We Found Love

One night after waking up in Edwards stony cold arms, Bella has an epifinany. Why is she with the monster that tore apart Jacob and the packs' lives? Bella Swan decides, she has had enough.

This is placed somewhere during Eclipse, before the newborn fight.

Rating M for cursing and possible future lemons.

Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyers creations. I am not crazy enough to make Bella choose Edward. :)

Bella POV

I startled awake, gasping for breath. I whipped my head around, searching for any sight of him.

"Edward? Edward?" I screamed, knowing full well I would wake Charlie up. I didn't care, I just needed to reassure myself he was still here.

He appeared at my side in a moment. "Shh, Shh Bella, calm down. I'm right here darling, calm down my love."

I frowned. "Where were you?" Uh oh. He looked guilty. Only I could seem to see through his well-practiced poker face.

"I was outside love, taking care of some urgent business." He said cautiously.

I squinted at him, then checked the time on my clock. 2:37 AM. Who has urgent business at 2 in the morning? He was clearly lying, and by the sheepish look on his face, he knew he was caught. I decided to let it go, as I always did. I loved him too much to get in such a silly argument anyway.

So I just simply nodded, smiled, and laid back down. I might as well get back to bed. Suddenly I heard a knock on my door.

"Bella? Are you alright in there?" Charlie called nervously through the door. Crap, he was probably worried I was going to go back into depression again. As if.

"I'm okay dad, just a nightmare." I called back. To my relief, he said a quick goodnight and walked back to his room. Guess he was still used to me waking up screaming in the middle of the night. But that was when Edward had left me, thank god he's back.

Why? A small voice inside me said. Why? I thought, Because he fills that hole inside me. So did Jacob. It said. And I realized, it was true. Edward did fill the hole, but, he was the one that created it. Jacob hadn't just filled the hole, he was mending it, permanently.

Not only that, but Jacob had reached into the sorrowful excuse for a human being I was, and pulled the real me back out. The one who smiled and laughed at silly jokes, who blushed at just about anything. He had introduced me to his pack and made me family. And what did I do in return? Leave him at the first sign Edward was in trouble, and go back to living happily ever after without him.

Except it wasn't happily ever after. Not to me. I couldn't forget how happy Jacob had made her feel, how hard he made me laugh. Edward never laughed with her, he was so serious. So cold and clingy.

She used to wonder how she deserved a guy like Edward, but when she was with Jake, he helped her realize how self-conscious and insecure Edward had made her. How he made her feel beneath him, when she was just as worthy for attention as he was. Jacob had made her realize a lot of things she didn't know about herself.

I was thinking this over when Edward pulled me to him, making me cradle my head in his neck. I shivered. I couldn't help but wish for Jake's warmth, for his arms around me instead of Edwards. I shook my head. What was wrong with me? I loved Edward. I was going to marry him. It was time to let Jacob go already. They very well couldn't be friends when I changed.

I was still thinking about Jacob, and his arms around me, when I finally fell asleep.

Jacob POV

I felt the ground beneath my paws, the wind flying through my fur, flying past tress as my thoughts consumed me.

Bella. Bella. Bella. Married. Cullen. Bella. Bella. Vampire. Bella. Bella.

Jake felt Embry faze in. His shift must be over already. Jake tried to reign in his thoughts, but most of his fear and anger escaped.

Embry- Jake man, are you ok?

Jake- No man, I'm not ok! Do I seem ok? I finally get her, and she goes running to save her fucking vampire boyfriend, when she comes back, they're back together and she has plans to be changed into one of one! A fucking leach for gods sake!

Embry- Jake man I'm sure she doesn't wanna be one of them, she probably is on suicide watch or something. Chill out.

Jake- Suicide watch? Real funny Embry. Can you just get the fuck out and let me think? I'll take over your watch, in fact, tell Seth I'm taking over his shift as well.

Embry- Ok man... Just howl if you need me.

Jake felt Embry faze out, and then let his thoughts run wild again.

Bella. Bella. Bella. Leach. Bella. Bella. Cullen. Bella. Married. Bella. Bella. Bella. And the night carried on.

Bella POV

I woke up to the familiar feeling of Edward next to me. It was starting to be an unnatural feeling, but I tried not to show it. I was really starting to rethink my choice.

Choosing the pale, attractive vampire over the tan, gorgeous werewolf? What the fuck was I thinking? Oh right, I wasn't, I was too busy trying to save Edward after Alice guilt tripped me into it. It wasn't my fault he had a suicide mission, but Alice sure had made it feel that way.

"Good morning my love." He said to me, brushing a stray strand of hair out of my face.

"Morning Edward." I said, with a somewhat convincing smile. I couldn't help feel if it was Jacob, that it really would be a good morning. Wait, where did that come from? I was in love with Edward damnit.

No your not. Said that annoying little voice inside of me. Stop acting like you are and dump his shiny ass already.

I ignored the voice and went downstairs to make Charlie and I some breakfast. I would dump him, I thought. As soon as I knew he wouldn't go light himself on fire right afterwards. I didn't want that on my conscious.

Part of me was wondering if Jacob would take me back, after all I had done to him. I doubted it, if he did his pack certainly wouldn't welcome me with open arms.

Charlie sat down at the table, and I served him bacon, eggs, toast and black coffee. He smiled at me.

"Thanks Bella." He said, already digging in. "It's delicious!" He stuffed some more in his mouth and then smiled at me.

I smiled back, "Thanks." I said, then ran upstairs to prepare for school. When I looked out the window, I saw Edward's shiny Volvo, just like every morning. But today I didn't feel happy about it, today I wanted to take my banged up red pickup that I loved. I ran downstairs, said goodbye to Charlie and walked up the Edward's car.

He quickly opened the passenger door for me. I hesitated. "Edward, I actually feel like taking my truck today." I remarked while twirling my keys in my hand.

Edward frowned. "Bella love, you know how I feel about that beat up old thing. It's not safe love." He finished by gently tugging me towards his car.

"No." I stated firmly. He wasn't controlling every little thing I did. "I'm taking my truck, and you can hop in, or go yourself." He frowned at this.

"Then at least let me dri-" "That won't be necessary." I cut in. I hopped in my truck and peeled off, only to see Edward in the passenger seat. It felt good anyways, rebelling against him. It felt wrong to though.

When we got to the school Edward suddenly got very serious.

"Bella, if I asked you to stay in the car, would you?" He asked. I narrowed my eyes at him.

"No." I said, getting out. I was certain I heard him mumble something like "Of course not."

I looked up to see the person I least expected. It was him. He was here. I felt my heart soar with joy. He looked up at me, his expresso colored eyes staring straight at myn.

Jacob.

A/N So what did you guys think? This is my first fanfiction, I'm really excited to see how it'll turn out! Please review, I'll cherish every single one. :)