Words not yet said
Leafpool
When I was just born, I thought about how lucky I was to be born to a legendary leader, a caring mother and a close and understanding sister.
That is, I never knew my true destiny, how worthless and careless I was.
When I met the black crow, I was not able to stop myself from falling in love, oh how foolish I was, I was happy he had loved me back, not knowing how much pain it had caused just from the forbidden love.
When I ran away with him, I thought my life is now free, a new world awaits me and my mate, our future kits, and no more tears of blood, but I was wrong.
When the wise Midnight came to me, saying Thunderclan is in trouble, Crowfeather nagged me not to go, but I knew my heart was never free, it lies with my clan, Thunderclan.
I went back, knowing there is no turning back, and Crow and I were never to be together, that broke me, my heart, if I had any.
I went back, not seeing my mentor, Cinderpelt anywhere in the middest of this raging battle, I heard a scream in the nursery, I ran there with all the strength and speed I can put into my wore out limbs.
When I reached there, Cinderpelt was snarling at a monstrous badger, it raised a claw, my heart pounded, it strikes, my heart stops as Cinderpelt's blood drips onto the nursery floor, the sound of Sorreltail screeching in fear, the mew of new born kits, the sound of warriors' paws pounding to the rescue, the last breath Cinderpelt left out, her last words "It's not your fault", the world whirling around me, and darkness surrounding me as a headache came.
I thought the end came, it did not, this cold world had not taken enough from me, I found out I was pregnant, of Crow's kits, I told my sister, she said she will cover for me, I gave birth to three kits of beauty, a blue jay, the roaring lion and the loyalness of holly.
I watched them grow up, descended to a world changing prophecy, the wise jay finding out my dark secret, holly announcing it out loud for the world to hear,
The eyes turning with pure horror to Crow and me, he gave me a look of pure hatred and sadness.
I give no blame,
It is all my fault,
That my mate lost trust of his clanmates,
That my mentor died,
That my sister lost her mate,
That holly killed Ashfur,
All the pain I caused,
I may be alive,
But my heart is dead,
Forever.