For a long time I did nothing but sleep and drown in my sorrows, feeling guilty.
In the midst of my illness called depression I had forgotten what it was to be human.
I had not left my apartment for weeks.
I wiped away the tears that still hanged from my eyelashes and took a deep breath. I was ready. On that occasion I wouldn't be writing poetry or a short story for children, my favorite public, it was a letter, an apology that began with:
"Sakura, I'm so sorry ..."
Every word that followed at that agonizing start slowly killed me. I knew it was the end of our friendship. Or rather, the definitive end, since I knew lost her confidence in just the moment she discovered my idyll with her boyfriend.
The saddest part was that I would not just lose a friend with that message, but also I would lose my "lover". But there is no turning back, I had decided that the most worthy thing to do in those moments was to give up the one thing that I had loved with devotion ...
My good friend... Naruto. With whom I had shared everything about myself.
After 21 years of life, the right decision was finally made: To love myself above all.
But, giving up my biggest addiction was not easy. It will take me months of sleep and hundreds of tears that I would never recover. But at the end of the day, I deserve it. I was aware that being with him from the beginning it had already cost me all my dignity.
It had cost me friendships.
All for satisfying my friend's lowest wishes.
All for being his "Special Friend".
Author note: First of all. My first language is spanish, so before hand I am apologizing if there are a few (or lots of) mistakes on my translation (Because the original Fanfiction is being written in spanish).
I am trying to improve my english this year (Mostly because I wanna apply for a scholarship and it requires it), thats why I took the mission of translating my own story.(which I havent finalized yet)
Hope you understand and like it :)