Disclaimer: No, I do not own D(dot)Gray-man or characters blah blah blah other disclaiming stuff blah and I do not own Demi Lovato's song Catch Me either.
Author's note: Okay, so I've been wanting to write a songfic for a really long time now and this song reminds me soooo much of Yullen. So here it is. My first ever songfic!
The lyrics are in bold and the rest is in italics. It was really difficult writing this and still trying to convey everything I wanted to, because I decided to challenge myself and use only dialogue. So everything else is up to your imaginations, because I wanted the dialogue to be natural and it'd be weird if the person talking described everything around them in their conversation. I hope you like it!
The song is Catch Me by Demi Lovato
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Before I fall too fast
"Lavi, I think I'm in love with you."
"Allen…I don't…"
Kiss me quick
"K-kanda! Why did you…?"
"Che."
But make it last
"…again."
"What?"
"Do it again."
So I can see how badly this will hurt me
"What? Why, Kanda? Why?"
"I have to. I'm under direct orders from the Vatican."
When you say goodbye
"When are you leaving?"
"…"
"Kanda?"
"Soon."
Keep it sweet, keep it slow
"Kanda."
"Hmm?"
"Hold my hand?"
"Che. Fine."
Let the future pass and don't let go
"Kanda, what do you think will happen after everything is over?"
"…I don't know."
"Kanda?"
"Please, let me hold you like this, just for right now.
"…don't let go."
"Moyashi…"
But tonight I could fall too soon under this beautiful moonlight
"Allen."
"Kand-"
"Yuu."
"W-what is it…Yuu?"
"Ai shiteru."
"Yuu, I don't know-"
"It means 'I love you'."
"I know what it means. I meant that I don't know if-"
"Don't say it now. Tell me when I get back."
"Kan- I mean, Yuu-"
"No. Just let me love you tonight. I know that you don't love me too, but if I can have just one selfish request…tonight…please play along for my sake."
But you're so hypnotizing, You've got me laughing while I sing
"Moyashi. That was..."
"It's Mana's song. It's called The Musician."
"Moyashi…"
"It's funny, I've never played it for anyone else before. I guess that makes you special."
You've got smiling in my sleep
"I had a dream about you last night."
"What kind of dream?"
"N-not that kind of dream!"
"I dreamt about you last night too."
"K-kanda!"
And I can see this unraveling
"Allen. I'm worried about you and Kanda."
"…"
"Don't forget that he still has to leave."
"Don't worry Komui, I haven't forgotten."
You're love is where I'm falling, but please don't catch me
"Kanda-"
"I love you, Allen."
"I-"
"Shh."
"Mmph! Don't kiss me so suddenly! You could give me a warning or something."
"Heh."
See this heart won't settle down
"Kanda. Everyone's staring."
"Shut up and open your mouth."
"That's what he said."
"…"
"…"
"So you don't want me to feed you mitarashii dango?"
"…ahh."
Like a child running scared from a clown
"Moyashi…who's Mana?"
"…"
"Allen? Allen!"
"Make it go away."
"Make what go away?"
"The pain, the nightmares, the memories…everything. Make it all disappear."
"Allen."
I'm terrified of what you'll do
"Yuu, don't leave me."
"Allen, you know that's not possible. I have to go."
"Then promise that you'll come back. Come back to me."
"…I promise."
"Liar."
My stomach screams just when I look at you
"Lenalee, I don't want him to leave. I don't know what I'll do if he…doesn't come back."
"…oh, Allen. I wish there was something I could do. But not even Komui-nii has a say in this."
"My stomach screams just when I look at him. Why? Would it be selfish if I said that I wanted to keep him all for myself?"
"No, because…you lov-"
"Don't! Don't say it! It…it hurts."
"Allen, it's okay. Just cry."
"It hurts. So much."
"I know."
"I didn't ask for any of this!"
"I know."
"Lenalee, I love him."
"…I know."
Run far away so I can breathe
"I told you! I don't want to hear it!"
"But Yuu!"
"No! All I wanted was to love you! To believe that you loved me too! Was that too much to ask for?"
"Yuu! I-"
"Don't say another word!"
"Yuu! Come back!"
Even though you're far from suffocating me
"That idiot. I just wanted to tell him…that I love him."
I can't set my hopes too high
"I'll make him listen no matter what. I'll definitely tell him when he comes to say goodbye."
"Where is Kanda?"
"I don't know, but I'll tell him when I see him tonight. It's his last night. He'll show up. He has to…he can't just leave without saying goodbye. He can't."
'Cause every hello ends with a goodbye
"Allen. He's not coming."
"You're lying! He'll be here. I know he is. Just watch, he'll come see me before he goes and I'll tell him how I feel and everything will be better. It'll be okay. He's coming because I need him to be here with me. He wouldn't leave without saying goodbye. He would never do that. Not to me."
"Allen, he…he already left!"
"…He would…never do that…to me."
But you're so hypnotizing, You've got me laughing while I sing, You've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling, Your love is where I'm falling, But please don't catch me
"Yuu, now that you're not here to interrupt me, I can finally tell you what I've wanted to tell you for a while now. Ai shiteru. Wherever you are, I hope you hear it, because I'm calling out with all my heart. Please hear me."
So now you see why I'm scared, I can't open up my heart without a care
"Stupid disciple. Don't get so worked up over someone you didn't even care about."
"I did care about him, more than you'll ever know."
"You should forget about him. He's not important anymore."
But here I go, It's what I feel, And for the first time in my life I know it's real
"I love him so much, Master. Why can't you see that?"
"I can't see it because it was never there. You barely even knew each other anyway."
"…I told him about Mana."
"…"
"And he told me about Alma."
But you're so hypnotizing, You've got me laughing while I sing, You've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling, Your love is where I'm falling, But please don't catch me
"I love everything about him. And as soon as he comes back, I'll tell him that. I want to be together with him so much that it hurts. And as soon as his mission is over, we'll be together and everything will be alright."
If this is love then please don't break me
"Idiot apprentice, do you even know what you're saying? We work for the Vatican. We are apostles of God. It is a sin to love another man."
"I don't care! If this is love, then it shouldn't even matter! I love Kanda and nothing will ever come between us not even the Vatican."
"…Not even death?"
"…What are you saying?"
"…"
"No…no. No! NO! NONONONONONONO!"
"Allen, he's dead."
"I don't believe you! It's a lie!"
"Even if you deny it, it doesn't change the fact that he's dead."
I'm giving up
"Allen! Don't do this!"
"I'm sorry Lenalee and Lavi, but I can't take it anymore. Everything reminds me of him. I'm not happy without him and I can't even remember what it was like before I fell in love. I need to be with him. Forever."
"ALLEN!"
So just catch me.
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Did you like it? I hate killing off characters, but happy endings are just too cliché for me. Sorry everyone for killing off BOTH characters, but I was reading Romeo & Juliet earlier so I was in a very angsty mood.
Please review and tell me how I did. I'm looking for constructive criticism, but anything works. I love reading reviews, especially the wacky ones about ducks and llamas. Of course, I haven't gotten any about ducks and llamas…yet!