I hadn't gotten it. I never did and I still don't. I hate people who on and off date. Just make up your mind already. I mean you got together in the first place for a reason and that was to, ew, be romantically involved and begin a relationship. Obviously that would mean that you'd have to have liked one another. And when that spark dies, it dies, you mourn for a bit with a gallon or two, or ten, of cold, hard ice-cream thats about the same feel as your heart, and then you set up an archery range with your ex lover's face on the target. Maybe even a full body cutout and the bullseye will be their heart. See how they like having their heart ripped out and broken. Well, maybe an arrow wouldn't be the cause of someone's heart being ripped out. Fine, turn over the cut out and stab them in the back. Repeatedly.
But once that's over, it's over. Just like that. The sparks gone, the mourning phase is over. He's done. You're done. The two of you are done. Well, that's how I always thought it would be. It'd gone that way for Piper and Silena in the past, and even Zoe, though the latter has now sworn off men, now. I think I should too.
But I can't, because I'm hooked. The spark died out months ago, and yet here I am, over the mourning period, that lasted much longer than it should've, and crawling right back at him. I'm running out of arrows and money for cardboard cutouts.
Just make up your mind already. I'll laugh in the face to whoever has said that to anyone ever. Make up my mind? How can I do that when choosing between having him and not is like asking someone to choose whether or not they want to continue living or to die?
Okay, so maybe the answer to that is simple. It should be. And it is.
But no. I'm not choosing him. I'm done. I'm done with him, with this, with these gods dam emotions. We're not getting back together. Again. Again, again, again. I swear, this time I'm done. We're not going to be like those silly on and off couples, because, really, either the sparks there or it's not. And if it's not? Too bad, go buy some arrows, cardboard, and ice-cream, but don't complain to anyone because it's not worth complaining about.
Those couples who on and off date are ridiculous.