The seemingly never ending darkness beneath the surface continues to frighten me. Frantically, I struggle to examine this asylum, but I can't seem to move. The only things keeping me company temporary bubbles, disappearing in an instant. Isn't that what happened to me? I disappeared in an instant, didn't I? It's almost surreal. I am able to calmly infer that my fate is uncertain. I'm unsure how long I've been here, but I believe that I've always had a savior come to my aid. This does not seem to be the case now.
Simply being away from my friends for too long is something I can't bear. I rely on them too much, and yet I'm still in a sticky situation. I try to yell and scream, "please, help me!" but I find myself voiceless. Expectedly, I have no energy to perform any action but breathing. I'm all alone; my body may be still but my heart continues to beat.
Thump, thump.
The soothing waves gently brush up against my skin. I hear nothing else. Not even the most curious fish would discover me, helplessly laying here paralyzed.
I...just want to go home.
At irregular intervals, I dream about being on the surface, cheerfully living besides Hikari, Chisaki, Tsumugu, Kaname... everyone. Other times, I find myself in the position I am now, except in the illusion, I am peering down at myself, or my sleeping duplicate. Beside the clone is a sea slug; its belly is never crimson red. I wish to tell it my feelings, but just as I am now, I cannot. My imprisoned mouth is binded tighter. If I desired to sound a lullaby for improved dreams that I inevitably fall far every time, I would always
fail.
Is the Sea God keeping me subdued?
Mm... I see why this happened. I suppose I deserved to come crashing down deep into the icy cold ocean, abandoned unintentionally. Or maybe...intentionally. I did offer myself as a sacrifice to set Akari free. Yet, I feel foolish. I would never even dream of Akari being taken as an offering, especially when she has a loving husband and Miuna to look after. I yearn for everyone to live the peaceful, pleasant lives they earned.
Still, it hurts. The silence and loneliness is a bit much.
I hope Hikari waved that flag high and proudly. It would at least reassure me not to give up on my end.
...Or maybe my fate is already set in stone.