It took a long time to convince Sarah that Rachel wasn't a robotic clone without any feelings.
So when Sarah was sitting in on Rachel's couch in her apartment, all the way to one side, it was obvious she hadn't gotten as far as she wanted. The amount of space Sarah left on the couch left her alienated, sitting barely within arm's reach of someone she wanted to be closer.
"Why did you have to pick a horror movie?" Cosima complains, leaning in to Delphine as she is tugged closer to the French woman's body.
Rachel glanced over at the two with a shrug before she dimmed the lights and sat down on the couch, leaving space for both she and Sarah.
"It is just what we decided on earlier," Delphine says. "It's not even scary. Look, it's an old one. Surely this cannot be scary?"
Cosima rolled her head until it rested on Delphine's shoulder, her body turned for ease to hide her eyes if she needed. Delphine laughed softly before she pressed a kiss to the top of her head. Rachel watched with a bit of a smile.
"I thought you of all people would like horror films, Cos," Sarah jokes.
"Yeah? And why is that?" Cosima spits, glaring at Sarah before Delphine tugs her close.
"Easy there, killer," she tries, watching as Cosima tensed and Delphine squeezed her hand. Sarah knew she got under her skin sometimes and enjoyed it far more than she should. She never knew having a sister-clone would have been so much fun.
There was a moment the two stared at each other before they both cracked and laughed. Rachel relaxes a little and leans back into the couch, her gaze turning from Cosima to Sarah and finally the gap between them. She remains stoic even in their present environment, afraid to spook Sarah further away. It's quiet between the four of them and she takes that as an initiative to start the movie. A bright glare of black and white shines from the television hanging on the wall, lighting their faces with dancing shadows of old film.
Cosima shrieked a few times, hiding her eyes behind Delphine. Sarah made fun of her about it a few times. Rachel had gotten up for something to drink and sat down without Sarah noticing her proximity. The distance between them had significantly shortened to the point she could feel Rachel tense during a "scary" part of the movie. It wasn't as dramatic as Cosima but enough that she could tell Rachel didn't care for them either.
By the end of the movie, however, only Sarah and Cosima were the ones wide awake. Delphine's eyes were half mast, groaning as she was shaken by her girlfriend and informed they were to leave soon. Rachel had fallen asleep completely, leaning against Sarah's arm with her own hands tucked between the cushions.
"Y'all right?" Cosima asks Sarah while she pulled Delphine to stand, wrapping an arm around her waist for support.
"Yeah, yeah," Sarah replies but she doesn't move. "I'll wake her and get her to bed. You might wanna get her to bed too before she falls out, yeah?"
"Okay. Y'sure?"
Sarah nods, letting Cosima lead Delphine out with their things. In the meantime, she offers Rachel a little shake to rouse her.
"Mmm," she groans, shifting to the right and away from Sarah.
"Oi, wake up," Sarah instructs but her voice is quiet.
"Okay, okay," Rachel murmurs, brushing back her tousled hair. After a glance around the room through sleepy eyes, she jerks and scoots a few inches further away. "What time is it? Did Cosima and Delphine leave?"
"It's… almost midnight. And yeah, they left. You and Delphine fell asleep."
"Why didn't you leave?"
Sarah's lips twisted in a frown and she shrugged.
Rachel ran her hands across her face, unable to stifle a yawn.
"Come on. Let's get you to bed. Might wanna cut back on the wine next time."
She tried to laugh but instead her cheeks burned. Her fingers laced between Sarah's to be pulled up, doing her best to remain upright and balanced. She mumbled a quiet thank you while they made their way to her bedroom.
"Yeah, no. No problem. I had fun though why did you vote on a horror film if you don't like them?"
"I do like them!" Rachel replies in defense. "Delphine and I had been talking and it just…"
Sarah's head tilted, eyes narrowing together as Rachel tried to explain herself.
"You're right. I abhor horror films."
"Okay…"
"Thanks for coming," she tells her, the weight of explanation heavy on her tongue.
"Next time we can watch a movie we both like."
Rachel turned her head, looking back at Sarah. We? she wanted to ask but she held her thought and nodded instead.
"Lock the door behind me on the way out, yeah?"
She nodded as Sarah turned and left the apartment.
Sarah sat across from Cosima, her foot kicking at the table leg repetitively. Cosima would sigh loudly, look up, and tilt her head to the left and it was usually enough to get Sarah to stop but this time she was staring off somewhere else. Her head was propped up with her chin in her hands, completely unaware that she was getting a death stare.
"Sarah!"
She jerked, looking toward Cosima.
"Stop that."
"What?"
"You're kicking the damn table. Again. I can't think straight when you do it."
"I don't think you can think straight… ever."
"Fuck you."
Sarah grins, tucking her feet beneath the chair to try and still her movements.
"You never did tell me what happened after we left Rachel's the other night."
"What do you mean, what happened?" Sarah asks, cocking her head to the side in confusion.
"You know. She fell asleep on you and you put her to bed. You can't tell me that was it."
"Of course that was it. Why wouldn't it be?"
Cosima smirks and shakes her head. She dropped her gaze to her papers and ignores the question.
"Nothing happened," she confesses. "I woke her up and I left. That was it."
"Well, sounds like a boring date to me."
"It wasn't a date. What the hell, Cosima? You two were there, too."
Cosima doesn't reply, focusing on her work. Sarah was about to object again when Delphine came into the lab.
"Hey Cosima," she whispers, leaning to kiss her cheek. "Sarah."
"Sarah was just telling me about her boring date with Rachel."
"Oh?"
"No, Sarah was not," she growls, looking to Cosima. "It was just the four of us watching a movie, yeah? Just because… you know what, forget it."
"Oh, come now Sarah, we're just joking," Cosima rolls her eyes, leaning into Delphine.
She leaned back into her chair, pushing against the table so she was propped up haphazardly on two legs. Sarah was hoping for the end of it but as if on cue, Rachel walks through the door.
"Just who I was looking for," she announces, looking first to Delphine before her eyes traveled to Sarah. "Oh. I didn't know you were here."
Sarah raised her eyebrows and dropped the chair to four legs quickly.
"What is it?" Delphine asks, turning toward Rachel while her arms drop to her side.
"You're needed as a second pair of eyes on a case—trying to find a vehicle of transport for a weakened immune system."
"Dr. Higgins?"
Rachel nods. Delphine gives Cosima a quick kiss then departs the room.
"We were just talking about the other night," informs Cosima.
Sarah was looking down at her feet, hunched over in her chair, but she couldn't place the reason behind the need.
"I see. It was fun."
"Come on, you fell asleep by the end of the movie. Which was awful. And scary. Can't we pick something else next time?"
"Of course," Rachel replies and glances toward Sarah, still looking at her feet. She frowns.
"Yeah, absolutely," Sarah finally pipes up, lifting her gaze to the two of them.
There is a moment of awkward silence. Cosima goes back to her work and Rachel shrugs, offering her departure, and left.
"You're such a bitch, Sarah," she whispers when the door is shut.
"What the hell?"
"She totally likes you."
Sarah scoffs and she shakes her head.
"You are so blind," she complains, rolling her eyes.
"Piss off," Sarah retorts, shoving her weight back in the chair.
She didn't know why she was so upset about it but the rest of her time in the lab was awkward. She excused herself a little while later, leaving Cosima to her work and Sarah to explore the rest of the building until she decided to go home.
Somehow, in the maze of hallways and elevators and doors, Sarah got herself lost. She spent the first ten minutes trying to figure out how she got on a floor five above Cosima's lab, standing in a lobby with wide open spaces and windows that offered a widescreen view of the city. There was a heavy feeling in her stomach as she stepped up and looking over the city as if it could do no harm to her here.
"Sarah?"
She tenses and slowly turns around. The voice did not betray her when she saw Rachel standing there with a clipboard tucked under her arm.
"Lost?"
"Um, yeah."
"All right. Follow me," Rachel instructs, pivoting backward and heading toward the elevator. It was familiar to Sarah but she wasn't entirely sure which way she had or hadn't come.
"Thanks."
Rachel leaned in and pushed the button to the elevator, waiting for it to arrive. She glanced toward Sarah who was looking the other direction but didn't seem nearly as patient. Agitated, maybe. Frustrated.
The elevator door opened and she stepped to the side, allowing Sarah to step in first. When the door closes, she presses the L for the lobby. The doors closed behind them and shifted, taking them downward for an awkward ride. Sarah had her hands tucked into the pockets of her jeans and Rachel fidgeted with the edges of paper attached to her clipboard. There was a quiet ding and the doors opened once more, giving Sarah the chance for escape.
"Hey, Sarah?"
"Yeah?" she asks, turning around. Rachel was still in the elevator, standing in the way of the doors.
"Go on a date with me."
Sarah blinks, taken aback by the question—no, request—that she realizes she hadn't answered.
"I'll pick you up at eight, tomorrow night."
"Yeah, okay," Sarah stammers, bobbing her head before she catches up to the conversation. The doors had already shut Rachel inside, leaving her standing in the middle of the lobby dumbfounded.
