'Why...Why...WHY?!' Was the only thought running through Longtail's head as he looked up at the sky. He knew that there're be no stars to represent the starclan warriors since he was already apart of their ranks. But he still could admire the moon that still hung above like a sign of purity, But Longtail didn't feel no where near pure.
He felt like a disaster.
He didn't feel like he deserved his rank in Starclan,No matter how many times Robinwing or Patchpelt told him that the path that he lead was a good one. He couldn't do anything to redeem himself after that Fox-dunged Rabbit clawed his eyes. Giving him scars and taking away his eyesight leaving him in a world of blackness wondering what the forest used to look like. His whole life was filled with wrong decision from unintentionally killing Poppydawn (She may have forgiven him,But he could never forgive himself.) to following Darkstripe and Tigerstar.
'...Tigerstar.'
Longtail shivered when he thought about the huge muscular tabby tom and his piercing amber eyes that can stop most cats in their tracks. Tigerstar was ruthless and ambitious but he was a good fighter and rather...
"Longtail!"
The cream and black tabby's thought were broken by a cry of his name. He looked up and spotted Speckletail and Goldenflower running over to him with sadness and worry shining in their clear sun colored eyes.
"Speckletail! Goldenflower! What's wrong?" Longtail asked standing up and waiting for the two tabby she cats to calm down.
"I-It's Snowkit. He's missing!" Speckletail wailed while Goldenflower nodded her head in agreement. Her tail draped over her mother's shoulder in a sign of comfort.
'Snowkit's missing?!' Longtail thought in surprise. He was quite fond of the small fluffy white tom who joined Starclan because of his deafness. Snowkit always enjoyed spending time with him and listened to his stories and was always a good company to have around when Longtail was wallowing in self pity cheering the tom up.
"When was the last time you saw him?" Longtail asked calmly for the sake of the already panicking Speckletail, Though he was secretly panicking himself.
"L-Last Moonhigh. He told me that he was going to go play with Mosskit and Adderkit. He's been gone eversince! We checked all the places that he would usually be in and asked Mosskit,Adderkit and Snowfur if they seen him anywhere. They said no and Lionheart still searching for him!...Longtail, You don't think?" Speckletail rambled until she came to the end of her story which she whispered in horror.
"Maybe...There's only one way to find out." Longtail meowed slowly turning to the wall of mist that separated Starclan from the Dark forest. He could feel the Darkness that steamed through the forest like a deep fog.
"I-It's to dangerous!" Goldenflower stuttered when she realized what Longtail was hinting at. "Longtail! What if you get lost in the darkness? You know that it's hard for Starclan to locate one of their own when their in there." She meowed walking over to Longtail's side.
"I need to risk it Goldenflower. I love Snowkit just as much as you, Speckletail and Lionheart do." Longtail replied causing Goldenflower to gasp as he walked until he was tail length away from the wall of grey mist. He turned to look at Speckletail and Goldenflower who watched him with sad eyes.
Even though his heart was beating in his chest he managed to meow. "Keep searching in Starclan...I promise that I will find Snowkit."
Speckletail gave a small smile and mewed "Thank you,Longtail. You truly are a Star clan cat."
'Then why do I feel like the Dark forest in where I belong?" Was Longtail's final thought as he jumped through the wall of mist to the place where the worst of clan cats go.