I don't want to complain, I don't have a place to, but Jounouchi Katsuya is under appreciated by everyone he surrounds himself with.
Mazaki is far too harsh.
Hiroto, far too violent.
Otogi, far too cruel.
Yet so am I.
I do not mean to leave Jounouchi with such harsh words, such violent insults, such cruel taunts, but I have no other way of managing how I feel. I have no other way to keep that sickening feeling from crawling up my throat and suffocating me, no other way to keep from exploding with these emotions.
As a child I was never taught to express myself, conceal don't feel, my stepfather was anal about my upbringing, wouldn't have me showing any signs of weakness, yet how he raised me left me weaker than most, unable to handle extreme emotions, unable to manage anything akin to what I was feeling for him now.
I tried and tried, but try as I might, I couldn't get myself to stop treating him in this fashion. No matter what precautions I took, no matter what I scripted for myself, no matter how I played things out, no matter what, I would go back to that same bullying, the behaviours that got me into so much trouble with him. They weren't something I could stop. It was painful for me.
Watching as he slowly grew to hate me more and more, how he came to resent me for all that I had done, how he viewed me as an enemy. Me, of all people. He had to hate me.
I wasn't sure what I could have ever done to win him over. I doubted that there was anything, but I could try, and try, and try until I would finally succeed, even if it took me a lifetime, even if it took me two.
Jounouchi Katsuya is under appreciated, Jounouchi Katsuya is underrated, Jounouchi Katsuya is undervalued, Jounouchi Katsuya is brushed aside so easily, and it hurts me that I am the one to do all of these to him.