Title: Now We Live
Author: FutureSlayer
Raiting: PG
Feedback: Yes Yes Yes please!
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters. We know this. On to story goodness!
Summery: Buffy reflects on her life as a Slayer. Spoilers for Season Seven!
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I've always wanted to be normal. To connect with people on a level that wasn't about me holding all of the power. I never wanted the power. But, for some reason, it was given to me. A girl barley in her twenties, in the fight of her life against the most powerful evil in the world. I used to stay awake at night, back when I was still young and rejecting my duty even more so then now. I'd imagine the normal life I knew I would never be able to have. Sometimes whole days would be acted out in my head, stories of a life that would never be. And then I was thrust away from that power. Everything that had defined me for the past seven years was taken away from me by the ones that I cared about most. And that power I had rejected for almost all of high school was given to Faith. And I felt even more alone than I had before.
I was unfit to lead. And Faith had said it exactly how it was: Could I follow? Could I take a backseat? Was I able to deal with not being in control? As I walked out of that house I remembered what I had told the potentials when I was training them for the coming battle. They were chosen for a reason. They had the potential. And I finally realized that there was a reason I was chosen too.
When I came back to the spot that I had become used to, it was with renewed hope. Hope that Spike had given me. He made me remember. I wasn't a quitter, and I wouldn't start now. And when that Ubervamp stabbed me in the war against the First that I knew somehow was the last, everything came rushing back. All the evil I had destroyed, all the people I had helped, always alone. I had my friends, but when it came down to it, the weight of the world still rested on my shoulders. And now, suddenly I'm not alone anymore.
Every girl that has that fire, every one of them that has the potential to save humanity time after time, has the power. It's not all on my head. And now I know that that is the point. All this time I've been hoping for a life that is completely overrated. This is where I've been headed since I was called. My ultimate reward isn't a normal life, it shouldn't be. Now, I get to share this power, I get to lead and follow, and I'm okay with both.
"What are we going to do now Buffy?" I heard Dawn ask.
I looked out and the now-destroyed Sunnydale. Lives were lost in the battle. There was pain and grief, and things were sacrificed for the greater good. A smile couldn't help but creep up my face.
As I gazed out into the distance, I realized exactly what we were going to do.
I took a deep breath, smiling as I turned to my sister.
"We're going to live now Dawnie", I told her, as I finally realized that I was finally allowed to.
Author: FutureSlayer
Raiting: PG
Feedback: Yes Yes Yes please!
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters. We know this. On to story goodness!
Summery: Buffy reflects on her life as a Slayer. Spoilers for Season Seven!
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I've always wanted to be normal. To connect with people on a level that wasn't about me holding all of the power. I never wanted the power. But, for some reason, it was given to me. A girl barley in her twenties, in the fight of her life against the most powerful evil in the world. I used to stay awake at night, back when I was still young and rejecting my duty even more so then now. I'd imagine the normal life I knew I would never be able to have. Sometimes whole days would be acted out in my head, stories of a life that would never be. And then I was thrust away from that power. Everything that had defined me for the past seven years was taken away from me by the ones that I cared about most. And that power I had rejected for almost all of high school was given to Faith. And I felt even more alone than I had before.
I was unfit to lead. And Faith had said it exactly how it was: Could I follow? Could I take a backseat? Was I able to deal with not being in control? As I walked out of that house I remembered what I had told the potentials when I was training them for the coming battle. They were chosen for a reason. They had the potential. And I finally realized that there was a reason I was chosen too.
When I came back to the spot that I had become used to, it was with renewed hope. Hope that Spike had given me. He made me remember. I wasn't a quitter, and I wouldn't start now. And when that Ubervamp stabbed me in the war against the First that I knew somehow was the last, everything came rushing back. All the evil I had destroyed, all the people I had helped, always alone. I had my friends, but when it came down to it, the weight of the world still rested on my shoulders. And now, suddenly I'm not alone anymore.
Every girl that has that fire, every one of them that has the potential to save humanity time after time, has the power. It's not all on my head. And now I know that that is the point. All this time I've been hoping for a life that is completely overrated. This is where I've been headed since I was called. My ultimate reward isn't a normal life, it shouldn't be. Now, I get to share this power, I get to lead and follow, and I'm okay with both.
"What are we going to do now Buffy?" I heard Dawn ask.
I looked out and the now-destroyed Sunnydale. Lives were lost in the battle. There was pain and grief, and things were sacrificed for the greater good. A smile couldn't help but creep up my face.
As I gazed out into the distance, I realized exactly what we were going to do.
I took a deep breath, smiling as I turned to my sister.
"We're going to live now Dawnie", I told her, as I finally realized that I was finally allowed to.