Slowly, everything started coming into place. The facts; the information I did not believe at first; the clues and then hints. I'm quite glad I took the day off. I needed time with myself to think everything through. Right now I'm here, sitting in the corner of my room thinking. It's the one place where I can relax and just figure myself out.
Lately, my life's been hell. From everything to parents, family and my ex. There's just been problem after problem and sometimes I have no idea how to deal with it.
Earlier today I wanted to make plans with friends to go to the gym. Sadly, everyone flopped so I went by myself. Gathering everything and putting it in my bag from 'Pink,' I hopped into my dad's MATRIX, we got a couple of days ago, and headed off to the YMCA.
My dad's a realtor so he dropped me off and went to his "Open House" a block away. He told me to be done at four and then I was free. I killed myself at the Gym today; I'm still trying to figure out why. Every song on my iPOD would remind me of "him," which got me mad because I frankly didn't want to think of "him" right now. After about working out for an hour, I was dead. I decided to call my dad, but he was still busy, so I headed off to the mall and ended up at Tim Hortons.
One thing you have to know about me, I love Timmies. From morning coffee and bagels to donuts and timbits, I bet I spend half my money at that place. Well, I recently heard about the new Ice Cap Mocha's, so I wanted to try them out. Walking through Sears and seeing the line that went pretty much across the mall, I got in to be the twenty-second person in line. I honestly have no idea why they removed the other Timmies in the mall. We really do need three. Well, I got my Mocha and started heading toward Stitches. I felt free for once, I was so happy but I knew I was really hurting inside.
You cheated on me. To someone I don't even know. To someone you went to camp with for a week. I didn't think you'd be so low. At least you told me though, I guess that counts. I guess that's why I still spent the other month of summer with you. Every day we'd still talk to each other, how much more did I want to hurt myself? We still kept web-camming and playing our late night MSN GAMES. We used to always have bets when we were dating and we still did. This night was intense. I was beating him in every game, I know he was cheesed. I print screened them too if he denied them later. It was about one o clock in the morning and we decided to end the conversation off by a game of chess. We played two games. Surprisingly, I won both games. He got cheezed, it was actually pretty funny. He asked for a rematch. A rematch tomorrow at his house on his glass chess set. His house. I've only been to his house two times before and every time I was there we would be making out or his hands were going down my pants as he slowly tried to strip me. It would be awkward if I went there, both of us being single. But I accepted because curious me wanted to see what would happen.