Disclaimer: I do not own Kim Possible. KP belongs to Disney. The song, "Thinking of you" is by Katy Perry. I don't own that, either. Don't sue the 16 year old, please.
No offense to the RoKi coupling.
Yes, yes. I know I should work on Prophecy, Ron's Wedding, On The Run And Saving The World, Miss Go's Back and Enemies' Engaged. Just had to do this quick fic to take my mind of something one night and thought I'd share it with you. At least I'm letting you all know I'm still alive.
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I pace around my room, my mind too pre-occupied in thought to notice the door opening and someone coming in. I only just realized my boyfriend was around when he stood right in front of me and his hands made a grab for me by the shoulders.
"You okay?" He asks after planting a quick kiss on my forehead. God, he's so sweet. My ex wouldn't have done that. My past love would just come, say something and then go off. Ron's not like that. He's super caring and sensitive. If something was wrong, even if he didn't know what it is, he'd comfort me all the same. Ron's patient, polite, considerate and level-headed. Not at all like Shego. Not snippy, rude, sarcastic, stubborn... loving, emphatic, kind and absolutely perfect in every way like Shego.
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
"I'm okay. Just thinking on some ways to organize my room, is all. So not the drama!" I say, trying to convince myself more than him. I remember when I told her that I was sick of her nonchalant attitude and threatened to break up with her unless she changed, she actually said that if I couldn't accept her for what she was, then it would be for the best. She told me to go. To move on. Find someone else. After a while, I ended up with Ron.
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know
Ron looks at me with a worried expression. His chocolate brown eyes seem to try to make a connection with my bright green ones. I pull away, not wanting to tell him what was really bothering me. As I try to find something else to grab my attention, I find a duffle bag next to my computer desk. I suddenly remember what we had planned tonight. He's spending the night with me. In my room. We agreed that it's time to progress our relationship further.
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
"Kim, seriously. What's the matter?" He asks, trying to find some kind of explanation to my behavior. I smile weakly as I try to reassure him that nothing's wrong. As I busy myself with tidying my room, my mind takes me back to Shego's words on the night of our break-up.
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test
"Well, if you say so, KP." He says, his hand again on my shoulder. I turn around and he kissed me. Though it was his lips on mine, I can only taste Shego. Her refreshing green apple and mint breath in my mouth. If I could at the moment, I'd have slapped myself. This was so low of me. Kissing my boyfriend but only able to think of her.
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into
I want to pull away. I want to just shove him off and run out the door. But I can't. Even if do, where would I go? What would I do? How would I explain my actions? And, most of all, would she even take me back? I still couldn't believe how I had been so stupid as to have thrown away the best thing that's happened to me. How I banished my beloved dark angel and settle for a mere mortal instead?
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
I want to cry. I want to just keep the tears flowing till there's no more left. Oh, how I wish that Shego'll just burst in through the door and run off with me. Say that it was a mistake on her part as well. I would care less if she hadn't changed one bit. All I would do is wrap my arms around her and weep into her shoulders; wailing my apologies and swear that I'd never do anything so stupid again.
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay
But, I know better. She's not coming through the door. She's not going to grab me and hold me when I cry. I'd made sure of that. I told her to go somewhere and forget me. Never look for me. Never get involved with me ever again.
And she chose that time to finally do as I say.
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Yes, well... A lot of you are probably gonna kill me now, so I'd better go hide under a rock somewhere.