Title:
Pain
Name:
Joy
Email: SleepingBeauty2@ziplip.com
Rating: PG-13
Pain, Hate, Loathing,
Sorrow, Aching…. Why? It hurts. I hurt. I sat in Logan's shower rocking back
and forth crying… I will never feel clean… The blood in my mouth then…ten years
and I can still taste it.
Logan is watching me… He knows
somehow… There is confusion in his eyes. He thinks he doesn't know me
anymore…maybe he's wondering if he ever really knew me. I understand that… You
just found out the only woman you've let near your heart in a long while just
killed her brother and has the capacity to kill savagely…might put a damper on
your comprehension of that individual.
I want him to hold me and tell me
it's gonna be OK, but I can't. If he were to touch me, I would feel like he was
being tainted by me. I so need to feel human right now… I'm tired of the pain
in my chest… Crying didn't get rid of it…
I'll go back to the priest tomorrow…
Maybe I'll give the confession thing a sought… God can forgive all things,
right? I just need to understand better…
I've heard words but I don't know
what they mean:
Bless
me Father for I have sinned…
Hail
Mary, full of grace…
The
bread of heaven…the blood of Christ…
In
the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost…Amen.
Whoever's in charge, show me the
way…
Pain
By: Joy1