Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto
She was facing the torture between what she should do and what she wanted to do. Why couldn't her life be simpler?
She tried to fool others…him…but mostly herself. He was going to be a nuisance who would disappear just as the others had. But he never did. It confused her. But her father, the village, her sickness would pull them both apart. She knew that it was killing him not but it would protect him in the future. He would be able to move on and find someone who would bring him true happiness and joy. Not like her, only hurting him over and over again. She knew that others would side with him. They would think that she messed up and she did.
But that was never her regret.
Her only regret was that she never told him how much she loved him. All those times he was there for her, she never told him how much it meant to her. She would miss those times he was silently brooding with jealousy when she gave Naruto a hug for his birthday or when he teased her about her petite frame.
But she knew that she had to do what was best…no matter how hard it was or how much it hurt her. It would have been better if she didn't let him in. But she couldn't stop, he was too perfect.
She just wasn't perfect enough to match him.
Sakura had encouraged her to tell him the truth but she disagreed. She didn't want him to suffer, to see her slowly deteriorate. She wanted to be that person forever preserved in his memories. Afterall, memories were the only thing that she had left.
I thought of this when I was sitting in English class. Thanks for reading. Please review!