ever it may be, I'll respect it." Jacob looked at me pleadingly as if my life depended on my decision. If I chose Edward, I would eventually become a vampire and risk losing my best friend forever.

"Ok" I said. "I'll postpone the wedding and go away with you but I have to let Edward know…" Just as I was to finish my sentence, Alice bursts through my bedroom.

"Bella! Edward is frantic!" She exclaimed. "I saw your future disappear and he's devastated. He's on his way to talk to you right now. Are you really sure you want to do this?" Alice asked. "Its what she wants to do. No one can make her marry Edward!" Jacob intercepted. Alice turned to Jacob. "I know that Jacob, but my brother has the right to an explanation. He deserves that!" Alice turned to me. "Honey, whatever you decide is fine by me. I just want you to be happy."

Just as Alice was walking out of my bedroom, Edward walked in. Edward with his golden eyes and tousled hair, looked as beautiful as the first day in saw him at the cafeteria at Forks High. How can I tell him I can't marry him right now? I love him; I can't live without him but just not ready to marry him?

One month later….

I'm sitting outside of the therapist's office patiently waiting for Dr. Basil to call me in. As I was filling out the consent forms, I thought about the many times Charlie suggested I go talk to someone. Now was the time I felt ready to do so. I did not marry Edward but I did not go away with Jacob either. I told everyone to leave my room, I took off my wedding dress, put on a comfy pair of jeans, a sweatshirt, sneakers, packed a few things and quietly left the Cullen home. I drove what it seemed like days. I ended up checking into a hotel in Seattle and lulled in my misery. Turned off my cell phone and stayed in the dark hotel room, sleeping, occasionally watching old re-runs of Beverly Hills 90210 on TV and ordering from room service. God, how I envied Kelly. She had a plethora of men who adored her and somehow experienced all these tragedies. Then I started thinking. I, Bella Swan, am Kelly Taylor. Our lives are parallel. If she was able to choose between Dylan and Brandon, why was I having such a hard time choosing between Edward and Jacob? Big difference between me and Kelly…. She did not have to deal with the supernatural. Well, that's Hollywood for ya.

I eventually came to my senses after a week and a few hundred dollars in hotel charges later, that I needed to face my fears and go back home. I ended up moving back home, giving Edward the ring and Mercedes back and pretty much told him I needed time for my self and see what I wanted out of life. I told Jacob the same thing. I just could not have either one of them around while I needed time for myself and make the right choice for my life.

"Bella Swan?" I look up at Dr. Julia Basil greeting me at the waiting room. Dr. Basil greeted me with a warm smile. She was a picture of elegance. Curly dark hair up in a ponytail, pink cardigan knit set, black dress slacks and black platform pumps. I sat in her warm cozy couch in her office. I should have felt intimidated looking at her diplomas and various certifications on her walls but her office had an at home feel to it and pretty much felt comforted being there.

"So Bella, what brings you here today?" Dr. Basil asked. Well, what was I supposed to tell her? Yeah, I'm stuck in a love triangle between a vampire and a werewolf and yeah, I was thinking of becoming immortal in the process….

"Actually, I'm really confused and torn right now Dr. Basil. You see, I was going to marry my high school boyfriend whom I've been in love with for the past two years, when my best friend declared his love for me. For a long time, I denied my feelings for my best friend until I kissed him and those feelings came flooding in. Now I'm just confused!" I felt like I was talking a hundred miles and hour and my head was about to explode with anxiety.

"Bella, it's very normal to feel that way. Love and relationships are complicated. If you allow me to help you, we may be able to come up with some solutions for you together." Dr. Basil seemed so warm and genuine. Her warm brown eyes looked as if she came from that same place and understood where I was coming from. If she only knew my deep, dark secrets, she would think I'm nuts and automatically send me to the looney bin.

"My father insisted I come but I just never thought I needed it." I said glumly. " Therapy is not for everyone. You come when you're ready and now you are ready to deal with this issue." The doctor's words were encouraging. I spent the remainder of the hour telling her, in moderation, about my love triangle. Edward leaving, Jacob coming to the rescue, Edward coming back, Jacob declaring his undying love for me, and last but not least, my indecision.

"Where do I go from here?" I asked. "Well, Bella. Why not start from the beginning?" Dr. Basil asked. And my journey began.

A/N This is my first fan fiction and I am open to feedback. I hope you guys enjoy it :)