DarkWind: I should be working on my other stories or my own original novel but I found a whole bunch of quotes that just screamed X-Men and I had to write one. I hope you all enjoy it. I do not own X-Men and I don't need to.
Pain
I looked around the white hospital room, no other color around, just the same whiteness. Even the sheets were white. I took in each and every machine that was connected to me, all there just to keep me alive. I already know I cannot feel my legs. I realized that truth on the beach once he, no they left. Left us there stranded with no way off. Now I am numb to it, to everything. Just as my legs are numb to everything, just dead weights attached to me.
As if none of this matters anymore. It hasn't truly sunk in yet I realize. I haven't totally realized that he's pushed me out of his heart forever. He the man that I almost gave my life to save, the same man who took my legs and yet, still I care about him. Still he has a place in my heart just as Ra-my sister will. Even if we are separated, on opposite sides of a war.
I can still remember the pain, then again it has only been a week since that faithful day. I can still feel the bullet that hit me in the back, severing my spine and leaving me paralyzed. Taking away something vital. That bullet…it didn't just take away my legs that day. It took them as well.
I…I am not sure if I want it to hit me fully yet, the fact that I have lost him…that I have lost them both because I know that when it does…I will feel a pain like nothing I have ever felt before. That includes when I was paralyzed. The fact that…he is pushing me away…that will break me. Destroy what is left of me. He has already taken my heart and my sister; any other pain will pale in comparison. Only this pain, unlike the pain of the bullet can never disappear, only turn into a dull throb over time.
"Professor, are you okay?" Sean asks, he looked over at me worried from is spot next to my bed, in a lone chair that they left for my visitors…my remaining students. "Do I need to call in the nurse to get you some pain pills?"
"I am fine, Sean. No need to worry," I say, pulling a smile onto my face even as I calm his mind. There is nothing anyone can do for me. For once the numbness ends…once I am thrust back into life, once I remember all that I have lost. That is when the pain will truly begin…a pain that no one can heal. Until then I will remain in my numbed state, trying to reach him…to reach my only love…my Erik, the only one with the power to hurt me, and hope that he hasn't pushed me out of his heart forever…for when he does…that will be my end.