Title: Stay In My Memory

Summary: Oneshot ficlet. Gibbs has left for Mexico, and now Jenny's all alone. Post Hiatus II. Based on the song "Stay In My Memory" by Bim.

Disclaimer: I don't own NCIS or "Stay In My Memory" by Bim.

A/N: "Stay In My Memory" is one of the most beautiful songs in the world.

This is in Jenny's POV.

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You left for Mexico. Good – good. Maybe I can have a fresh start now.

No more Jethro. No more painful goodbyes. You're gone for good, now.

Stay that way.

But…

I understand why you left…

Damn. I wish you hadn't.

We'd been getting so close. We'd been regaining what we'd had in Paris, in Russia, in Italy.

Maybe your time away from me will make you rethink all that.

I don't want another fresh start, another life without you. I want a life with you.

I lie to myself all the time. I try to make myself believe that I'd been better off without you ten years ago, that I'm better off without you now.

I know I'm not. I know I need you. I know I'm stronger with you here, by my side.

It seems like our life together could be a dream, it was so long ago. You and I, traipsing about Europe, happy together… seems like a part of someone else's life, or some fantasy of mine. Not like it really happened.

You take up most of my thoughts. If only you could see me now, hunched over files, working like some sort of demon to get you out of my head. I miss you so much I can barely concentrate.

I didn't want to rekindle our relationship. I'd started believing myself, that I was fine without you. And then there you were in MTAC, looking exactly the same as you always had. I hated myself right then and there, because the first thing I thought was how good you looked.

Every time I messed up, you always had my back. Even when you were harsh, I knew you had a reason for being so, and I thanked you for it.

If we'd stayed together, we could have had the stars. We were perfect. You were perfect.

You're gone, now. I don't know if you'll ever come back, but I hope you do.

You're the one person I could never forget.

So stay in my memory

You can hide out there

Don't take all my thoughts today

So I can start to begin again…

-Fin-