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"When things explode" - Unkle
Note : This fic starts at the end of the 13x23 , I focus on Neela. I hope that you 'd like and that there is not too much mistakes, English isn't my language. Normally, it's a one shot . But I'll maybe continue if you like it and if I find a betareader.
Neela's POV
Your skull froze little lives
In shadows where you hide
A life that was designed
You've been cheated oh so blind
Sitting in the cab, I feel awful and confused, I was trying my best to not to fall into tears. So much had happened this year... Too things. I couldn't stay calm anymore . I couldn't cope with it in silence. I was tired and angry, so angry against me, against Michael, against everything.
You laid it on the line
These twisted words of time
And how your spirit shines
I wish that you were mine
I can't believe that Ray ... he... I felt his pain when he looked at me while I was in the corridor. It was hard not to cry when I saw that he lost his legs, but I wanted to be strong for him, I wanted to help him, to be here for him. But he didn't believe me, saying I gave him hope many times, and in the end he was always disappointed. I didn't want to hurt him. I'm thinking again and again at what Katey said, that I'm responsible, I did this to him, I destroyed his life.
Yeah lately I know that I've been crawling
I know that I've been falling
Into your dream
I was lost in my thoughts when the taxi driver told me that he forgot about the rally and we'll have to wait a bit because of the traffic. This made me think at Michael.Why did he left me ? Why did he return to Irak ? This war stole my stable life, Michael's life was sacrified for nothing. This war isn't worth it. So I practically jump from the cab and join the crowd I wanted to see it,be with people who maybe would understand me. There were so many people, some of them were screaming , but I managed to listen to the woman in front of us. Someone called my name , I turned and saw Tony, I smiled at him and thought : what was he doing here ?
Imagine no more tears
Dissolving all your fears
With tooth and claw we fight
Into this endless night
Suddenly, I heard an explosion followed by screams . The crowd was panic striken , people were running, trying to escape. I finally fell and couldn't get up. Then, I felt myself being trampled by the people above me. I covered my face with my hands, trying to protect myself. It hurts, there's noise around me. People's cries and shouts, and suddenly nothing . It was too hard, too painful, I close my eyes...
Yeah lately I know that I've been crawling
I know that I've been falling
Into your dream
The crowd dissipates , Tony could finally approach Neela, he was running.
"Mayday!Mayday!Wake up ! "
But she didn't answer. He tried to take her pulse, tears were falling from his face. Waiting for the ambulance, he fondled her hair begging " Don't leave me!"
I saw my tears in your eyes
You saw your fears in mine
We watched it burn together
Watched it burn together
"What do we have ? " asked Pratt when the ambulance doors open
" Jane Doe. Crushed by the crowd at the peace rally "
" That's Neela" Tony yelled
Burn yeah, burn watched it burn burn yeah burn
Watched it burn, burn watched it burn
Watched it burn, burn watched it burn