This part of the story is in between Eclipse and Breaking Dawn.
Bella's Hidden Pages
Sometime in the summer
Summer isn't a summer really in Forks. It rains mainly and if it stops, there is cloud. This is better for Edward, as he can venture outside more. I go along with him, spend time with my one true love. The man I want to be with forever.
Forever. That's how long Edward can live for. I'm ageing as the days and nights appear and disappear. I'm currently 18, but my one and only dream is to be 18 forever. The Cullen's are a kind and loving family. This is the family I want to belong in. But how can I when I'm human, and they're vampires. Pain rips through my body when I know none of them are ever getting any older. They all seem fine and happy being immortal, yet Edward is against the choice I am making.
I worry about the thing he told me: "Within a decade, everyone you know will be dead." Plus, I have seen crazed new born's. Each and every one as thirsty and blood crazed as the other. I hated the fact that Victoria stood there and watched Riley being torn and ripped by Seth. Riley was a child, a new born.
Many other problems keep coming. The fact that Jacob loves me. I even asked him to kiss me whilst in a battle! I'm so stupid! When Edward found out, I felt guilty out my own mind! Jacob thinks my choice of being immortal is a bad idea. I'm so confused, I don't what to do.