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BPOV A soft flutter of wings lined my stomach, and my heart began to race hysterically. I lifted my trembling hands to my ear as I slipped in my last pearl earring. I'd never felt so nervous in my life. This was like that feeling you experience when you're about to go for an important test. Only this test possibly held the answers to my future, and that scared the hell out of me. I was never one for dressing up or glamorizing myself. My style was very simple- jeans, t-shirt and converse-but tonight I had gone all out,. This time everything was different. This glorious night, where the moon shone over the jet black sky, and the wind softly blew past the trees, making them rustle together, things may never be the same again. This night I would take the next step into new realms with my best friend, the reason I breathe and most importantly love of my life, Jacob Black. A small smile began to tug at the corners of my lips at the thought of seeing him tonight. Some deluded, messed up part of me thought that all this-spending hours getting ready, trying on different outfits to find the perfect one-was all in my head. I knew for a fact it was all real because sitting happily on my wrist was a handmade braided bracelet given to me by Jacob. It was beautiful. The jewelry was woven with cedar bark strips in all different colors. He had put in light red, pink, dark red, brown and yellow strips, which were all wound around a white base. He had once told me, when we were sitting by one of the pack's famous bonfires, what each color symbolized. As I absently fingered the bracelet, the bonfire relayed in my mind as clearly as if we were there once again. The sound of twigs tapping repeatedly against my window brought me out of my beautiful memory. I laid my hand over the stunning piece of jewelry and a content smile appeared on my face, I closed my eyes and watched as images of Jake continued to flow through my mind. Jake had yet to find out my love for him, as I managed to keep it well hidden. To be honest, I was a little scared. I wanted to tell him so desperately it made my heart ache constantly. Every time I laid my love-sprung eyes on his breathtaking body, I would wish I could walk over to him, grab his soft, russet cheeks and put a stop to our never ending sorrow. We were both unbelievably attracted to one another. Everybody and their mother could see that by the way the sparks would fly between us whenever we were within close proximity of each other. Every time I saw glimpses of him, my heart would pound through my chest. I was so sure he could hear the drum thumping against my rib cage, as whenever my heart rate began to escalate, he would simply tilt his head toward me and give that panty dropping smile. I was no pro in sexual feelings, but my god, he made me want to do some rather naughty things to him. I wasn't used to wearing dresses, but I really wanted to make the effort. I stood before the full length mirror and scrutinized every part of my outfit. I'd spent hours searching the Internet, trying to find tutorials on how to do curl my hair as I had no clue. I then spent another hour browsing for simple, yet elegant, makeup looks. I really didn't know how Jessica and Angela managed to fit it all in. I was exhausted. This evening, I'd already had a few new experiences: applying my own makeup, doing my hair, those darn tong things are pure evil! I burnt myself more times than I'd care to admit. My neck was now a temporary home to burn marks. As for applying makeup, well now I know why I don't wear it. I made the disastrous mistake of wearing another dress while applying it. I think the dress had more makeup covering it than my face. I paced in front of my mirror as I prayed I looked halfway decent. I wanted to look nice for him. Ah Jake, the small flutter of wings in my stomach had now blossomed into full blown gigantic butterflies. I floated over to my desk where I placed my laptop. Jake wasn't due to pick me up for another half an hour. I wasn't sure if it were that fact I was heading out on a date, but I was feeling unusually sentimental. I wanted to go through my desktop photos and gaze at his face, see those gorgeous brown eyes, and his perfectly kissable lips. I typed in the password and my background popped up. I had a picture of myself, Mike, Ben, Jessica and Angela stood outside a bar in Port Angeles. This was taken on that dreadful weekend where Jake decided I wasn't good enough to be in his life. Those were the hardest two days of my life. Not seeing him drove me insane, and the guys noticed it. Ben and Mike told me I should stop wallowing in my pity and go hang out with them for the night so I did. That was the first time I'd gotten completely drunk. I needed something, anything, to take the edge off his harsh words. I needed to let the alcohol soak up all the venom I heard in his voice. It worked until the morning after when I woke up with a killer hangover, and Jacob's heartbreaking words came screaming back to me like a freight train. Jacob came to me that night and explained everything. He was extremely worried when I came home swaying from side to side and not able to walk straight. He told me he stayed outside my house the whole night, as he was so worried I would choke on my own vomit. He told me he wanted to be there so if anything happened, he would be at my side in a flash. I smiled at the memory and clicked onto my photo folder. A full page came up with hundreds of photos. Most were of Jake and I, but there were a fair amount of Jake and the two knuckleheads. He loved those two douchebags like brothers. I admired the bond they had with each other. There was only one man who I shared that bond with, and I was about to go on a date with him. I quickly changed my screen saver to a picture of him standing behind me, with his arms protectively around my waist; looking down at me with smiling eyes and the biggest grin I'd even see graced his face. I was laughing my head off and leaning back onto his shoulder with my head turned into the crease of his neck. "Bella! Come down here a minute, we need to have a talk!" I jumped a little in my seat and groaned as Charlie's deep voice boomed through the house. I swung around on my chair and pushed myself up. Great, don't tell me I'm gonna get the 'birds and the bees' talk. JPOV I could hardly contain my excitement as my paws crushed the dirt into the ground, while I ran through the sea of trees. I, Jacob Black, finally got Bella Swan to agree to go out on a date with me. Granted, it's taken almost two years, but better late than never! The past few hours, I'd been visualizing her more than normal. I speculated about how she would be feeling. I wondered whether she would be nervous, excited, scared. I certainly knew how I felt, I couldn't wait to get home and get suited up for the big night. I was determined to make this a date she would never forget. I'd spent the last two days practically living around Sam and Emily's place, getting advice on what to wear and what chicks dig. I knew Bella better than I knew myself ,but it wouldn't hurt to know a little more on the romance side of things. I had asked Claire and Seth to help me out with the date. I knew exactly what I wanted to do, and exactly where I wanted to do it. And, most importantly, I knew Bella would love it. "Seriously, Black. Did your balls shrink and drop off?" Quil mocked as we all flew through the forest. I loved the feel of the cool wind whipping through my fur as I ran. Everything on either side of me began to blur from my speed, and it felt awesome. "Quil, lay off. You can see he's hyped up for his date with the elusive Bella Swan," Embry joked. "I can't understand why. I mean, fucking hell, Jake, a pale face? I would kinda be on board if she were attractive, but damn! That chick has a face like a smacked ass! If you see her crack a smile, it's once in a full moon," Paul stated. "I suggest you shut up the fuck up, if you wanna keep your balls," I growled. I tried to remain polite and respectful towards each pack member, but this fuck nut did my head in. He was always so full of himself, and always had an answer for every question. My jaws clenched together as I forced my legs faster. The sooner I was away from him and his asshole thoughts, the better. "Why? Can't you handle the truth? I'm just saying what all these pussies won't. These pansies hold you in high regard; whereas, I personally couldn't give two shits about you." My patience was starting to grow thin. I pushed my wolf to its limits to get away from his constant mental harassment. Unfortunately being a wolf had its disadvantages, the main one being no fucking privacy! "I don't know why you didn't just stick with Leah. I mean, at least the bitch has a little fight in her! Plus she has a fuck awesome rack." The word Leah wound me up tighter than a nun's ass. I hated the witch. She was a two-faced bitch who needed to stay the hell away from me. Leah was my fucked-in-the-head, psychotic, never-should-have-happened, ex-girlfriend. I don't really know what I was thinking when we became whatever the fuck we were. Oh that's right, I wasn't. I was only with Leah because I couldn't have Bella. Leah was there to make Bella jealous, but it in fact, it turned out the other way around. After I made the enormous mistake of introducing Leah as my girlfriend to Bella, the love of my life then decided to make me one hell of a jealous fucker and introduce that marshmallow, who became the third wheel on our movie date, as her boyfriend. I swear I had never wanted to phase and rip someone's head off more. How dare that shit think he's good enough for my girl! In fact, how dare he ever think about being with my girl. We were meant to be together, and that slimy little prick was the one holding and kissing her. That wasnot ok with me. My whole body froze on all fours and darted around. I stood opposite Paul and viciously growled at him, I made sure to bear all my razor sharp teeth to show I meant business. For a minute we were sizing each other up. I could easily take the prick; I was waiting for my opportune moment. "C'mon, Jakey baby! Big bad Bella's not here to save your whipped ass now is she!" My nostrils began to flare as the steaming hot air flew out my nose and floated around in front of me. "I'm warning you, shut your mouth before I shut it permanently!" I spat and then bolted towards my intended target, Paul. I was going to make him eat his words, and regret the day he ever spoke bad about my girl. I ran at him so fast the ground began to tremble and shake from my speed. I could hear Quil and Embry in my head egging us on. I was in his face in milliseconds; the asshole can talk shit about me all he wants, but to blatantly disrespect Bella like that, hell no. "Firstly, Lahote! That 'pale face' just happens to be the sexiest chick I have ever seen. Secondly, you have no idea how much fight Bella has in her! I bet she could shut your mouth!. Thirdly, I wouldn't know whether Leahhas a 'fuck awesome' rack as I can't say I've ever been that interested in looking. The only rack I wanna see belongs to the stunner I'm going on a date with later. And lastly, if you're so fucking hooked on the bitch, date her yourself and leave me and Bella the fuck alone!" "Well, I wouldn't wanna tread on Jakey boy's precious paws now would I, oh mighty Alpha?" "Maybe I'm not making this clear enough asshole, getting with Leah was the worst mistake of my life and it willnever happen again. Trust me when I say you would certainly not be treading on my 'paws' as the only thing that kept me with her was every time I looked at her I saw Bella. I am and always will be in love with one person, Bella Swan. Got it, asswipe?" "Wow, if this is how the pale face makes you react, maybe I should try tapping it myself. You know, then you can have my leftovers." My anger reached boiling point ,and I launched myself at him. "You go anywhere fuckin' near her and I will rip you to pieces!" Unable to control myself, I kept lunging towards Paul. My knife-edged teeth darted towards neck, but only came back with mouthfuls of fur. Spitting that out, I put my clawed paw to his throat and watched in amusement as he tried to squirm out from my death grip. "Not so fuckin' tough now, are ya, dickwad!" The saliva flew out of my mouth as I breathed heavily from our fight. I was nowhere near ready to call it quits-the asshole was going to pay! He pushed me back, and I slammed to the dirt with a loud thud. Snarling, I leapt back onto all four paws and began to circle him as he found his way back up. I had an uncontrollable urge to rip his head clean off his shoulders. Good, Jake had left and was now replaced with a malicious wolf, and he was ready to destroy anyone and anything that got in his way. Trust me, this wolf didn't take kindly to people threatening his loved ones. We raced towards each other like the speed of light. As soon as I was in good range, I jumped onto my hind legs and flung myself at him, the force of the collision caused us both to lose our balance and roll on the floor. With lightning reflexes, we were both on four paws again. Like true predators, we circled each other, waiting for the perfect opening to attack once again. I was pumped up and ready to defend Bella's honor, when Seth's boyish voice boomed through my mind. "Will you two pack it the fuck up? Seriously? How to do you think Bella would feel if she knew you were fighting about her, huh?" I snarled at Paul and looked at him with evil in my eyes. The bastard was lucky Seth was here to save his lame ass, or he'd be non-existent. "Ah, really, Seth? They were just getting to the good part!" Quil whined, and slumped down on his stomach mumbling something inane in his mind. "No, Seth's right. I'm not going to risk my first date with Bella just because this prick thinks his opinion counts." I took several deep breaths, and gradually calmed the malicious wolf; I couldn't be an out of control killer when I was around Bells. I was determined to give her the best night of her life and he wasn't going to ruin it!. Though I was going to have the last word, I stalked towards him menacingly. "Though I can promise you this: you ever say anything even remotely disrespectful about Bella again, you evenlook at her the wrong way or make her feel awkward or uncomfortable, and I swear I will rip off your pea-sized balls and shove them so far down your throat, you'll be coughing up fur balls for the rest of your goddamned life!" I roared. I was so full of anger I needed to release it ASAP. With that, I slowly backed away from him, making sure his could see the venom in my eyes. This wolf wasn't messing around. "I gotta bounce, I have a sexy chick waiting for me." An enormous smile appeared on my face and I sped off towards home. While running, I could hear Quil, Embry and Seth cat calling. "Don't do anything we wouldn't do!" I smiled and kept running, and then I remembered Seth needed to be at our meet spot tonight; for Bella's surprise. "Yo, dude! Don't forget be at the spot pronto tonight or I'll hunt your ass down!" Seth chuckled and shot back. "I'm there, bro. I got it covered!" Bella's POV I made my way cautiously out of the haven of my room. I was a little worried about what he was going to say. I really didn't need to have the famous 'birds and the bees' speech. Firstly, Renee beat him to it about six years ago, and secondly, it was just wrong!. I made my way down the first few wooden stairs and silently cursed as they began to creak from under me. I knew I was being a complete wuss about this, but this was my dad for Christ sakes. I reached the final stair, and slowly crept into the kitchen where Charlie was sitting at the table reading the paper and drinking coffee. His eyes zoomed up and caught my rather cautious ones. He folded his paper neatly and placed it on the table and gestured for me to sit. Oh crap ,this can't be good, he's asking me to sit down. I saw his eyes shift quickly around the room, looking for a quick escape route. Oh dear God, save me now. "Erm...ok...so we... kinda need to...talk." Well yeah, I kinda guessed that. I stayed silent and nodded. "Obviously you know that you're going on a date with a very...hormonal teenage boy-" I quickly corrected him. "Man, dad. He's a man." Charlie chuckled and shook his head in disagreement. "No, Bells, he's not a man, just because he's eighteen, does not make him a man, not in my eyes anyways." I wasn't quite sure whether I should respond to that, so I stayed quiet. "Erm, anyways...as I was saying, you're going on a date with a young, one track-minded teenager, so I feel I kinda need to address it. There's ,er...things that you need to think about about...if your gonna be...physically intimate..." Ok, eww! "Ok, erm dad...this really isn't necessary...like, really," I cringed and let my face drop into my hands, while he continued to look more and more uncomfortable. "It's just as embarrassing for me as it is for you, Bells. Trust me ,I'd really rather not be having this conversation with you right now, but I don't want my daughter coming home saying she's preggers by some randy teenager." Oh dear lord! Please stop this constant word vomit!. "Ok, er...wow thanks for the vote of confidence, dad. Nice to know I'm trusted!. Look, me and Jake are going on a date. We don't plan to be going...there...yet. So you see, there's really no need for you to put us through this mental torture." "Alright, so... you guys aren't...there...yet, right? And when you do get...there, you promise me you'll take precautions-" "Whoa, dad, trust me, nothing is going on. I'm a virgin so you can chill!" Ok, I hadn't meant to just blurt that out, but seriously the man was killing me with the speech!. Charlie cringed and covered his ears. I laughed and shook my head. Wow, this was fun!. "Great, well glad we've gotten that out the way!" He got up, and washed up his coffee cup. Yeah, because now my evening was gonna be so much better!. "Me too!" I got up and quickly made my exit to my bedroom. Please, Jake, hurry up! JPOV I had been at my house for about forty-five minutes. I'd made Billy dinner. Seeing as I wasn't going to be around for most of the night, I thought it was only fair to make sure he was all set and ready to go. I'd swapped and arranged different patrol shifts with the pack; most were happy to change except Paul, but as I was the pack's beta he went along with it. I then decided to tackle the rabbit. Seeing as I was picking her up, I wanted it to be cleanish. Normally we'd just roll with whatever, but she deserved better than that. After all ,she wasn't one of the pack, she was a lady and she deserved to be treated like one for once. Luckily I hadn't showered before I took on the colossal mountain that was cleaning my car. I was going to kill Quil and Embry! The amount of shit I found lodged between the seats and in the footwells was nuts!. The rabbit was now squeaky clean and ready to go. The time was around seven-thirty. I had showered, shaved, gelled my hair, used aftershave, changed my top five times and was now happy with a plain white button down shirt and dark blue jeans. I wasn't sure how long I'd be able to wear the shirt, as being a werewolf my temperature is way hotter than your average man, but I was going to try my hardest not to strip off in front of her...unless she asked for it. I grabbed my car keys and Bella's book that I'd bought as a gift. I threw on my boots, said goodbye to Billy, then headed toward my car. I was nervous as fuck, but I couldn't let her see that. I wanted her to see the fun lovin', easy going best friend and potential boyfriend guy that I normally was. I climbed in the Rabbit, turned on the ignition, backed out of my driveway, and headed towards my date's house. Now the nerves were working overtime.
My heart leapt as his warm hand curled around mine. I felt his soft fingers tangle through and after mine, I swear it was the best damn thing I'd ever felt.The pack and their imprints sat around the fire cuddling and kissing on logs and pieces of driftwood. Jake and I sat on our driftwood, and we watched silently as Seth and Jared wrestled in the sand, trying to prove their strength to the ladies that had been invited. I felt Jake's hands snake around my waist as I sat nestled happily between his legs. I was in such a state of elation, I never wanted his hold on me to loosen up.I let my head rest against his firm shoulder, and sat there quietly watching the rest of the world go by. I wasn't sure how long I'd been in my own little world when Jacob's chin found its way onto my shoulder."You looked so peaceful, I thought you were asleep for a while there" he chuckled and pulled me a little closer."No, not asleep, it's just nice here, it's peaceful. I feel like I'm part of a family when I'm with you guys." Jacob's head shot up, and he turned my face towards him."Bella, you are part of this family. You're my best friend and you mean the..." He suddenly stopped himself; I could see the conflict in his eyes as he looked down at the sand. I couldn't help but feel a tinge of pain stab through my heart. I wanted him to say I meant the world to him. I wanted him to say he loved me."Er...I mean...it's good to have you here because you can keep me sane..." he cleared his throat and looked up towards the guys. "Those douchebags are a handful, so having you here...helps...a lot" I smiled. I could sense how much he wanted to go out there, but stayed here with me instead."Jake..." I whispered softly."Hmm?" he turned his face to me. I couldn't help but smile, he was so beautiful."Go, I can tell you're dying to show those goofs your mad fighting skills..." We both laughed. "So go, I'll be right here. I'm not going anywhere" he smiled and looked lovingly into my eyes. In that second I thought he was going to lean down and kiss me, my whole body slightly leaned in towards him as a natural reaction. His eyes gazed at my lips and his face leaned closer. I could hardly breathe, my heart was hammering away against my rib cage, I blocked everything else out except Jake. My Jake.We were less than an inch away from answering each other's prayers when Jared hollered for Jake. I smiled and blushed slightly. I was devastated I didn't get to kiss the love of my life, but I knew when it did happen, not a thing in the world would stop us.A while later, I sat with Kim, Jared's imprint and Claire, Quil's imprint, while Jake, Jared, Quil and Embry continued to quarrel about who was stronger. I smiled. Hands down, I knew Jacob was the strongest one, but watching him prove it was entertaining.I was suddenly snapped out of my Jake haze by Kim asking me a cunning question. "So Bella, you and Jacob seem to be getting on quite well..." Why did I sense a double meaning behind that?."Er...well...yeah, he's my best friend..." I wasn't really sure how to answer that statement. I wanted to say 'yeah, I'm completely and totally in love with the dude, and want to kiss him senseless every minute of every day' but I really didn't think that would have gone down too well, so I kept quiet.Kim chuckled evilly. "I bet Leah's doing her bitchy nut in."I felt my hands ball up into fists with anger. I hated that name with such a passion; she didn't deserve to be with someone as outstanding as Jacob. I knew I had hurt him countless times, but I was never downright cruel to him. We always found ways to get past our petty arguments because we meant too much to each other to let something as stupid as that get in our way.Seconds later, I heard several heavy footsteps sprinting towards us. I turned around and saw Jacob giving Kim the death glare. I knew he had heard her little gem a second ago by the look on his face. He was pissed, and getting a man who morphs into a werewolf angry was a bad move.I saw him tremble from head to toe and I immediately knew what I needed to do. He didn't scare me, but I knew he was scared of hurting me. I jumped up and took hold of his hand. As soon as our hands connected, his trembling calmed a little. He looked straight at me and gave me a heart stopping smile.I lead him towards our little piece of driftwood and sat him down. I placed my hands on his cheeks, and managed to get him to look at me."You ok, Jake?" He grasped hold of my hands and clenched his eyes shut. I knew what he was doing so I stayed quiet and let him calm himself.A few minutes later his shaking had stopped, and his eyes were back to the soft Jake eyes I loved. He took hold of my hands and pulled me into a hug."You're amazing, that's the first time I've managed to stop myself from phasing just from someone's touch" I smiled. I was happy that my touch had managed to stop his phasing."Glad I could help" I whispered softly. He smiled at my words and nuzzled his head into the crook of my neck. I may not be able to turn into a giant wolf, or have über hearing, but I could hear his deeper than normal breath as he took in the scent of my hair."Bells...I'm sorry about Kim, sometimes she doesn't know when to shut up." I pulled out of our little embrace and held his hands. I wasn't going to tell him that hearing that bitch's name had Awakened certain venomous emotions within me. No, he didn't need to hear that."It's ok, Jake, honestly. If...you like her…and she makes you happy...then...you should...ya know...be with...her." The last part of my sentence came out as a strangled whisper. It would quite literally kill me to see him with another woman, let alone Leah Fucking Clearwater.Jacob sighed and put his warm hands on either side of my face. "Don't you get it, Bells? I don't want her. She's not the one I dream of every night. She's not the one I wish I could hold in my arms every single second of the fuckin' day, and she's definitely not the one I'm head over heels in love with. There's only one woman I will ever want, and she's standing right in front of me"I smiled. He had told me he loved me before, but never like that; that was a full on get-this-through-your-fuckin-head speech.Next thing I knew his lips were softly caressing mine, but before I could even comprehend what was going on, he pulled away. I was a little confused, and if I'm honest, a little pissed! I had wanted a kiss from him for so long, and when he does kiss me, I get a quick peck? What The Fuck!.He must of seen the look of sheer confusion and longing in my eyes and facial expression because he smiled and kissed my forehead. He grasped hold of my hand and gave it a little tug suggesting he wanted to go somewhere a little more private."Take a walk with me?" I rolled my eyes, as if I'd say no to that! He chuckled and pulled me into him. We walked with our arms linked together. This was nice, being here with him. I felt so at ease. Our time together isn't forced or filled up with awkward silences. We were free, free to be who we wanted. Granted, Jacob had a certain limit to that freedom because he morphed into a giant dog, but right here and right now I'd never felt so...liberated. I felt invincible. I felt like I was made from titanium.A few moments later, we came to the gorgeous rock pool that had a stunning view of the ocean. I loved the water. I'm not sure why. Maybe it's the fact Jacob had saved me from drowning a while ago, or the fact that we often took long walks along the shore just to watch the waves dance rapidly together.Either way, I loved it.I felt his hands grasp onto my waist and lift me a little. He set me down on the rock, and motioned for me to move along with his hands. I followed his command and scooted along, allowing room for him to sit.He sat next to me, bringing his legs up to his chest as he folded his arms nicely around them. We both sat there looking out at the phenomenal scene before us. Watching the water crash together was amazing, and unlike anything I'd ever seen in my life.Seconds later he reached back into his jean pockets and pulled out the little fabric bag. Jake sat there playing with it for a moment, then finally turned and looked me."Bells...I've wanted to give you this...for a while now." He took a deep breath and continued on. "Every time I've planned on giving this to you, something has been in the way or interrupted us, so I kinda figured there would never be a 'right' time. I just need to get my act together and do it." He smiled, and stared intensely at the little bag. I was a little curious, what was in that bag to make him so nervous?"I've kept this in my nightstand for a while. I'm surprised it hasn't disintegrated!" he laughed hoarsely and turned towards me. Jake gently took hold of my hand and placed the bag in my palm. Whatever was in that bag was light as a feather, I could barely feel anything."Open it and I'll explain the meaning," he smiled and winked at me. I shyly smiled and began untying the black ribbons keeping it secure and safe. Once the bag was open, I tipped the bag upside down and a gorgeous, braided Quileute bracelet fell into my palm.It was absolutely beautiful, and quite literally took my breath away. Jacob was a very talented guy who knew how to work with his hands. The things he could make were mind blowing. I would watch in amazement as he crafted one of his wooden sculptures. He would take so much pride in getting every little detail right, so in the end he would have made one hell of a masterpiece."Jake...it's...beautiful," I gushed. I was stunned; I didn't know what to say. I'd never been given anything before, so this was amazing. I didn't know what to say next, so I was kinda hoping Jacob would put me out of my misery. As luck would have it, seconds later he began explaining."That bracelet is my promise to you that, no matter what happens, no matter where we are, what we do, I will love you forever. I can't describe the feelings I have for you, Bells. I just know they are stronger than love; it's like I can't breathe when you're not around. You're constantly in my thoughts. Seeing you each day is like a blind man who sees the sun for the first time. You're like a breath of fresh air in a smoky room, you make me think clearly. You give me the strength to get up each day and fight." He took the handmade jewelry from my palm and began tying it around my wrist. I silently moaned as his delicate fingertips brushed my sensitive skin. His touch drove me wild, yet his intentions were perfectly innocent."You're probably wondering what all these colors mean, right? I know how curious you get, Miss Swan" He winked at me, and softly rubbed little circles on my wrist.I smiled and nodded whilst putting a stray piece of hair behind my ear."Ok, I'll tell you. But first you have to promise not to interrupt and let me get this out" He looked and me and waited for my promise. I took hold of his hand and joined our fingers together."Cross my heart" I gave him a cheeky grin, and he chuckled with amusement."Ok this one..." he pointed to the light red strip. "This means passion and love. This Pink one symbolizes friendship" He looked up at me as if to make sure I were following, cheeky shit."This dark red strip means longing and courage, the yellow one means freshness, intellect and the sun" I loved how the yellow one meant the sun. After all, Jacob was my sun, and he warmed up every inch of my world."Lastly, the main one holding them all together, the color white stands for purity, innocence, perfection and...virginity" He finished his speech. Our eyes met at the word 'virginity' and I felt like that single word had awoken something inside me, something I didn't know existed. In that moment I knew-I think I always had known but that just confirmed it- I wanted Jacob Black to be the one I gave myself too. I wanted him to have every part of me.