CHAPTER 1

THE BEGINNING OF ME

Do you ever wonder what the worlds or if you believe in him God's plan for you is, I mean the master plan the large one that shows everything. Of course not well not unless you've had some kind of near death experience or you are just one of those deep thinkers who ponders hard questions like that. Otherwise, you my friend are just like me. Why on earth would you a completely sane and reasonable person ever think of something like that, something so questionable? And truthfully, neither had I really ever just sat and thought of what the master plan for my life was. Fat chance in hell had I seriously sat down and thought…"What does God want from me and out of my life?" Well that is except for when my Mom would talk me into going to church with her, the pastor always seemed to be talking about something that actually had to do with my life. Or have you just thought what kind of fate, destiny or karma do I have leading me to making the decisions that I make or am I just doomed because I was a horrible person in a past life. This crazy life that I am starring the lead role in and trust me it it's insane to think of yourself as in a motion picture. No, really it was what do I want and how can I get to my dreams and goals that I set for myself, because I am the most important person in my own life and destiny, huh yeah right. I was just like all you red blooded citizens out there reading this thinking that I currently should be in a mental hospital but not just keep reading you'll understand and agree with me in the end. You know I was stressing about my daily life that I wanted so much to control and couldn't, well actually I was just too lazy to even try to do anything about my own misplaced reality.

I would stress about bad hair days, when my naturally curly hair just wanted to fro out and not do what I wanted, bad breath on that first date with that really cute guy I'd been interested in for a while and of course the major on of why in the freaking world is the breaks in my car going out again, hadn't I just paid that creepy old man next door to fix them like a month ago. The many and I do mean the many very, very bad blind dates that I went on and were so extremely horrible that I had required me to be rescued from them with in the first twenty minutes of the date. Yep, I am a great friend that I actually went on them because I trusted the people whom I thought were my friends and had actually considered me a friend that they wanted to set me up with someone they thought I would get along with. I mean they were trying, and thought that I would be as happy as they are with a man in my life like them, but in fact I can do bad all by my freaking self and I'm better off not corrupting a guy for other females.

I mean the only funny thing about me was me singing along with P!nk as she belted out "slut like you" and I sung along with her with my round brush in my had as my microphone and my stage costume of Victoria Secret's lace boy shorts (my absolute favorite and in my opinion the best in the world) and my most current ex-boyfriend Winston Othello's (the ass) old varsity tee shirt from the Harvard basketball team that he conveniently left at my place so that he could one day make a booty call drop by for it, and I equally conveniently forgot to toss it in his face since he was not going to ever get it back or get in my pants again, see normal things. Oh so normal for you, well you normal people understand what I'm talking about or like that credit card bill that I maxed out and am only paying the minimum payment on that I currently left at my house sitting on the small table by my freakin door so that I wouldn't forget it because it's due in a freakin week. Damn it, I really did need to get that thing in the mail today. But anyway like I was saying before I got distracted, the normal things in life about fate and destiny.

But anyway like I was meaning to say, fate and destiny never actually crossed my mind unless I was having a bad day. But anyway here I am sitting at Denny's eating a Very Berry French toast slam, which is extremely delicious and extremely bad for anyone's diet should they actually be on one. I am waiting on my best friend Juno Escalera, whom I've known since we were about 3 years old and went to the same daycare together. Juno was supposed to meet me half an hour ago but was probably lying in bed sucking face with her new and current toy's face and totally forgetting that she was to meet me here. I was of course reading or well trying to read this book called "Naked in Death" by J.D. Robb on my kindle fire.

I am trying to ignore everyone around me and just read the book and eat (although it is mostly gone) and wait on Juno to hopefully show herself. I was currently weighing my options of putting my headphones on and set my IPod to shuffle. My very cute, very annoying waiter is working my last nerve, which in all honesty isn't really all that hard to do. But he does have these beautiful green eyes that are like an emerald color and he is being extremely polite and I talked to him. I talked to him enough to know he is a sophomore at our local college and is studying to be an accountant oh and that he just broke up with his girlfriend Daisy, thy had dated for 3 years and had been high school loves but Daisy cheated on him with a super star hockey player. The whole time I was listening to this poor guy whine about Daisy, I kept hoping he'd get over it and just move on with things or at least from my table.

Suddenly I felt someone staring at me, damn it can't I get any kind of peace while I wait for Juno to finally show, don't there freaking people see that I am trying to read this book. I was trying to figure out who was staring at me when I started hearing someone talking about my cousin Zoey and how she's this huge slut, which irritated me and I kept listening in because let's face it they were talking about my cousin. Then I heard this familiar voice talking about how he keeps trying to et some girls attention but she never actually seemed to notice him. The voice sounded so familiar and if the voice was any indication of how he actually looked then the female, whom I suspected was Zoey since they were just talking about her and the fact that she is completely damaged goods.

I'm telling you this voice sounded so extremely familiar but I couldn't remember a name and a ace was not coming to mind either. Horrible, right? There had to be away that I could turn around to try to get a glimpse of who was behind me and maybe a face to go with the name but nothing I could think of at the moment.

"How's the food?" My waiter asked. This is the guy that I told you about previously, his name tag stated that his name is Scott although he looks more like a JD or CJ to me. But anyway his name isn't all that important. This isn't about him, this story is about me.

"Good, thank you. Check please." I said closing my book and finally gathering my purse and stuff together. Juno is 30 minutes late and I'm ready to go shopping, while Scott put my check on the table and left just before I realized that he put his phone number on the check for me.

I grabbed my purse and the check and headed towards the cash register glancing around to see if I knew someone or if I could figure out whose voice was familiar. Then I noticed the cashier, a girl about my age of 20 years old with these enormous boobs that were so very squished in her tiny Denny's shirt and her most likely size zero body that was bouncing with energy like she was on drugs as she rushed up to help me as my phone blasted out Bed Rock .

"How was the food and service?" The girl asked grinning at me.

"Both were good, thank you." I said smiling back at the perky blonde with the massive breasts and the name tag saying her name is Lulu.

Lulu is the absolute and complete dictionary definition of a blonde bimbo withal the giggling and bouncing around that she was doing behind that counter you would have thought I was paying for a lap dance not my freaking food. She is the type of woman that I wouldn't give a second thought about if I saw her on the street or in the club unless she tried something with my man that is.

"Thanks a lot and have a great day." Lulu said smiling and giggling like someone one was tickling her.

"Yeah, you too." I said smiling as Bed Rock belted out one again from my cell phone somewhere in the bottom of my handbag and I shoved a hand in to dig it out.

"Bye, come again soon." Lulu sang out bouncing up and down as she giggled and waved at me.

"Yeah sure. Hello?" I demanded into my cell just before it hit voice mail.

"Hey, hay Nyx, I am so so sorry. Please don't leave Denny's just yet. I am so freaking hungry and I promise I am almost there, just give me 15 minutes." Juno demanded in my ear.

"Damn it Juno, where the hell are you? You're almost an hour late. You blew off our breakfast tradition with me to suck face with him again didn't you?' I demanded shoving my wallet into my Dooney Bourke handbag.

"Oh come on Nyx. Don't be like that. You don't need to mad or jealous about me having amazing sex in a supper soft bed with a fantastic lover like my Angelo." Juno said laughing in that deep husky deep throated laugh of hers that all men seem to think is so sexy and I absolutely hate.

That throaty laugh that makes your mind go all fuzzy with thoughts of hot sweaty, fantastic animal sex, where clothing is ripped off of each other and both of you end up with bumps, bruises and scratches all over at the end of everything. God, I really hate when she laughs like that, it makes my mind go blank and think abou32wergdewt old boyfriends. But while I listened to Juno laugh I took the time and the opportunity to look around the restaurant and I found the table that the guys behind me and they are Angelo's friends; Tazmanien Burrows (Taz), Kole Edwards (Ed), Cooer Robinson (Coupe), and Chase Riley (Riley). What the hell were they doing on this side of town? I'm so freaking confused, what are they doing here and who the hell is the girl that they were talking about? I honestly didn't know any of them all that well or if any of them actually knew my cousin Zoey Wills.

Juno so has a lot to tell me and try to explain to me about this whole situation. She is so gonna tell me what she knows about those guys and how or I any of them knew Zoey. And then there's why Juno would stand me up on our breakfast tradition.