As i stood at the end of the dock my eyes wandered to the departing boat. The waves rippled as they smashed against the wooden dock. I held on tight to all I had left of him. His beautiful blue eyes, brown wavy hair, and his perfectly parted lips. The make-up running down my face stung my eyes and I didn't intend to wipe it away. One last time I thought just one last time. The dock groaned under my weighted body just standing there. He was gone. My soul was gone. The rope that held the boat to the dock was still wet from the salty cold water. I could feel the cold Kansas air now but I didn't flinch. The salty air stung my nose as I breathed a sigh of sadness. The starry blue sky was just a starry blue sky tonight because he and I were not written in them. My eyes swelled as I tried to think straight again. It was harder and harder to breath every minute he was gone. I would have died for him. He wasn't my first love but this time I knew he was write for me. My tear stricken face was a sign of lost love so I won't wipe it away. Each tear was a sad sad memory. Each tear is another scar. I don't know why he did it but I knew that I wasn't crazy thinking that we had something. I am now and forever will be blinded by pain.
Chapter 2
I drove to the new haven bridge still not thinking rationally. I don't know why I did it but I knew that the pain was too much. I grabbed a knife from the glove compartment and slashed thick lines down my arm. The dark red blood oozed out of the deep wounds covering my shirt and pants and turning them red. I got out of the car and stared at the salty blue water below me. Before I could even think about what I was doing I got out of the car and stood on the edge of the wooden boards that keeps me on the bridge. Before I new it I was falling and falling. The only thing I could remember was pain nothing but pain. I couldn't figure out if I was dead or alive but I new I was on conscious and that my lungs were about to burst but I couldn't move. I couldn't push my self up to the surface of the water. I was paralyzed. Forever.