Nostalgia

Prologue

Authors Note: Hey, its Jade here. I know that I am currently working on Eternal Eclipse, but there is a part of me that just screams "Where's Remus?" Remus Lupin is my favourite character, and I love writing fics about him. I had another, but that was really a bit of bad luck. tsk. So, I'm starting anew, and I hope that you guys will like it. If there is any way I can improve on the story, or on my writing technique, please review or email me. The email address is on my profile page.

Thank you so much!

Disclaimer: I do not own any character belonging to the Harry Potter series, which is property of J.K. Rowling.

And as I laid eyes on her, I saw another Hannah... with her auburn hair and bright green eyes, beaming with the aura of autumn magic.

But It wasn't her... it couldn't be her. My Hannah is gone, long gone,perhaps flown with the fading rainbow, ordrowned in the deep orange of sunset. I don't know where she was, but I knewthat that was not her. Formy Hannah was mine alone, and no one elses, but this'Hannah' seemed to belong to thewhole world. And instead of eyesthat search for dusk, her eyes wait for dawn...

"Remus… why won't you tell me what's wrong?"

Remus ignored the auburn haired girl, and turned away from her. He continued pulling small pieces of bark off a thick, large-trunked tree.

"Remus, will you stop stripping the tree and talk to me?"

Remus, with much force, pulled off a large piece of bark and threw it on the ground angrily. His yellow eyes had a glint of insane rage and sadness in it, and it scared the auburn-haired girl.

"What do you want to know?" he asked, his voice stern and fierce. The girl was frightened, but she tried her best to hide it, and spoke with a clear, forceful voice.

"Why do you look so terrible? You've been looking pale and sickly for the past few days! And why are you avoiding me…" her tears began to swell up, as she lost the forcefulness in her voice.

"Why…"she choked. "…have you changed?"

Remus felt the sadness in her voice, and each tear that rolled down her cheek pierce his heart like acid. Looking up at her, he saw such emotion in her eyes, which stung him. He had made her cry…

That one phrase echoed in his mind.

Trying very hard, he kept back his own tears, and brought the little girl into his arms. Her skinny frame felt small, and he was a head taller than her, although he was only one year older. He thought back at what had happened, and what the options were. The girl continued sobbing in his arms, and he rested his chin on her soft, red hair.

Remus knew, though, that he could not tell her exactly what it was that had happened, and what he was. Why he grew more pale and sickly as the full moon came, and weak right after it leaves. He did not want to be so close to her, because of what he had become, but he knew now that it is the one thing he regrets the most. For their time together grows less and less by the second…

"Hannah…"he whispered to himself, and stroked her red hair.

"Mm...Hm…?" she said softly, hardly audible. He took a deep breath, and opened his mouth, to tell her the terrible truth.

"I'm… going to boarding school… soon."

"What!" she yelled. At once she broke out of his arms, and glared at him with a look of fury. "How… why…"

"Next week, actually. My family will be moving to London on the 30th, and then I'll be going to go to Boarding school soon after…"

"But… but…" she stuttered, the tears flowing anew. Remus, not knowing what to do, reached out, and attempted to pull her into a hug. But with a burst of anger, she yelled at him, pulling away from him.

"How could you do this to me!" she yelled. Her whole body shook with emotion.

"I'm sorry!" he cried. "I'm sorry!"

"Don't… don't you like me anymore?"

"I do! It's…I'm sorry…"

"Don't I mean anything to you..." she trailed off. Before, she stepped back and leaned on the bare trunk of the tree, her head spinning heavily as she cried. Remus stepped forward slowly, his tears now daring enough to show themselves, his hands trembling as they longed to wrapped themselves around her tiny, fragile frame and hold her throughout the week. But they were afraid to touch her, lest she run away from her, and break away from him.

He was so scared, so afraid that she would hate him…

"Don't… don't hate me Hannah…" he cried through sobbing eyes. And as she stared up at him, and saw the sun set behind him, with his tears shining against the warm glow of the sunset skies and his pale, sunken skin, and his beautiful yellow eyes, with sadness at every window - she found out that she knew exactly how to answer.

She reached up as high as she could, and grasped onto her neck, and said, "I could never do that, Remmy…"

He felt his own tears flow at the sound of the words, as well as her tears soak into his thin cotton shirt.

"Remmy… I rather like that name," he said, and felt his heart soar at the sound of her laughter, as he recited the familiar lines. "But why am I so special?"

"Because, Remmy," she recited softly, whispering into his ear as the sky grew darker. "You have eyes like the setting sun, but instead, they never fade away."

They sat together against their tree, watching the sun as it set. The occasion was a sad one, but nonetheless, they still had each other. And as Hannah lay against Remus, hearing each inhale and exhale that he took, she asked a simple question.

"And… what about me, Remmy? Why am I special?"

Remus smiled, and leaned his head on hers.

"Because, dear Hannah, if I ever fade away, you will be there…"

And as he stared down at the small, ten-year-old girl, he had a realization that he was never going to forget her, because as young as they were, they were never going to love anyone else more.

"…and I shall be yours, so I can see whatever you see, and be wherever you'll be…"