Summary: My life was my own living hell. I lived to serve Karin, my sister. Or, at least that's what it felt like.

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"Okay, you just cannot take my stuff like that!"

"Sakura, I think that I am more than perfectly capable of taking your stuff from you and not get in trouble for it." A smooth and evenly toned voice said. The voice was attached to a young seventeen year old girl with shoulder length red hair. One side was kept nice whilst the other side was very… the opposite. The red head was smirking at the other seventeen year old in front of her.

Yeah, hi.

That other seventeen year old girl? Yeah, that'd be me. Me as in Sakura Haruno. Her as in Karin… Haruno. A.K.A my older sister. Yes, we are twins.

Unfortunately.

Anywho. I have mid back length pink hair. Yes, you did in fact read that right. I have pink hair. It's not dyed either. I can't even begin to tell you how many people have gone up to me and asked if my hair is real.

…

Okay, maybe I can but… that's not the point! The point is, is that… well…

I lost my point.

"Stop coming up with lame excuses, Karin. This is just sad. Even for you." I glared at her as I raced around the edges of the kitchen table towards Karin and my precious notebook in hand.

See, Karin and I were currently around the kitchen table. I was on one side, and she was on the opposite. Whenever I would shoot around the corner, she would run the other way. The reason why she has my notebook is still a mystery. She just called me down and I saw it and started chasing her.

See, that notebook is actually very important to me. My first boyfriend gave it to me. I'm not exactly sure why I still have it though but… hey, you would too if he was the sweetest, most caring guy on the planet.

Who turned gay.

I'm not exactly sure if it was during our relationship, or after it when he just finally decided he was all of a sudden gay. I will never know.

Karin suddenly ran behind her and towards the bathroom. I ran after her as fast as my thin, wobbly legs would carry me. My gym teacher would have been proud.

But then everything was in slow motion.

Karin dangled my black and red notebook over the opened toilet seat. I screamed when she let go-

(She's going to die!She's going to die!She's going to die!)

-only to have her other hand catch it before tossing it back to me. My clammy hands reached for it only I couldn't reach that far in front of me and it fell to the ground. The bind snapped as it flipped open revealing a picture of a young girl with short, bright red hair and green eyes.

My other sister.

She was actually recently deceased. Her name was Aria and she was only four years old when she died. We found out that she had leukemia and believe me, we got her help. The Doctors just said that her heart was too weak to undergo the treatment and without any other choice, she just… died. She would have died either way but…

It was over a year ago but it still hurt like hell to remember her.

And now the only thing I really treasured was left on the ground, in a broken heap. It reminded me of her and her last day. That only could make anybody cry unless they were so strong that it just didn't bother them anymore.

Unfortunately, I was not that strong. I burst into tears as they streamed down my now red face.

"Oops," I looked up to see Karin looking at me with fake sympathy, "my bad."

Then she walked away.

I couldn't really do anything at this point because… well… all I could think was that the book was broken. It killed me.

I swear that I just wanted to kill her right then and there.

Of course, she's done this before.

And will continue to do this.

Only worse.

Frostless Ice

Chapter o1

Damaged

"She did it again didn't she?"

I nodded sullenly.

It was Monday morning and Ino and I were on our way to school. We were walking and about a few blocks to go before we reached Konoha High. The best school in the entire region of Japan. (coughsarcasmcough)

Ino sighed loudly. "Sakura, when are you going to wake up and smell the roses? Karin's going to keep doing this to you unless you stand up and fight back!"

"Ino," I began, "you know that I can't do that. Mom and Dad will just think that I'm making it up again. You know that. I can't do a thing. She's untouchable."

"Are you sure that this is all because she's an hour older than you?"

"What do you mean?"

"Well… it just seems… I dunno… fake like, they're your parents Sakura. Why would they favor your sister over you? Even if she is an hour older than you. It just doesn't seem real. Are you sure it's because of that?" Ino twirled thick strands of her long, platinum blonde hair around her forefinger nervously. She picked that up from our other friend Hinata.

Hinata was always nervous. Especially around Naruto her "secret" crush. Well, she thinks it's a secret but a lot of people know. And I mean a lot!

"I don't know. You met my parents-"

"Yeah, and we saw how fantastic that went."

"-so you should know that I don't know a single thing that runs through they're minds. They are way too complicated."

"Ain't that the truth."

By now, we reached Konoha High. Actually, we still had a block to go but we could see it. It was within visual range.

"I need a drink…"

"Ino, we're at this little thing called school! You bring anything resembling alcohol, your dead. You even think about alcohol, your dead. I'm being serious." I smacked her upside the head when she shook her head back at me. How dare she!

Bitch!

(Die!Die!Die!)

Ino hmphd at me. If I was a boy, I would have thought it was cute, but since I'm not a boy, I don't think it is. It is actually, to me at the very least, revolting in a disgusting kind of way. Oh yeah, I so went there!

YOU JUST GOT PWNED SISTER!

"I can't believe that rule."

"Ino, what rule?"

"The rule the school has idiot."

"Ino, the school has like… a million rules. Which one?"

"The one that they made-"

"GOD DAMNIT INO! WHAT RULE!!?? WHAT THE HELL IS IT ABOUT!!??"

"The one about how nobody get's to date Uchiha Sasuke."

"…"

I seriously could have killed her right then and there. I did a quick take of my surroundings. If I murdered Ino now, I would only have to kill three other people because there were only three witnesses. I'm sure I could kill all of them before somebody else notices or one of them calls the police. But, if we kept walking, I'm pretty sure that some people from school would notice and I really didn't have time for that. I'll let her live…

… for now…

"Ino, I hope you do realize that Karin made up that stupid rule just to get girls to back off of 'her Uchiha Sasuke' A.K.A. 'man whore'." I said in an I-told-you-so kind of tone. Ino glared at me.

"I so knew that!"

"Uh-huh, sure you did." I nodded in (fake) agreement. Then an exasperated groan escaped my lips. I could hear Ino shift slightly towards me as if inclining what was wrong without any words. "Why is everybody so hung over Sasuke? He's just a guy."

"You forgot irresistible, charming, hot, good-looking, and-" I cut Ino off from her… fascinating conversation.

"Yeah, notice how all of the words revolve around his looks." I shook my head softly. "Don't any of you fan girls care about his attitude? His personality?"

Ino laughed at me. "Hunny, you have enough attitude to fuel the entire world for centuries. Plus, I highly doubt that that's what everybody's going crazy about. I mean, who cares about that kind of stuff?"

"Right, because nowadays, people only care about how hot your partner-"

"Only you would use Partner, Sakura."

"-is and how good looking your children could be. Nobody cares about if somebody's child is as dumb as fuck anymore because apparently looks are everything!" Somehow, my hands were up in the air. Don't ask me how they got there. "Looks get you into new, high-tech schools that used to be for overachievers, an amazing job, etcetera, etcetera. If your good looking, you get an easy life, while us 'ugly' people (or so in their eyes) have to actually work for a living." I paused and took a well-deserved breath. "See, and this is why I hate talking about Uchiha Sasuke."

Ino yawned beside me.

"Gosh Sakura, you make everything into a debate or something. You make every single topic sound so smart even if they're dumb as hell."

I chuckled. "Like?"

"Like nail polish."

"Nail polish is stupid. It's just a bunch of girls getting together and wasting some of the world's materials just so their nails can look… pretty."

"See? There you go again! Making everything sound so smart when they're not!" She breathed in deeply before exhaling slowly. "Sakura, you are truly one in a million."

"Gee… I feel so special. You have the ability to seduce men at your will. I have the ability to lecture them to death. Wow… I am so lucky." My throat vibrated from laughter as we both continued on to school.

"Saku-"

"Don't. Please. I don't want sympathy."

"You need sympathy Sakura."

"Yeah, sure."

"Saku, just please promise me you'll talk to your parents about the Karin situation." I looked at Ino. Big mistake on my part because she gave me the saddest look ever. I quickly looked away. "Please."

I then took my leave and walked away as quickly away from Ino as my legs could possibly take me. It wasn't very far sadly.

"Oh, look. It's the geek from the west." I knew that voice. That horrible, horrible voice. Another big mistake on my part.

I looked up.

Karin smirked at me before somebody stuck their leg out and tripped me on the concrete sidewalk. I scraped my knee and my elbow as I fell. Something wet and sticky was in my hair. I put my hand to the sticky material in my hair before bringing it down towards my face. It wasn't blood.

It was spit.

Karin and her "friends" were currently spitting on me. Then Karin kicked me in the stomach just as I started getting up. I soon found myself doubled over in pain. She kept kicking me.

"Little bitch. Thinks she can get away with standing up to me this morning."

"Oh? What did she do?" Watanabe Ami. God, I hated her so much. No matter how much I try to hate Karin, my sister, I could never. I don't know why I can't. I just can't.

I can honestly (no matter how much I want to deny it) tell everybody that if Karin were to die right now, I would honestly not know what to do with myself. My world revolves around her in a sick and twisted kind of way. She is my world.

She is my sister.

No matter how much it hurts me to admit it. I love her. I could never hate her. No matter how much dark stuff she does to me. I could never.

"Yeah, she tried getting her notebook back. I almost threw it into the toilet but considering how nice and thoughtful I am, I gave it back to her."

"Karin, your so nice! If it were me, I would have tossed it in the toilet." Ami gushed.

"See? And that's why your not the leader of this group." At this, Ami looked down. It was a second rate thing. If the alpha out beats you, you bow your head in submission. If you don't, it's hell for you for a month. Nobody wants that. I've already had it. Once. I will never make the same mistake again. No matter how many times Ino tries to persuade me to rebel against my sister's stupid and childish and harmful antics. I just can't do it and I hate that about me. I hate it so much.

I saw through my pink bangs that Karin was currently looking at all of the students who had filed around us into a semi-loose circle. A smirk graced her lips.

"Is anybody going to stand up for her?" She made it sound like I was vermin. I was not vermin. I was human. A girl. Was a girl with feelings. No matter how much I wished for them to all leave. I wanted to feel nothing. To regret nothing.

I looked up at the students with blank eyes. I had known long enough that by now not to get my hopes up for somebody to stick up for me. Apparently everybody had to fight their own battles. With no help at all. No encouragement. No nothing.

Or was that just me?

I looked around for Ino even though I knew that she wasn't going to be here. Ino was a good friend just, whenever I seemed to be in trouble with Karin, she was really never to be found. I don't really know if it was just a coincidence that I never saw her, or if she was just avoiding me at all costs when we got to school.

I don't know but she's all I have. I can't let that go to waste. I need her. She's my only friends. Even if she doesn't stick up for me when people pick on me. Even if she ignores me when I try to talk to her during school hours. I never really notice these things. It's just the little things in life.

"Nobody? Not a single person?" My sister looked around. Her smirk growing bigger and bigger with each passing second. "Would you look at that skank?" Then she bent really close to my ear so only I could hear. "Nobody wants to defend you."

Believe it or not, this was one of Karin's good days. She was actually happy today. Somehow, I cherish the times when I'm alone like it was my life support.

To anybody else who was put in this situation probably would think it was.

Karin kicked me in my ribs one last time before pushing through the crowd and disappearing. The crowd slowly walked away after seeing that nothing else exciting was going to come of my crumble heap.

They all shook their heads at me. They were probably thinking that I should have fought back. But only for their entertainment.

It hurt but it's what I live with on a day to day basis. You learn to live with that.

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Me: So yeah. I guess you could say that that was like the prologue. I expect it to be much longer. Well, the chapters any way. I hope that you guys liked it. Thanks for reading.