A Digimon Fan Fiction By tjrrr

Title: Lover Boys

Rating: This chapter T, but the later chapters will be M+

Genre: Angst/ Romance

Warning: There is slash, the pairings are: Taichi x Yamato, aka. Taimato, Yamachi.

Disclaimer: I do not own Digimon, or Bandai because if I did the Digimon television show would not be only a kid's show there would also be an adult's version. Look now I really do hope that you enjoy this fan fiction.

Chapter One:

(Tai's Point of View)

I have had a lot of trouble of sleeping as of late, because every time I try to go to sleep he pops into my mind, he being Yamato Ishida, I honestly do not know how much longer I can stand just being friends with him, maybe today I will confess my love to him, but if he rejects me, I do not know if I can go on with my life I will properly kill myself, as much as it pains me to be around him, every time I am around him I feel all of this pain come flooding back to me, and the pain that I feel when that razor blade goes into my skin is nothing compared to the emotional and psychological pain that I feel.

Well I should at least try to get some sleep tonight, then I can at least try not to look like I am already dead on the outside, but in reality I am already dead on the inside.

The Next Moring

There was a phone call at 8am that woke Taichi up, his sister Hikari answered it, and it was Yamato.

"Hello, Yagami residence Hikari speaking."

"Hi Kari, its Yamato, is Tai there."

"Yeah, sure just let me go get him for you."

"Tai, Phone!"

"Who is it Kari?"

"It's Yamato." Kari Replied.

Taichi got out of bed and answered the phone.

"Hi, Yamato."

"Hi, Tai, look I was just wondering if you were doing anything today?"

"No I am completely free today."

"Well I was just wondering if you would like to come over later today to see me?

"Sure Matt I would really like to come over and catch up with you today, what time should I come over?"

"Well anytime after 10 should be okay."

"Well then I will see you then."

'Okay, Bye Tai"

"Bye, Matt"

"Well now that you are up Tai, are you planning on staying up or are you going to go back to bed?"

"I think that I will stay up thanks Kari"

They both had breakfast together, and Kari asked Tai what he was going to do today, and Tai said that he was going over to Matt's.

"Well Tai, are you finally going to admit your true feelings to Matt?"

"I really want to Kari, but I am so afraid that I am going to lose everything, and he will have nothing to do with me."

"Don't talk like that Tai, you know that Matt is not homophobic, he will always think of you as at least a friend."

"Kari I am going to have a shower now ok"

"Ok Tai."

While Tai was in the shower, the pain that he was feeling inside was just becoming extremely overwhelming, and he started cutting himself in the shower, but he accidentally cut too deep, and he nearly passed out due to blood loss.

Then Kari heard the loud bang of Tai falling down and decided to go in and see if he was alright.

"Tai, you ok?"

No response

"Tai?!!"

Still no response

Then she burst in and found him knocked out in the shower, and she saw the cuts on his wrists and arms.

Also the blood from the fresh cut and the razor blade in the other hand.

Kari bandaged up the cut and cleaned it up, but she was horrified that her own brother, a once happy person was reduced to this, she got him out of the bathroom and back into his bedroom and dressed.

The he finally came back around, and looked up to see two distinct emotional expressions on Kari's face, one was worry and the other was anger.

"TAI, WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TRYING TO PULL."

"Kari, I am so sorry that I never told you, I was just worried about how you would react, and why is my head so sore?"

"When you were cutting yourself, you fell and hit your head in the shower, then I brought you back to your room and dressed you."

Tai then looked at the clock and saw that it was ten o'clock, and said to Kari,

"I have to go over to Matt's now."

"Okay Tai, please be careful."

"Don't worry about me Kari, I will be fine."

Twenty Minutes Later

Tai was just about to knock on the door to Matt's apartment but he had so many different thoughts running through his head.

'OMG, what am I thinking, he will never feel the same way about me.'

But despite this ongoing argument, Tai knocked on the door, and almost immediately Matt answered the door.

"Hi, Tai, it's good to finally see you, it's been too long."

"Yeah, Matt you are right, it has been way too long."
"Come in Tai, sorry the place is such a mess, but you know how us teenage boys are." "Yeah, this place is almost as bad as my room"

"Ha-ha, very funny, Tai."

"Hey, Tai would you like to help me on Halo 3, I cannot manage to get past a part could you help me?"

"Yeah sure."

Four Hours Later

Tai was feeling like he was dying on the inside and went to use the bathroom.

"Hey Matt I need to use the bathroom."
"K Tai."

While Tai was in the bathroom, he still wasn't feeling any better inside, so he got out his razor blade and started to cut himself but once again he cut too deep and he felt himself losing consciousness.

"Hey Tai, everything ok in there?"
At that precise moment Matt burst into the bathroom and was horrified at the sight that was on the floor, Tai unconscious and not moving, but instead of calling an ambulance Matt called Tai's little sister Kari.

"Hello, Yagami residence, Hikari speaking."

"Kari it is Matt." Matt said sounding very worried

"Matt, what is wrong?" Kari picked up on the worried vibe straight away.

"It's Tai, you just need to get over here immediately."
"Okay I will be over ASAP."

5 Minutes Later

Tai was starting to come back around and saw a worried looking Matt hovering over him.

"Matt I am so sorry; I am just too weak to stand up to the darkness anymore." Tai said and with that he started sobbing uncontrollably, but when Matt tried to comfort him he just backed away.

"Tai, what did I do wrong?"

"Matt you did nothing wrong I am just so discusting." Tai's sobbing only got worse

"NO Tai, you are not discusting, what could you be thinking that could ever make you think that you are discusting."

"This."

And with that being said Tai then closed the distance between Matt and himself and kissed him passionately, Matt gasped in shock and Tai took this chance to deepen the kiss.

But before Matt had a chance to respond, Tai just got up and ran away, pushing right past his sister with tears in his eyes, with both Matt and Kari following close behind him.

Once he thought he was out of range and was under the impression that he had outrun Kari and Matt, he brought the razor blade up to his arm and was about to make made the slit on his wrist to end it all.

At that precise moment Matt and Kari came around the corner and saw what Tai was about to do, and then Matt lunged at him and just as he was about to make the cut and pinned his arms down on either side of Tai, and he just kept on repeating the same words over and over again.

"I am so sorry Matt, can you ever forgive me?" and "Please let me end my meaningless existence." In-between all of the sobbing

"Tai, man listen to me, there is nothing to forgive, because I still think that there is nothing wrong with you, how could you even think that?"

"Because I am in love with you, I am totally sick and twisted."

"What the hell do you mean, that doesn't make you twisted, or sick for that matter?"

"I am in LOVE with you Matt, I am gay, you know a faggot, poof..."

At that precise moment Matt decided to kiss Tai passionately to silence him and to show him that he was not the only one who feels like that.

"Matt, I had no idea that you felt that way about me." Sobbing uncontrollably again

"Well it wasn't exactly something that I could just come out and say to you, in case you didn't know how you would react and I don't reckon that I could handle it if you rejected or worse absolutely hated me."

"See Tai, I told you that if you told Matt, that he would not hate you, why didn't you believe me?" "Also Tai, please tell me that you will stop cutting yourself and hurting yourself and worrying everyone around you."

"Don't worry Kari, I will stop, now I have a reason to live with my boyfriend Matt, right?"

"Right Tai, I always have and always will love you until the end of time, now comes the hard part, telling our parents, but we can do this if we stick together right."

Author Notes:

My first story, please leave reviews, comments or ways that I could improve this story.