A/N this is my first fan fiction so I hope you like it! I do not own anything, only Stephenie Meyer owns it...

Chapter 1

BPOV

I had to find the meadow hoping it would ease the slicing pain. Jake was avoiding me and was with his friends, all I could do then was cling on the memories that I had of the Cullens. Then I saw a dim light at the end of the woods, I started running towards it, I tripped a couple of times but didn't feel the pain because I had worse. When I reached the meadow I felt bad and with that I mean my world came crushing down in one moment… All those memories that I kept hidden in the back of my mind were suddenly there right in front of me, all those moment I spent with him and his family.

Flashback

"We are leaving Forks, people are getting suspicious about us." Edward said.

"That would be hard for me but I'll tell Charlie that I'll be fine and then we could fake an accident or something." I said.

"With we I mean me and my family, you are staying here, you have your whole life in front of you so don't throw it away!" He said angrily.

"So you don't wan't me to come with you? But you said you wouldn't leave me!" I yelled.

"Bella, I don't want you anymore. You aren't good for me and my family. You were just a distraction for us, we were trying to blend in with the humans." He said and looked away.

"That changes everything, so you don't want me and I was just a distraction?" I whispered.

"Yes, you are just a distraction. Can you promise me one thing while we are gone? Don't do anything reckless " He dazzled me.

"I think i can do that…" I said trying to smile but he was already gone...

End Flashback

I missed him the most because he was everything I ever wanted, all I ever dreamed of, but everyone else I missed too; Alice and her love for shopping, Emmett with his jokes, Carlisle and Esme with their parental advise, Jasper with his own way to calm me, I even miss freaking Rosalie! She wasn't really nice to me but now I'm thankful for her not letting me think that I was part of the family because now I know I was just a distraction for him… I couldn't even think about his name or else I'd break down and cry like a baby and be hurt all over again, it was a good thing Jake didn't come with me when I found the meadow, because it would be very hard for me to explain all the pain I felt when he left me… I started crying...

"Bella?" A beautiful voice asked. I turned around and saw Laurent and he was looking at me curiously with crimson red eyes.

This was a bad thing because he was with the Denali coven and they hunted animals so his eyes are supposed to be golden…

He saw my frightened look and said with a smile "I slipped, it was hard for me drinking animal blood, it worked for a while but in the end it wasn't worth it." He grinned at this comment and came closer to wipe the tears away.

"Where are the Cullens?" He suddenly asked.

I flinched at the name and backed away but said "They left Forks…"

"Is that what you are crying for? But weren't you the mate of Edward? I think you were after all just a human toy for him…" He looked like he was thinking very hard about something.

"Victoria wouldn't like me doing this but you my Bella smell mouthwatering!" I saw him coming at me with inhuman speed and I screamed when I felt a burning pain in my neck so I knew he bit me. Then I heard a growl of something that sounded like a big animal, but I couldn't think about that, the last thing I thought was Edward, I love you!

I felt something was trying to move me but I didn't care, all I did cared about was the burning pain! I kept screaming "Please KILL me, please I beg you!!"

I decided that screaming did no good so I kept my mouth shut. After what seemed ages the pain began to go away, I could hear voices and smelled something awful, I couldn't place it but it was like a wet dog… I was concentrating on the voices when I heard Jake arguing.

"She is becoming a filthy bloodsucker, Jake!" Someone said.

"She is still my friend and what could I do kill her myself?!" Jake said.

"I know she is your friend but you seem to think that she might become more, but she can't Jake she was never the one for you! You are putting all of us in danger, did you even think about your dad who lives in this house and Emily, she is at the end of the street, did you even think about the rest of La Push?!" The other voice screamed.

"I know Sam, I'm putting everybody in danger, but I won't let them hurt Bella and I won't let Bella hurt them trust me! I will leave with her so that our people is save and I will come back when I know she is save too…" Jake screamed back.

I knew that I was becoming a vampire and there are humans so close, JAKE was so close! He helped me so much when they left and now I was going to kill him! At that thought my heart began pounding very fast like it was going to explode or something. I kept thinking; Hold your breath and run away so can't hurt anybody! I heard Jake coming in the room saying "Sam, it's time you should leave." Why is he coming closer?! Wasn't he avoiding me?! Didn't he know what I was becoming?! His conversation with that Sam made it clear that he knew what I was becoming!

My heartbeat began to slow, when it beated it's last beat I opened my eyes.

A/N I know it's short but I'll try to make them longer in the future!