The smell of fresh rainfall hitting the pavement filled her lungs; the white noise seemed to echo in her eardrums. Her black umbrella jostled in the wind, and her silent tears matched that of everyone around her.
Max never cried. No one ever saw her break down. Only he had comforted her when she snapped; pulled her back together when she was falling apart. But now there was no one to help her- he wasn't there when she needed him most.
"Would you like to say a few words?" Jeb asked softly motioning toward a human-sized hole in the mud. Max shook her head minutely, afraid that if she spoke that her raw emotion would show through her voice. Her other half was gone; what was there to say? Angel walked over under Max's umbrella, hugging her legs tightly while sobbing uncontrollably. She smoothed out angel's wet curls comfortingly, silently wishing that she was anywhere but here.
Iggy followed soon after, wrapping max in a brotherly hug, unable to speak himself. Gazzy and nudge stood under the cover of their own umbrella, crying silently and holding each other. How could she go on like this? Max wondered to herself. There's no point in living without my soul.

But looking about her at the rest of her family, she knew that she had to stay strong. He would want her to keep herself, to lead the flock without him. For him. As the minister sprinkled the last of the holy water over the memorial, she whispered inaudibly "I love you," to the one and only person she ever could mean it to. Her lost soul, her meaning of life. But she accepted that he was gone, and she could do nothing about it. She would never have the opportunity to tell him those words to his face; she had lost her chance.
Another tear fell down her face, as she turned and followed her family to the black suburban in the parking lot.
He's gone. She thought for the thousandth time, adding at the end, but not in vain. With those words strengthening her to carry on, they left to Germany- to finish off the reason he wasn't here. Itex.

Review if you want to find out why he's gone, and how they get revenge. If you listen to "welcome to the black parade" by my chemical romance, it adds a whole new meaning to this chapter. I almost cried writing this! But don't worry, it gets better :)

Love always,
-Heather *\o/*