Thinking Of You
A/N: Sooo... I'M BACK! For my first I'm back story a Slash (since you all like them so
much, and keep requesting them!) :D. I don't own anything at all...the song belongs to
Katy Perry and the characters belong to J.K. Rowling Lyrics in Italics
Plot Summary: Remus reminisces about Sirius while he is with Severus (yea, I am gonna roll
like that today!)
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Remus is lying in the bed next to a deeply asleep Severus Snape thinking about what he had
to do today. Today was the one year anniversary of the day when that wretched woman stole
away all he loved from this earth. Yes...Part of him loved Severus, true, but not enough
of him. He knew it hurt the relationship, and he knew that Severus knew he still loved
Sirius. That would never change.
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
His thought traveled back to a time when he and Sirius were young and naive and in love.
He smiled slightly to himself thinking about the first time Sirius blurted out in front of
the entire great hall that he was indeed in love with Remus Lupin and he dared anyone to
defy him. A tear rolled down his face as he turned to look at Severus.
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know
Remus wiped his eyes and couldn't stop the fall of tears, the man he loved was not the one
laying next to him. What could he do? Everyone was gone, James, Sirius, Lilly, and even
Dumbledore. There was no one to turn to and every time he mentioned Sirius to Severus he just
sneered or they would get into a fight.
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Remus slid out of bed without waking Severus, an old trick he learned from Sirius. He could
get out of bed ten seconds after someone fell asleep and never wake them. He led his way
through the house, brushing his hands against the wood and feeling like at any moment his
chest would explode. It just wasn't the same, it wasn't good with Severus.
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Severus padded up behind him and wrapped his arms around his waist. "Good morning Love"
"Good Morning" Remus choked out.
Obviously Severus didn't notice and went to the kitchen, "would you like some coffee?"
"Sure" Remus said.
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
They sat at the kitchen table making uncomfortable small talk until Severus finally exploded,
which Remus knew was coming.
"WHAT IS GOING ON? WHY ARE YOU ACTING LIKE THIS TODAY?" He screamed
Remus bowed his head and when he looked back up there were tears in his eyes and in the
quietest most deadly voice he asked, "Do you know what day it is, or what today is?"
Severus got quiet and leaned back in his chair, "I knew i couldn't count on you forgetting."
Remus glared and threw his cup at Severus, "NO I DIDN'T FORGET AND I NEVER WILL!" at that
Remus stomped from the room slamming all the doors he could find on the way.
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
He had locked Severus out of the bedroom and was preparing to go the the graveyard and was
staring out the window just remembering.
"Moony?"
"Yes padfoot."
"I want you to have this." Sirius handed him a picture. "You know, just in case. Don't
want you to forget me." He smiled
Remus saddened a little but then smiled, "If I have anything to do with it,nothing will ever
happen to you love."
That was the last night they had together, the last picture of Sirius, the Last passionate
Kiss,the last love making session. Who could have known
Remus picked up the old photo, wearing from being touched so much, and folded at the edges.
"Oh Pads."
the tears started falling even heavier as he got ready.
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
"Mooooooooooony?!!?"
"What was that, it was soo whiny!"
Sirius smiled, "kiss me!"
"I just did!"
Sirius mocked being offended "Was it so bad you don't want to do it again?"
Remus smiled seductively, "oh no, it was very nice" he got into the bed and crawled toward
Sirius, "You taste like candy."
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
Remus looked from the photo in his hands to the photo of Severus. There was a knock on the
bedroom door and Remus whispered "alohamora" and heard the lock click.
"Come in Severus."
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test
"Remus, I am sorry, I didn't mean to lose my temper. Sometimes I just don't know how to handle
all of this, you know."
"O yea, i know."
Severus wrapped him in a hug and kissed him
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
As Severus progressed and pulled him toward the bed Remus allowed in but cringed inside.
they were doing really well until Severus pulled the wrong move, and how could he know? He
wouldn't have, it was something only Sirius did, and only sometimes, in those super passionate
moments, when he couldn't contain himself. Severus bit his neck and Remus jumped.
"I-I am sorry love I didn't me-"
Remus shook his head, "You couldn't have known."
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Severus nodded as his jaw tightened, "Sirius?"
Remus just nodded and got up
Severus fell back to the bed hands clenched in fists against his head.
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Remus headed out, he had decided he was walking to the grave site. He knew there was no
body, but the man he loved was dead and damn them all he was going to have somewhere to go
to remember him, talk to him, be with him.
"Sirius"
"Yes Moony?"
"I love you, you know that right?"
"Of course! I love you too."
"If something happens to you I won't be able to go on."
Sirius pulled him in and bit his neck, "Same here"
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
"I think it's a trap"
"Don't care" Sirius sneered, "Harry's there Moony"
Remus shook his head, "I know, and I know we're going, doesn't mean I can't say I think it's
a trap."
Sirius Kissed him briefly and flooed out, Remus close behind.
Remus snapped back to reality as he turned into the graveyard. He wasn't sure he could
make it before collapsing from the grief.
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
He feel to the ground in front of the tombstone crying.
"Sirius, Sirius, I can't do it, I told you this and I just can't! I don't want Severus!
I know you would want me to stay for Harry, but he is married now and he is happy and I
need to be with you. Two words and I am there!"
Remus made this plea each and every time. He usually chickened out right before killing himself
but the grief was that hard to bear somedays...well everyday.
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
He just sat there staring at the tombstone, wishing he could just hear him one more time.
"If I could just talk to you, ask you what you want me to do!"
Just then he thought back to the day he told Sirius he couldn't live without him.
"Moony promise me something."
"Anything." He smiled at Sirius
"Don't do it."
Remus looked confused, "Do what"
"If I am the first to go, it's OK, just don't kill yourself. I couldn't let you do that,
and if there is a way I won't let you do that."
Remus shook his head, "OK"
Remus pounded the ground, "damn you I want to die!"
He wouldn't have made that promise if he had known things would end up this way.
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...
Remus laid some flowers down and swept off the leaves from the grave.
"We will be together soon. I am always thinking of you love."
Remus walked away. Seeing Severus in the distance in an all black suit waiting patiently
for Remus to return, and Remus was thankful for Severus, and knew this was the way that
he would never be able to kill himself. Severus was always right behind him, always near him.
A/N: Wow OK...didn't turn out how I was going to write it...I know the beginning sounds a
little forced, but the dialogue and memories are the most important. I know its not my best
but it is the first thing i have written in a long long time! love y'all! thanks for reading
all my stories in the past and constructive criticism is always welcomed. I tried harder with spell check and grammar! I promise!