Hai,

I got a lot of reviews on not putting a trigger warning in my summerary and writers note. I'm sorry, I didn't know this.

Trigger warning: This might be disturbing or distressing to some people.

This is only one shot so I won't continue with this.

But I just had this feeling that I needed to write this..

So here we go.

"Rick,

It's been 2 weeks now, since you've gone away. I still miss you every single day and I don't know how to live without you. I don't know if I'll ever know how to do this.

I just wanted to say that you've been a wonderful husband to me and that I'm so glad I met you. I still think about the first time I let eyes on you. You were such an ass back then. But we evolved so much, both of us. Your optimism always kept me going and I don't know how I'm ever going to be happy without you. I'll never love a man more then I loved you. I don't think it's even possible for me to ever love another man. I always thought that lightning didn't strike twice, but apparently it does. You were the one that saved me from drowning in my mother's murder, the one that gave me closure. How can I find closure now you're the one that's taken away from me? Please Rick, please come back to me. I need you so much. I can't live without you, just please let me hold you one last time.

My mother once told me that life doesn't deliver anything we can't handle. But I can't handle this, I just can't. You were the love of my life, my hero and my savour. How can I live further without you? I need to be with you. Babe, I'm sorry. I know you never wanted this to happen. You've always wanted to best for me. But I can't do what you're asking me to do, I can't move on. I'm so sorry.

I'll see you soon, very soon.

Yours forever and always,

Kate."

Kate took her gun and held it against her head, tears streaming down her face. She clenched her necklace with her mother's ring and her engagement ring in her hand. She looked at the picture of her and Rick that was taken not even 2 months ago. They looked so happy. But she was going back to him, out of this world and into his arms again. As she whispered "I'm so sorry." one last time, she pulled the trigger of her gun, firing a bullet into her brain. This immediately drained all the life out of her. She had killed herself with her own service weapon; the gun that had saved her so many times eventually became her death. But she would be with Rick now; she would be able to hold him. And all the pain would be gone.

So, I'm sorry if I made you cry or anything. It's okay to hate me now. I did actually cry while writing this one shot.

But I'd love some reviews though, and I can handle a little critisism.

I'm currently also writing a real fanfic that I will post in a while.

Thanks for reading!

~WritingCastle