Disclaimer : I do not own Inuyasha, tho. I would kill to have only 10% of the show. Sadly I don't. But, I hear there is suppose to be new episodes and a fifth movie in March, 2009 ! Let's hope !

Author's Notes : This is my first story on FanFiction, but it certainly won't be my last. I will have more stories then anyone of this site by the time I am actually a published author, in the near future. This story is different from alot of Inuyasha's stories, so I hope you all like it !

Training His Destiny

In my wildest dreams, I never knew I would be here

I never knew I would be fighting for my life; fighting for him

I never wanted to fight to end, never wanted to see his eyes close,

Never wanted to say a final goodbye to him, without knowing when I would see him again.

I never wanted him to die.

-Kagome

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Chapter 1, Realizing He Only Loves Her

Clouds puffing over head, in colors of pink, yellow and orange. The sun beginning to set on the horizon, they did not realize how late it was. The amature Miko yawned with boredom and annoyance, for her Half Demon companion would not listen to her. For the past hour, she was trying to pursade him to stop for the night, but his ego got the best of him. They went on. The Monk did not press the matter, until the little Fox almost fell off his shoulder from being so exhausted.

He quickly snatched him, bringing everyone to a hault. He rolled his eyes. "Inuyasha, " he sighed.

Kagome glanced back at him. "We must stop for the night, and wait till dawn to continue on our way." The Monk started to look around for a safe place to set camp.

Sango, quickly agreeing to Miroku's statement, added "Miroku is right, Inuyasha. It will take a while to set up camp, and the sun in almost gone. There is no point on going on if we don't know where we are heading." She rolled her eyes, petting Kilala.

"Feh."

Kagome turned to see who made the noise. To no surprise, Inuyasha was leaning against a tree, his arms holded while his foot laid against the tree's roots. Kagome looked him up and down, the sun setting behind him. His pure white hair, slowly began to turn to black. Kagome gasped at the transformation.

He sighed. "Huh, you think I want to be walking around like this? Camp where you want, I won't stop you." He moved his gaze elsewhere, to the horizon.

Kagome felt her heart ache, she reached out a hand. "Inuyasha, -" she stopped.

He looked up at her, the look in his eyes. So loving, so yerning, yet ... so sad, so hurt. Kagome could think of no other reason for it. Kikyo. Kagome's thoughts were interrupted. Miroku laid his hand on her shoulder, Kagome wincing to stare at him.

"Grab the sleeping bags, would you Kagome?" He smiled. Kagome laughed, while nodding. She picked up the sleeping bags from the ground.

Kagome looked at Inuyasha through the side of her eye. His gaze was stuck on her, a sudden chill came over her, the cold air nipped at her skin, she shivered. She dropped the sleeping bags. She grabbed her arms, clutching them for warmth. Within a flash, the red cloth fell over her head and shoulders.

Inuyasha walked infront of her. "Face it, if I'm sick I will be fine by tomorrow. If your sick, you will be useless for a week." He smiled, picking up the sleeping bags from the ground, following the rest of them into the woods.

Kagome stood, watching him walk towards the fire, the image reminded her of him running for her, for Kikyo. Insearch of someone that will never want him. Even though she hurt you, even though she put you through all of the pain and heartache, you still want her, Kagome glanced up to see Inuyasha picking at the fire. You still love her... no matter what she saids or does, you can't help but want her, ... you can't help but love her. A tear loosened from Kagome's eye, she whipped it clean, telling herself that he isn't worth her tears. She shock it off, throughing a sleeve up. His kimono was a bit baggy on her.

That look he made. He kepted picking at the fire, embers flarred up around the burning wood. Shippo was already fast asleep by Sango who, surprisingly, was leaning against Miroku's shoulder, beginning to fall alseep. Kagome stopped, the cool breeze glided across her cheek. Leaning against a tree, just slightly out of Inuyasha's view. She watched him, his eyes focusing on the flames of the fire. That tender look, that hurt look. Kagome's eyes fell shut. The look for Kikyo. Why love her Inuyasha? She has done nothing but hurt you. Why love someone who doesn't love you back ? Kagome fluttered her eyes opened at the sudden snap of a twig, she looked around her, realizing it was Inuyasha braking it for the fire.

Kagome took a deep breathe in, putting a thought in her mind. What will happen when he is not around ? Kagome could feel an ache in her chest. What will happen when the jewel is completed ? Kagome's eyes teared up once more. Will I be able to stay here with him ? Will he want me here with him, or will he go on with us ? With me ? Kagome was snapped out of her thoughts. A powerful gust of wind swept through her hair, long black strands played in the wind. Kagome held her arms together. Shutting her eyes from the wind.

A tender whisper shock her. A gentle, formilar voice spoke. "Kagome. "

She blinked her eyes open, looking up at him. His long brown hair blowing in the wind that he made, the moon's little bit of light reflecting off his white teeth. Kagome gave him a big smile. "Koga. What are you doing here?" Kagome questioned.

He shurgged, walking past her. Looking over at Inuyasha with his black hair. "I knew tonight was the night of the new moon." He answered, leaning his back against a tree. "I just wanted to make sure you were alright. Considering Inuyasha and all." He looked at her, her eyes were set on Inuyasha. Koga gave a shy laugh.

Kagome narrowed her eyes at him. "What is so funny?" She demanded.

Koga stood up, slowly walking towards her. He smoothly trailed around her. "You love him, Kagome. I can see it in your eyes." Koga sighed.

"Yet, you know he loves another, and you still go after him. You still care about him Kagome." Koga laughed once more. He stopped behind her, his breath warm on her neck. He whispered to her. "Do you think, if he had to choose, that he would pick you over Kikyo ?"

Koga watched Kagome looking quietly at Inuyasha. "Honestly Kagome, do you think he loves you more then Kikyo?"

A small whimper came from Kagome. She turned around, tears falling from her eyes, all red and puffy. Her nose sniffled. She knew the truth, but didn't want to admit to it, didn't want to believe it.

She bit her lip. "No, " she paused, whipping her tears away. "But, maybe he loves me just as much. Maybe."

Koga grabbed her arm, and swung her around. "Look at him. Look at his face, ...look at his eyes, Kagome." Kagome shut her eyes tight, not listening to Koga.

"Look at him." Kogo whispered into her ear. Kagome's eyes flew open to see Inuyasha.

He looked so sad, his face still as stone. His cheek flushed from emotion. His eyes, ... his eyes, Kagome gasped. Taking a deep breath in, she turned around to face Koga.

"But, ...maybe -" Koga rolled his eyes at her denial.

"Kagome, maybe he does love you, and maybe he does care for you. But, he will never care for you as much as he cares for Kikyo." Koga lifted her chin up, she looked into his sparkling eyes. "He will never love you, ...as much as he loves Kikyo. He always will put her first." Kagome's head fell.

Koga sighed at her depression, Koga watched her quickly turn around to look at him, he spoke again to her. "As long as Kikyo is in this world, you will never be first in his mind, or in his heart. You will always come second to Kikyo, and they know it more then you do."

Koga noticed Kagome's body lifting up while taking a breath. "Face it Kagome, you are chasing someone, who is already gone and disappeared. You never really had him. You never will " Kagome shook her head.

"That's a lie !" Her voice sounding angry. She turned around to face him.

"Through everything me and Inuyasha have been through, he has always been by my side. He has always protected me. He has always been there for me, and only me. Three years we have been searching together. There years we have been talking and fighting with each other. Three years, I have helped him with the jewel shards." She whipped a tear from her eye.

"Three long years, I have watched him run away from me and go to her. But every single time he has come back to me." She bit her lip. "So, don't you stand there and think he loves her more then me. He isn't with her right now." Kagome breathed in from her mouth.

Koga looked down his nose at her. "But he wants to be. "

Koga trailed off. He brought his face to hers. "Maybesomeday, he will run for her and won't come back to you. Ever. He does love and care about you Kagome, but not as much as you care about him. Trust me, the way he looks at you, the way he talks to you, the way he protects you from everything and anything, he does love you. But you don't get it, he did that for Kikyo, too. Face it, your not his, and you never will be." Koga raised his eyebrow to her.

Kagome gasped for her breath. "You don't know him like I do. He would never leave me for her,"

Koga sighed, and shook his head. "Then maybe, you don't know him either. 'Cause he has left before." Koga moved in, and gave her a quick kiss on the cheek.

He turned to leave, "Just answer yourself one question Kagome."

Kagome rolled her eyes at him, "What is it Koga?"

He looked back at her. "Will he love you, when he is not around?" And before Kagome could comment, he was gone in a wind. Will he love you, when he is not around? Kagome repeated.

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"There you are. What the hell were you doing?"

Inuyasha questioned, as Kagome walked over to the fire. Inuyasha picked at the embers, while Kagome sat down on the opposite side of him. She moved her arms around her, pulling the kimono off of her body.

She then passed it to him, "I just went for a small walk is all. I had a few things to think about."

Inuyasha took the kimono, and laid it beside him. "You shouldn't be going off by yourself at night. Especially when I can't protect you." Inuyasha starred into the fire.

What are you waiting for you idiot, ask him ! Ask him everything you want to know, Kagome took a deep breath, thinking about how she would ask him. She watched the flames flicker up into the sky, the bright new moon was slowly disappearing above them, Kagome quessed it was alost dawn by now, maybe later. She sighed.

Inuyasha looked over her in detail. "What's going on with you?" He asked, sitting a different way. His feet by the fire, leaning back against a rolled up sleeping bag.

Kagome took a huge gulp, looking into the fire. "Inuyasha, -" She paused, how could she ask him?

"I am just going to come right out and say it. "

Bitting her lip, trying to stop herself from asking. "Would you ever pick Kikyo over me?" Kagome shut her eyes. After a moment of complete ackward silence, her eyes flickered opened to see him.

He was looking straight at her, his arms folded. "What are you rambling on about this time, Kagome?" He folded his arms.

Kagome could feel the words coming up, but she couldn't stop them. "Everytime Kikyo needs you, and everytime you want to see her, and everytime you go to her side, you run back to me. "

Kagome shut her eyes, "I keep thinking that one of these days you are going to run after her, but you won't run back to me. You will pick her over me. " Kagome gasped. " I feel, like whatever I do, or whatever I say," she paused. " it just doesn't matter to you. I am always going to be second to Kikyo, I am never going to be first to you."

Kagome looked over at him, he kept looking at her with his mouth opened a bit in shock. "I don't know how you feel about me Inuyasha. Maybe you love me, and maybe you care about me, too. But, you will never care about me like you care about Kikyo."

She looked in to his eyes. "You will never love me, as much as you love Kikyo. You will always put her first. And, as long as she is in this world, I will never be first in your mind, or in your heart. Kikyo has always ruled over me. And she always will." Kagome stood up, looking down at him.

Inuyasha stood up, the sun flickering over the hills. Inuyasha's claws got longer. The night of the new moon was almost over. He looked into her eyes, "Kagome, -"

She cut him off. "I'm not asking you to love me Inuyasha, and I'm not asking you to forget about Kikyo."

She sighed in sadness. "All I am asking is, do you care and love me, the way you care and love Kikyo?"

The sun shone in to the corner of her eye. Kagome saw his fangs coming into view, his long black hair slowly turning back to silver. She shook her head, "Do what you want Inuyasha. Be with her, become a full-demon. It doesn't matter to me anymore." She stopped. "I don't matter to you anymore." Kagome pushed through him and grabbed her bag.

Inuyasha stopped her, his hair now fully silver. "Kagome come on, you know I can't pick." He grabbed her arm, and looked into her eyes, "I can't choose between you guys. Could you choose between me and Koga?" Inuyasha narrowed his eyes at her.

Kagome forced her arm free from his grasp, "No I couldn't, " She shook her head. "But I wouldn't love both of you. Incase you haven't noticed, Inuyasha, I already choosen between you two." Kagome walked pasted him.

She stopped in her tracks turning back to him, "I am still here in the Feudal Era with you, aren't I?"

Inuyasha crossed his arms, "So, what? Your going home?" His voice getting harsh.

Kagome smiled, "Yeah. And maybe, when I'm there, I might decide not to come back. But I'll let you know."

She rolled her eyes as she stomped away. Walking to the path, she slowly started walking away, dragging her backpack in her hands.

"You can't just leave, we are in the middle of searching for Naraku!" Inuyasha ran behind her.

Kagome turned around, he eyes blazing at him. "You can kill him yourself. Your the one who wants the jewel, your the one who wants to be a full demon. Kill him yourself and leave me out of it!" Kagome rolled her eyes.

Inuyasha sighed, rolling his eyes. He looked at the ground. "Kagome," He stared up at her. "We need you here, I need you here. Don't leave now. I can't destory Naraku by myself, you know that I need you to win. I will die during battle, I need you there fighting with me."

Kagome held back her tears. She stepped closer to Inuyasha, bringing her head up to his. Only centimetres away from his lips, she whispered. "I can't fight your battles Inuyasha, I have my own. I can't do this anymore, not like this." Inuyasha left her warm breath going in and out of his nose.

Kagome looked up into his hazel eyes, "I am done fighting Inuyasha."

Inuyasha looked down at her, "Fight one more time, for me. Don't leave now, Kagome. Not when I need you the most."

Inuyasha's arms wrapped around her, pulling her close to him. Kagome looked at him, they were closer then before. Kagome's eyes slowly closed, she could feel something pressing against her lips, she opened her eyes to see Inuyasha, kissing her. She closed her eyes, and didn't move. Inuyasha broke away, looking at her.

Kagome stared at him, "You don't need me Inuyasha, you never did. Let me go Inuyasha, let me leave."

Inuyasha brought his head up to her ear, "You know I need you." There was a slight pause, then another whisper. "You know I love you."

Kagome stopped him by pushing herself away from him, picking up her backpack while turning to walk away. Step after step she walked, each was harder to take then the one before.

Kagome could hear Inuyasha hollaring at her. "Kagome. I will come get you anyways. Your wasting her time leaving."

Then he stopped for a moment. "Fine, leave then. Don't come back! I don't need you, I HAVE KIKYO!"

Kagome stopped for a second, turned around and looked at the ant version of Inuyasha in the distance. She looked at the ground, while whispering. "Inuyasha, sit boy." She saw Inuyasha falling down the small hill and landing on his face, Kagome giggled a bit, I will miss him the most, she thought as she spun around, walking down the path.

There were little noises, Shippo opened his eyes to see what the noise was from. In the process, he shook Sango awake, who slapped Miroku when she saw where his hands were. Sango through the bucket at him, Miroku got hit in the head, and flew backwards, rolling into the freezing cold water.

Shippo jumped over to Inuyasha, looking at his expression he just skipped the questions. "Dumb Inuyasha, why do you always do these things to Kagome? Your such an idiot!"

Sango came over to see what was going on. Shippo looked at the huge hole Inuyasha was now in. Looking up at Sango, he smiled and then questioned. "Sango, is this the Grand Canyon?"

Sango laughed at him, patting him on the head, "No Shippo, but it is pretty close."