Disclaimer: I never own any of the characters of CCS and all of the aspects in it. However, I do own the line of the poem, but you'll see it later on.

Author's Note: Hello and welcome to my fic. This is my first doing of CCS, so be kind. I used to write ManKin but wanted to do this fic badly. Anyway, this fic actually rated M on the later chapters but for the beginnings, there is no 'actual action'.

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Chapter 1: Monday Morning

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Sakura's POV

Every morning I had a habit to touch the mirror which hanging on the wall in my room. I didn't know how it started, neither I knew why I started it. But I knew that it had been gone for so long, maybe since the death of my mom and brother. When I looked at the reflection of myself, I searched for something there. I looked for an answer, yet I had forgotten what the question was. And then, right before I went downstairs, I would have wished that I could remember the question eventually, yes, eventually…

Normal POV

Sonomi was preparing breakfast when Sakura went down the stairs. She smiled at her and greeted. "Good morning, Sakura-chan," she said. "Let's have breakfast together." Sakura didn't even turn her head. She walked silently to the front door. "Ah, Sakura-chan, please come home tonight," Sonomi again tried to ask her. "Today's dinner will be omelet rice that you like." As if Sakura didn't hear anything, she just walked out of the house and left Sonomi behind.

The homeroom started. While the teacher explained Biology, Sakura was daydreaming all along, not hearing any word the teacher was saying. She always dreaming about other life she might have had if she hadn't been born as Kinomoto Sakura. Sometimes, she wished that she had been a happy 17 years-old girl born in a lovable family. Other time, she wished that she had been a princess of a country and she had had this nice and handsome guy always stayed by her side. And so many thoughts had come to her little head. However, they were always stopped by nearly-same line," Kinomoto, if you don't wanna listen to my lesson, please go outside!" And she always did the same; she went outside and took a walk to the schoolyard.

There, she searched for a spot where no teacher could see her. She discovered a nice-looking spot then laid her back there. The sky looked so clear with no sign of rain. The sun was warm and the wind was breezy that Sakura found herself rather sleepy. Looks like I'll skip today's lesson, as usual, she thought. Her eyelids soon closed. That's when she heard the bushes rustled. Worrying that it would be a teacher, she opened her eyes and sat up quickly. But it wasn't a teacher at all.

"You?" she inquired. "What are you doing here?"

"I was just about to ask you the same question, Sakura," Syaoran said with a smile.

"Don't smile at me. I really hate it when you do that," Sakura stood up, cleaning the front of her uniform skirt.

"Where are you going?"

He caught her wrist but she jerked it off. "None of your business. And don't you dare touching me again! I'm gonna kill you for sure!" her tone was sarcastic. Sakura, grumbling as her best spot was taken, headed back to the school building. Li Syaoran just watched her aloof. What a girl, thought him. He smiled once again and rested his back comfortably.

Syaoran and Sakura once had been neighbors. But Syaoran had moved away with his mother and four sisters. Instead of the distance of their houses, they still went to the same school. So there was no difference for them. Sakura didn't like Syaoran, but she didn't hate him either. And Sakura often relied on Syaoran when she had problems. Syaoran cared for Sakura, but he didn't have other feelings instead of it. Their relationship never went less or beyond friends. Like a straight line, they had no special feelings to each other. And the line would always be straight, at least for now.

"Kinomoto," the school doctor woke Sakura up. "It's lunch time already. Do you feel any better? You have to eat lunch to gain your strength. This is the sixth time you fainted because of anemia." She rubbed her eyes and sleepy replied, "Yes, ma'am." She knew it's the time for her to leave school.

Sakura went back to her class to get her schoolbag. When she entered, her classmates were all eating their lunch and talking to each other. One or two persons caught a glimpse of who's coming but then continued their talks. To be honest, no one considered Sakura as friend, cos Sakura didn't either. She didn't care about school. In fact, she hated school. But she kept coming to school because it's much better than being at home. Home was like one hell on the earth. There was no place worst than that.

After putting her stuffs in the schoolbag, she walked away. Sakura took the way to the back door of the building but unfortunately marked by Syaoran. "Sakura!" he yelled from behind. She just ignored him. "Hey, wait up! Sakura!" she heard him protested. Sakura's vain popped out. "What?" she turned around, icy look on her face. But that look abruptly changed to anger when she saw who's following Syaoran. Her stepsister.

"Sakura nee-san," Tomoyo asked worriedly. "Why are you going home early again? Is it because your anemia?" Her beautiful long silky hair followed her movement.

"Oh please don't bother me, my lovely sister," she said in a cynical tone that Tomoyo failed to catch. "I'm not worthy enough to be worried by someone as special as you."

"Don't say that, nee-san, you are so important to me," Tomoyo frowned. "Are you okay on your own? Want me to accompany you?"

What! I just can't stand her! Sakura's thought said. How could someone as lousy, bitchy, stupid idiot as her enter my life! And why it has to be MY life! Sakura gritted her teeth, trying to suppress her wanting to bitchslap her. She turned around so fast and ran along the corridor.

"Saku-!" Syaoran stopped. He knew that chasing her would be useless. Well, let's just hope she'll appear this night, his mind said as he mentally sighed. He then noticed the sad expression of Tomoyo and patted her head lightly.

"It's okay. She'll understand it one day," said him.

Tomoyo nodded and whispered slowly, "I really hope she will."

Having left the school, Sakura was now running on the street of Tomoeda town. Her breath became faster and she felt really tired. She halted in front of the cake shop to catch some breath. Out of the blue, her tears began to fall. I hate that bitch! Her pained heart screamed. I hate Dad! I hate Sonomi! I hate this world! Oh God, what have I done to deserve this? Turning her back, she confronted the shop window. She could see her appearance. Her auburn hair was now messy; her emerald eyes filled with tears and her nose was red. She bit her nether lip. "How ugly I am…"she huskily whispered. Then, Sakura cried again.

Sakura's POV

I wanted to search for the answer of my question. I wanted to search every question I needed to answer. But how come I knew it by myself? If there's nobody who wanted my answer, should I still search for it? I guessed I should, I needed it for myself. But I couldn't reach it alone. Would there be anyone out there wanted to help me out?

But all I could do right now was crying. At least it lessened my pain…

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Yep, that's the first chapter. You like it? Please review and I accept all your critics gladly as long as it's not too –uh- spicy. Thank you. B-C 06/06/2005