But She didn't want to be a loser and all alone. She wanted to be good and happy. But how could She be happy? It just isn't possible, there's no meaning for her to live, She thought. Tear dropped on her beautiful cheek. Even Neji, her cousin, thought She's loser. Hinata started crying very loud. What could She do? She took the pen and paper. She wanted to write a love letter to Naruto.
"Dear Naruto-sama,
hello how are you?"
She wrote, but then She crumpled up the paper and threw it to the basket under her table. She took another paper and started write.
"Hello Naruto-sama! Maybe you're asking why do I write you a letter, that's all because I love you!"
Then her tear dropped on the paper, onto the word love. She crumpled it up again and threw to the basket. Hinata took another piece of paper and started write again.
"Hello Naruto-sama! I'm glad that you received my letter. I just wanted to ask you when you'll return to Konoha. I miss you! Would you like to go for a date with me?"
No, She again crumbled it up when She realized that She don't know his current address. She again cracked out. Then in anger She took next paper and started to write. But it wasn't for Naruto..
"Dear Neji-sama,
I just wanted you to know. I've heard rumours that you talk about me. I want to ask you, if you still think that I'm a loser or what.
I don't want to be your enemy, I always thought that we are family and I cared of you. But what you said to me on Chuunin exams and
what you say about me, I'm not sure if I've ever hurted you, did I? If yes, it wasn't my intention and I'm sorry. I really don't remember
if I've ever done or said anything that would hurt you. Wish you a luck,
Hinata, your onee-san."
I really don't understand why did you turn away from me. I'm not weakling as you possibly think, I can take critique, but I'm too sensitive
and anything can make me cry. And you did it very well.
Maybe I'm not as good as you in fighting and I won't ever be, but it doesn't mean that you're better or worse. We're both in same clan,
same village and same Earth.
And you think that I'm naive little girl who doesn't know the world. But you know, I know the world very well. I understand loneliness and
hapiness. I've learned from my mistakes. Sometimes I reallywish to don't know the world. If I don't know the world, I wouldn't write
to you and I wouldn't cry because of you and because of a lot of another things!
When we were little, we were almost the best friends. Where is it now, onii-san? I always looked up to you. I just don't understand you.
I know that you want to be a strong one, but please, look back on me. You even weren't able to look me upon the eyes since that time!
Your mind isn't clear, Neji-sama. When I wanted to talk to you last time, you've just ran away. maybe the only weakling here is you.
Just realize what a wounds have you done to me and explain it to me, because I even don't know the reasons!
You have to understand, you have to look me into eyes or to the truth.
Now I'm working on me. I'm going to be stronger and stronger. I'm just asking what would you think of me now, if you're with me...but
you won't, you won't ever read it, you won't ever find it! Believe in this!
Then She threw it through window. Maybe He'll find it and maybe not. Maybe somebody else will think about it or laugh to it. There's no big chance for him to read it, but there's a hope for Hinata. And She will hope forever.
