Like A Force of Nature

AU/AH - Liz has snapped. She thinks Jason is dead and she will do whatever it takes to find the killer and get revenge. What will her search find? Will it bring her happiness, death, or something else?

A/N This is a darker Liz. She's feisty and on a mission and also very vulnerable and broken. I'll be having some flashbacks so you can see how their relationship was in the past. Additional questions you might have that I can answer: Jason's past is pretty on point to the show. He was with Keisha, Carly, and Robin. And the accident happened. Liz is a nurse. Please review and let me know what you think.

Chapter 1 - Determined

Elizabeth groaned as the sunlight hit her eyes. Two days had gone by since Jason's memorial. She didn't think she could possibly have any tears left. She felt old and her body ached; not to mention that she felt completely numb.

FLASHBACK

"I love you Mrs. Morgan." Jason said as he kissed his way down Elizabeth's neck.

She gasped as his wet kisses finally reached her nipple. She was still reeling from their lovemaking the previous night. They had done it on every surface of the villa. Her body started to burn with desire again. She was an addict and Jason's mouth and cock were her fixes.

"Jaaason." She cooed as he entered her to the hilt.

END FLASHBACK

She buried her face into one of his shirts. It still smelled like him. She wanted to bottle it up so she could keep it forever not able to accept that he was gone and this was all she had left.

FLASHBACK – Honeymoon

Elizabeth laughed as Jason ran down the beach ahead of her. She saw him turn and head towards the villa and that is when she heard popping noises and his body hit the ground. Her screams were drowned out by the crashing waves as Johnny's hands pulled her backwards and he ran with her. She fought him with everything she had. She couldn't understand why he was running in the opposite direction. Jason needed her.

Johnny shoved her behind a huge rock and he covered her with his body.

It got really quiet. Johnny looked down at her. She was in shock and not moving. Her eyes were glazed. But then suddenly, it was like someone had shocked her with paddles and she started to fight him. He didn't want to hurt her but she was doing everything she could to get away from him. Recoiling when she kneed him in the groin, he watched her jump up and run. Ignoring the pain, he got up and chased her down. When they got to the villa, Max was there with Milo. There was no body, just blood everywhere.

"Where is he?"

"They took him."

Elizabeth fell to the ground wailing as Johnny pulled her into him and then carried her to the car. They needed to get her out of there.

END FLASHBACK

Someone was knocking on the door but Elizabeth didn't care. She didn't want to see anyone. A few minutes later, the door to the bedroom pushed open. It was Emily.

"I brought you some food."

"I'm not hungry."

Emily wiped away a tear. "You have to keep up your strength."

"For what? He's gone." She said matter of fact.

Emily stared at her for a minute before answering. "So, you're just going to kill yourself by not eating so you can join him?"

Liz rolled her eyes and turned over. She thought she had it all; a man who loved her, a future. But now, she felt like she had nothing. Her heart ached for Jason who had been her rock after the rape. He was her friend, lover, and husband. He fought for them to be together when she'd back away. His love for her had scared her. It was everything that she had always dreamed of but thought that she couldn't have. Ironically, she was never scared of his profession. He taught her to shoot and she became really good at it. Guns were by no means her thing. But, she did what she had to do to survive in his world. He taught her how to sense danger and protect herself. It was important to him that she felt like she could. There were no illusions between them. He killed people for a living and she helped save them. And in this crazy world where nothing had made sense in her life, he was the one sane thing; an enforcer with a heart of gold. He was her light in the darkness.

"Fine, don't eat it. Go ahead and kill yourself so that I can lose another person I love." Emily said slamming the door behind her.

Elizabeth sat up and rolled her eyes. Emily was always so dramatic. She stood up and took a bite of the sandwich and threw the rest on the plate and then turned the shower on. Quickly shedding her clothes, she stepped inside. And as the water trickled down her skin, she put her hands against the wall and vividly remembered the last time that Jason had fucked her in the shower. The man was crazy good in bed, in the shower, pounding her on a pool table. He made her come alive and now she had no one. And she truly believed that no man could quench her desire like he could. After the rape, she never thought that she'd enjoy sex, but he taught her how to feel again and not be ashamed to feel passion. She came alive under him, above him. He watched her become the empowered woman she was and supported her the entire way.

She took a few more bites of the sandwich, and then slicked her hair back into a bun and threw on some lipstick. She put on a black dress and some black heels. Grabbing her gun, she put it in her handbag and threw open the door.

Emily gasped as she saw her walking down the stairs. "Where are you going?" She asked.

"Out."

Elizabeth was on a mission.

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Liz threw open Sonny's office door. She didn't even bother knocking.

"Elizabeth?" He said looking up.

Johnny stood up and nodded at her before walking out of the room. He had worked exclusively for Jason but Sonny had wanted to know what he wanted to do now when Elizabeth had interrupted.

Sonny watched her curiously. She sat down in the chair and crossed her legs but didn't remove her sunglasses. Even in the midst of all her grief, she was gorgeous. "How….how can I help you?" He asked.

"I want them dead." She said evenly.

Sonny frowned. "What do you mean?"

"Whoever sent that video of his dead body, I want you to find them, torture them, and then fucking kill them. Is that clear enough for you?" She said angrily.

About a week after she had returned to the states from Italy, a dvd showed up at the penthouse. There were pictures of Jason's mutilated body. Elizabeth had to be sedated and she didn't speak to anyone for a week afterward.

Sonny was stunned. He had never heard Elizabeth talk that way. "Elizabeth, I'm already handling that."

"Like you handle everything…." She muttered so low that Sonny couldn't hear her. The truth was that Jason had made Corinthos/Morgan what it was today. He handled all the dirty work and made the rational decisions while Sonny paraded around town with a new woman on his arm every week and acted like Jason was his bitch. She had always hated their dynamic. But, it was Jason's choice and she had never said anything to him. "Look, it has been a month since he was taken. What exactly have you done? Did you even figure out who did it?"

Sonny's jaw clenched. "I'm not going to discuss the details with you, it's not safe."

Elizabeth stood up and slammed her hand onto his desk. "I am not some weak, pathetic woman Sonny. Jason was my husband and I need to know who did this and I need them to pay." She barked.

Sonny would never admit it aloud, but her demeanor was scaring him a little. It was like she somehow was embodying Jason and it was freaking him out. "Elizabeth…."

"You know what? The hell with this, I will find them myself." She said walking to the door and flinging it open.

The guards in the outer room all avoided eye contact except for Johnny.

"Come with me." She demanded as she walked by him.

Sonny nodded from within the office and Johnny followed her back to the car.

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"What's going on?" He asked curiously as he slid next to her.

"You are going to help me find out who killed my husband and then you're going to help me kill them."

Her voice was devoid of emotion and Johnny was kind of shocked.

"Are you in or are you out Johnny because if you're going to be a wus like Sonny, I want to know now." She said loudly as Francis smirked in the driver's seat. He had always been proud of Elizabeth. He was there when Jason had found her in the park and it bonded all three of them forever.

FLASHBACK – 4 years prior – Liz is 19, Jason is 26

"Oh my God." Francis said spotting Elizabeth crawling out of the bushes.

Jason slowly approached her and then realized who it was. "Elizabeth?"

He had recognized her as one of Emily's friends.

"Got to go home." She kept mumbling as she got to her feet.

Jason took off his coat as he tried to keep calm. Francis searched the park to see if he could locate the perpetrator.

"Elizabeth. I'll take you."

She stared at him for a moment as if she was trying to focus but couldn't. "Jason?"

"That's right. It's Jason. Will you let me take you home?"

She nodded yes. Looking down, she started to panic. "Oh my God, Gram's bracelet is gone."

"I'll have Francis look for it okay?"

Francis had come back and heard him. "I'll try to find it right now." He said moving back behind the trees.

Jason slowly put the coat around Elizabeth's shoulders. Her eyes filled with tears.

"Elizabeth, let me take you to the hospital."

She started to whimper. "Everyone will know."

"This isn't your fault. But, you need help. You could be bleeding."

"Don't leave me." She said desperately.

"I…I won't ever leave you." He said softly; wishing that he could make this all go away.

Elizabeth broke down and Jason caught her as she fell to the ground. She sobbed for a minute and then she got eerily quiet and her eyes were glassy. She just stared up at him like he wasn't there; like she was in her own private hell as she tightly clutched his shirt. Picking her up, he yelled for Francis and they got into the SUV and he drove them to the hospital as quickly as he could.

FLASHBACK END