Life has a weird way of working out in the end. Not always a happy ending, but life gets you to the point that you need to be for the universe to continue its cycle. Life effects everyone, even if you are technically dead. This moment, is the pivotal moment of my life. I never would have thought that I would thirst for someone like Edward thirsts for Bella. Edward was always very guarded with himself, but being there when he was turned gave him the notion that I would help him with any of his problems.

Not that he was mistaken, but I never have been able to give good advice. I told him to try with Bella, of course I had never met her. I was in India when she transferred, aiding people in the slums is not something you expect a vampire to spend their time doing, but it is the only thing I can do to pass this life day by day. By helping others I can try to help to make the world a better place. But this moment, when I felt just like I would go insane with the lust for this blood was the pressing matter and I should not distract from the physical pain that had plagued me.

I smelled wolf as soon as I got close to the house. I knew that we would be fighting with the Quilette wolves, Edward had warned me to be cautious when I approached the house as the wolves might be patrolling. However, the smell of wolf was mixed with an aroma that made me run even faster to the house. Was this smell Bella? Maybe she was just as irresistible to me as she was to Edward. But that did not make sense because she was his soul mate, no pun intended.

As I neared the house I recognized the clear glass that made up most of the house's front. I smelled the familiar scents of my family and of a human. Bella had to be the human scent, I could tell that her smell was not driving me crazy; so, who was it? Who could possibly be the one that was driving me crazy with this thirst? I hated them. I'd never fed from a human, never. The one who turned me, well, he told me what he was doing. Not that I had a choice in the matter but what I did, what I do, help people; that, that is why I have never fed from a human. I want to try and help the world, not make it a darker place. But this person was going to ruin it, I didn't know how much longer I could last before my will power lost out over my need for the blood of this person.

Focus.

All you have to do is get inside and they will make sure that you do not attack anyone. Easier said than done. I did not even have enough time to appreciate the house that I had been gone from for three years, I merely retched open the door and raced in. I could tell the human girl, Bella was startled by my sudden appearance but I'd introduce myself later, I did not trust myself to speak. Edward was at my side as soon as I crossed the threshold. His eyes searching my distressed face for any other indicator to what was causing me to revert back to my instincts. I felt the calming effect Jasper was trying to push onto me from across the room, it helped but I was still in physical pain from the thirst.

If I could have passed out, I probably would have.

I do not own the Twilight Saga, nor am I getting any profit off of this story. It has been written for my amusement. : )

All of the chapters will be kind of short, but I will hopefully be able to have a lot of them

Please Review! I am also in the process of getting some art of Rowena and a few other things for this fanfic. I shall post them when they are complete, maybe along with the full description of Rowena. (And a *coughcough*future character that might be in this fanfic*coughcough* )