Disclaimer: I don't own this character
What is a good afterlife for a king who carried the burdens of his people?
For a king who struck fear with absolute power?
For a king who sacrificed everything for his true love?
Is the answer Heaven?
How about Hell?
Will Purgatory Suffice?
I lived in darkness in a void. Trapped in a pit of fear, sadness, and anger. I lived my entire life with a hole in my heart. On the outside, I showed happiness. On the inside, I was broken. I don't know why or how I continued living with myself ever since she left. Anger and guilt tormented every hour, every second of my life. It even haunts me in my dreams when I try to sleep. Verbally bullied by the voice's painful remarks. "What kind of king are you?!" "Everybody hates you!" "It should have been you!" "You don't love her! That's why you let her die!" No matter how hard I plugged my ears or try to block the noise, it always pierced through.
Everyday, I would wake up in a cold sweat. Everyday, I would pick up that accused cane. Everyday, I would try and fix this damn mechanical arm. Everyday, I would eat the pills I never wanted. Everyday, I would put on that fake smile to hide my pain. Everyday, I would wonder and ask myself "Do people look at me with disgust? Do they see me as a burden?" Everyday, I would bear the pain of a broken heart, the pain of feeling useless, and the pain of the inability to see the world's light. I would bear all this, just to start the horrendous cycle again. I always feel like I am in a deeper hole each day I live. I hate it… I curse it…
Yet I continue to live. Why did I endure the torrent of pain and suffering? Why did I continue to live without her light? Why?
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