AN: Hey Everybody. So this will only be about 3-4 chapters. This is my first FanFiction that I am posting ever! I hope you like it. I have another FanFiction that will be a lot longer than this but I just want to see if everyone likes my writing. Please Review/Follow/Favorite!
Disclaimer: I do not own Divergent. :)
The Fight
I am sitting in the Canteen with my best friend Christina going over the note that my boyfriend left with me this morning.
Tris –
I will be home later. Please wear something beautiful tonight as I am treating you to an amazing Italian Dinner tonight in the Pit. I will be changing in my office and will meet you outside of the restaurant at 7pm. I have a surprise for you.
Its something we have both been waiting for, for a while.
Love – Eric
Christina puts the letter on the table and grabs her coffee. "Do you think he is going to propose tonight?" She said with a smile.
"I don't know. I mean it does sound like he is going to do something, but I learned not to get my hopes up with Eric." I sigh
"I don't know…. I think he has realized that 6 years is a long enough time to ask for your hand in marriage." She has wide smile. "Besides you are the only couple without kids and not married, I mean hell Uriah has 2 kids already."
I grab my coffee and stand up. Christina and I are both nurses for the dauntless compound. We get a small 15 minute break every once in a while and we always try to go and get coffee together during that time.
"I know and I would love to get married it's just now I am getting nervous for dinner tonight." I sigh walking back in the hospital wing.
Before Christina heads off in the different direction she grabs a hold of my forearm. "Tris, I really do believe he is planning something special. I mean you both have this weekend off and its time that he does it." I smile at her. "Come to my apartment after our shift and I will doll you up and let you borrow a dress."
My shift for the rest of the day isn't too bad. I had to deal with a couple of new members who are still learning our lifestyle by putting an arm in a brace and a couple of stitches in a boy's head.
I leave the hospital wing and start heading for the apartment sector. Christina and Will have been married for 5 years now and have a 3 year old daughter, Harper. My god daughter. Light brown skin, big green eyes and is the spitting image of Will. I would love to have children one day.
That is mine and Eric's biggest issue. He has a tough life in Erudite. He doesn't want to get married and nor does he want children. He always tells me to be happy with what I have and not to push him on these issues. This is why this letter has me puzzled. Did he change his mind? Does he want to marry me? I became a member 8 years ago. Eric and I have been dating for 6 years and living together for 4. We started dating after a raid on Factionless sent him to the hospital with a concussion and 4 broken ribs. All of our friends have started lives. Chris and Will with Harper. Uriah and Marlene married for 2 years and with 2 kids, Quinn and Zoey. Zeke and Shauna married for 7 years. The same raid on Factionless that landed Eric with myself, left Shauna paralyzed. After years of trying Shauna is now pregnant with their first child. A boy, due in 2 months. Four and Lynn, married 1 year, no children. Trust me it was a shock for us all when they started dating 2 years ago but Lynn and Four fell in love after playing wing "men" for each other for so long.
I almost pass Christina and Wills place because I am thinking too much. I knock on the door and I hear the cutest little voice.
"What's the password?" Harper whispers through the crack in the door.
"Chocolate Cake" I whisper back.
The door flies open "AUNTIE TRIS!" Harper lounges herself on my legs.
"Come on Harper, let her walk through the door before you attack her." Will comes up behind her and picks her up.
"I just saw you last night for dinner silly girl." I say tickling her in Will's arms while she squirms.
"I know." She says laughing. "But I missed you!"
She melts my heart. Will tells me that Christina is waiting for me in their bedroom. I kiss Harper on her cheek and walk back there.
"Sorry about Harper. Man, I thought the terrible 2s were bad just wait until you have children and they hit the terrorists 3s" Christina exclaims as she is pulling a dress out of her closet.
I give her a small smile. "She's fine. I adore her."
Christina gives me a small side hug and sits me in the bed. After an hour and a half my long blonde hair is now in a fish tail braid down my back. I have a smokey eye make up look going on and I am wearing a knee length black dress that swoops my neckline and has quarter length lace sleeves. I am impressed that I look this good.
Christina looks me over one last time and pushes me out of the door. Will tells me that I look beautiful and Harper gives my legs a hug and Christina is now pushing me out her front door.
"I want all the details later. Good Luck!" She kisses my cheek and I start walking.
I get down to the pit and see Eric standing outside the restaurant he is gorgeous with tight black dress pants and a midnight blue button down and a black skinny tie, with a red single rose in his hand. He spots me walking towards him and his smile grows.
"You are stunning love." He bends down and kisses my cheek.
He grabs my hand and tells the hostess that we have reservations. The hostess sends us to a corner booth with 2 menus. When our waiter comes around Eric orders a bottle of champagne, and 2 of the chefs specials which happens to be my favorite, Chicken Marsala.
After we get our wine he starts asking about my day. I tell him about the stupid new members I saw and how I helped an older couple. When our food came we just ate. Said a couple of words here and there but nothing intense. As our waiter came over to collect our plates we decided to share a brownie sundae. The waiter returns with our dessert and I burst.
"So I can't wait!" I exclaim. "What's the surprise?!"
Eric looks at me and smiles. He puts down is spoon and wipes his face.
"Tris, I did it!" He looks so happy.
"I'm sorry, you did what?" I ask confused.
"I made Head Leader!" now he is giddy. "You know 2 years ago I started working directly under Max so when he decided to retire I would be his first choice. Well they told me yesterday, they are impressed with all work regarding the war and how I handle issues in Dauntless. They are going to announce it Monday to the whole faction. I did it! I mean we did it!" He has the biggest on his face.
I must look confused. I put my spoon down and out a small smile on my face. "Congratulations Eric. I am really proud of you."
He is looking at me like I have 3 heads. Apparently this was not the reaction he was hoping for. Just then, it was like the light bulb clicked in his head and he got upset.
"You thought I was going to propose didn't you?" he asked me.
I gave him a small smile. "I'm sorry I am ruining your announcement. I just thought…" I can't finish what I am thinking. Why can't I just say I thought you may have changed your mind. I look at him with sad eyes. He looks angry.
"This is a discussion for home. Let's go up front and pay the bill." Eric says, he helps me out of the booth and turns around and starts walking to the front.
I wait outside of the restaurant for him, when I see him he walks ahead of me. I walk behind him with my head bowed willing myself not to cry yet. Just telling myself to wait until we get home. We head up to the leader's quarters. As I am waiting for him to punch in our passcode I look down the hall at Max's place. He holds the door open for me. When I get inside I walk directly to the dining room table and place my purse on it and undo my heel straps. Eric walks directly to the fridge grabs his 6 pack of beer and heads to the living room and turns on the TV. He is watching an old war film from the 21st century.
"Eric we need to talk." I say.
"What about? How I am the worst boyfriend because I won't marry you or how I am the worst man because I won't make you a mom." Eric snorts guzzling his beer.
"Where did you hear those things?" I ask sitting on the coffee table in front of him so he has to look at me.
"I am not dumb Tris. I know what you're thinking when you holding Harper, Quinn or Zoey. I also have ears I know what people say about me." His eyes look mean.
"Well I don't know what to tell you Eric. We have been together 6 years. I am extremely proud of you and how far you have come and you are going to be a great leader, but I want a family Eric. I want children, I want your last name to be mine, I just ….." say it Tris, say it. "I just thought you changed your mind is all." I say with tears now running down my cheeks.
"You know about my life in Erudite Tris!" He screams. "You know my mom and dad didn't give 2 shits about me or each other, we're happy why change that!"
"You are not going to be like your parents. We are not going to be like your parents! WE love each other. WE can be a family!" The tears will not stop.
"I'm not changing my mind Tris so you can just get used to that." He tells me popping open another beer.
"OR" … I sigh "I give you an ultimatum. You can either marry me, have a baby with me or we are done." I say a little more defiant wiping the tears away.
"You are making me choose?" Eric questions me. I don't think he believes me.
"Yes. It's not fair that I have to give up my dream while you can live out yours. Max has a family and is still a great leader, we have been together for 6 years and never once did you not make me feel loved. We are already better than your parents. I want a family. If I can only have 1 thing to make you agree I will live with that but I am not going to sacrifice both." I wring my hands together. He is looking at me. Those mean eyes looking at me, looking at his hands, looking back at me. He looks like he is going to cry.
"No." Eric says.
My heart stops. "No? What do you mean No?" I am nervous about his answer.
He is staring to cry just a little. Just a single tear out of his left eye. "I can't Tris. I can't be the man you want. You deserve a family and I can't and I am sorry but I won't give that to you." He is looking down at his hands.
My heart hurts. I can't believe he just did that. I didn't think that he would choose that. I thought he would change for me. I pictured growing old with this man. And he didn't choose me. Now I am mad.
"You aren't choosing me? You are not willing to give up a little bit of yourself to stay with me?! Fuck Eric! All I fucking asked for was for your last name!" I stand up screaming at him. He still hasn't looked up. "You don't do this to someone you love or were you just playing with my emotions. Just keeping me around because I was convenient and not because you love me!"
Now he looks up. Now he looks hurt, no mad, no hurt. Yeah it's hurt.
"I am sorry. I don't know what to say to you that won't make you hate me. But I am going to say what I feel." He takes a deep breath. "I do love you. You are or were my first love I don't know. Before you it was just hookups and now I am a love sick puppy who loves waking up to you every morning, loves to cuddle at night and loves you but I can't give you what you want and the kills me." I'm staring at him. He's crying. "I worked too hard for so long to be where I am today. And his is very, very selfish of me but I am not willing to give it up."
He takes a deep breath and looks at me in the eyes again. I can feel the tears threatening to leave my eyes but refuse. I do not want him looking at me like a sad little girl. If he is choosing his career over me and a possible family than I do not want nothing to do with him.
I suck up my pride. "I can't believe you. Now that I know that you are exactly like your parents…" low blow but I don't care I see him flinch. "Career over important people, I am happy you decided not to marry me. I will be staying in the guest bedroom until Monday. Monday I will go to the administration office and get a new apartment. I will start packing." I grab the last 4 beers from him and go into our bedroom. I lean up against the door trying not to cry. I hear him grunt and I hear the front door slam. So this is what heart break feels like.
AN: I promise I will just not leave it off like this. I love ERIS.