I'm not going to fall for a friend
I'm not going to like it
I'm not going to accept it
I'm not going to tell anyone
I'm definitely not telling her
I'm not going to think about her
I'm not going to admire her features
I'm not going to brush up against her anymore during show rehearsals
I'm not going to talk to Spencer about my feelings
I'm not going to think about her when I kiss someone else
I'm not going to let this infatuation fester
I'm not.
I'm not.
Someone has to know.
After today, I'm never letting Freddie in on any other secrets
After today, I can never look her in the eye again
After today, shes gonna hate me
After today, I cant stop hearing the whispers in the school hall
After today, Ill never let the truth tumble out in a fit of weakness
.What
After today, I think Ill just go bury my head in the sand
After today, ill have a well stocked fridge and a quiet apartment
after today, I'm going to try and explain all of this
After today, I'm going to have to fix this mess
After today, I'm going to have to face her
I will.
I will.
Maybe she'll listen?
I didn't realize she was at the door
I didn't realize she was waiting for me
I didn't realize she wasn't prepared to rip my head off
I didn't realize she was hanging on every stuttered and stumbled word
I didn't realize when she pulled me closer
I didn't realize till she had reached my lips
I didn't realize how many times I love you and I'm sorry flowed out like water finally breaking through a cracking dam.
I didn't realize when the final I love you came from a different pair of kiss stung lips.
I didn't realize she felt the same
I didn't realize that's all it took
Loving someone
To be loved by someone
Now I do.
Now I do.
Maybe We can work.