"Nepeta, I told you to stay hidden." Equius' now white dead eyes were now excreting dark blue tears that matched his blood. "you could have lived if you had just listened." the catlike troll didn't make eye contact with her Moirail, she looked angry with him, how couldn't he understand why she had disobeyed him?
"I wasn't about to go down without a fight!" she clenched her tiny fists around her claws. "He killed you, and what kind of Meowrail would I have been if I didn't try to avenge you?" Nepeta tried to meet Equius' gaze but he was the one looking away now. The Blueblood had wiped his tears by now. "Why dont you understand?!"
"That is enough, I would just like to be alone right now." the male troll turned to navigate back to his hive only to find this dream bubble was not his memory, he had no idea where he was. Nepeta grabbed his wrist softly.
"Purrlease don't go..." the male hesitated as he saw the blue gloved hand on his wrist. He didnt want to but he didnt want his Moirail to doubt his STRONGNESS even if at this time his tears were justified.
"Please Nepeta I must, I do not wish to be seen in this state." he turned his wrist only slightly, easily able to break free from his oliveblood Moirail. Without warning he ran off in a direction that looked like it could take him home. The female troll stood and watched him abscond and waited till he was out of sight before she fell to her knees.
"You can be so stupid sometimes." the green tears streaked her cheeks and she wiped them on her coat before they dripped off her chin. She wept in her spot for a while until she had no more tears to cry. The catlike troll pulled herself to her feet and slowly made her way back to her cave where she encountered her dead lusus' ghost. Nepeta smiled weakly at her napping lusus who was curled in his usual spot in her cave, a fire was roaring in the fireplace she had built. "Hey Pounce, I knew we would see each other again." she petted the giant cat creature's head and he opened his eyes ever so slightly, yawned, and went back to his nap.
Though Nepeta was dead and ghosts needed no sleep she felt like a nap with her custodian was just what she needed to feel better. The grey skinned girl curled up next to Pounce De Leon and dozed off. A few hours passed as she snoozed and she stretched when she felt like it had been a nice nap. Nepeta padded on all fours to the fire and got warm before thinking about Equius and how he had been acting.
Nepeta knew Equius was only looking out for her when he told her to stay hidden. Though she would have still been alive if she had listened, life without her Moirail would have been no life she wanted to live. She rose to her feet again, she wanted to go find Equius and tell him she was sorry for getting mad at him.
The Cat Girl made sure to bring some straws in case Equius was having trouble with glasses again. Nepeta headed to his hive and knocked, there was no answer. She tried the knob and it was locked, now her patience was being tried. Equius had no reason to lock his doors, anyone who entered his hive would be sorry they did! He was one of the STRONGest trolls she knew. She knocked on the door as loud as she could.
"Equius! Hello? Its Nepeta, purrlease let me in!" her knuckles began to bruise after she had knocked many times, the green blood pooling at the joints. She was frustrated, why wouldnt he come to the door? She kicked it with her blue paw shoe. "Equius please... do you wanna build a robot? Come on out just let me in..."
"Please Nepeta, not now..." she heard his deep voice from behind the door, had he been there the whole time? The tears were coming again and she couldn't stop them.
"WHY?!" she kicked the door again. "Is your Highblood pride more important to you than our Moirailigence?! Just because I don't listen all the time dosn't mean you should be mad at me! You aren't my lusus!" she knew the hurt was showing in her voice. "stop being stupid and talk to me!" her clenched fists were shaking, there was no more response from behind the door. It was getting gold out and Nepeta's jacket was not nearly warm enough, she would have to leave if she was going to be able to get back before catching a cold. "fine, i'm going... you know where to find me if you change your mind."
She sniffled and headed back home. Once she got into the woods she sprinted home and curled up under a pile of furs from the kills she'd made in her life. She cried a little until she fell asleep again.